I dreamt that a friend showed me that she has found a way to see her soul on the big screen TV. She stood in front of the TV, and there were coloured dots forming an outline of a humanoid shape. It was pretty cool!
So I tried it. I stood in front of the TV, and to my total surprise and shock, there were 3 humanoid shapes! And they were loud! I wasn’t quite sure of the mood….it was like, they were screaming maybe?
I quickly pulled away, being scared shitless. My friend said the device was on the demon (?) mode and she needed to fix it. So I let her do her thing.
Meanwhile, some more people showed up. As my friend has fixed the device, we all stood in front of the TV to see our souls.
This time, we all looked like Batman, but with black bunny ears! Ahhahah
I wanted to see more detail, but that was when Brianna’s crying woke me up. This is the second time in a row that she woke me up in the morning with her crying!
I was very confused about this dream. Does it hold significance?
Then I realized that, my miniature worship stand with Guan Yin, God of Fortune, and God of Longevity, may have inspired the 3-soul idea. And the big screen TV in the house. And my black bunny ear mask. All these contribute to my dream. So maybe it’s not actually meaningful.
On the other hand, I feel closer to Guan Yin these days. And I believe that now is the time for me to manifest. Look at how I manifested the IKEA shelf! Still so stoked about it! 🙂
I’d like to manifest making a lot of money through my creative abilities. I want to do face massage wand with blue and red healing lights. I want this to be my claim to fame. A unique, effective, and high quality product that benefits people around the world.
I want to do good with the money I make.
I want the rings to do better and better! I want the stackables and the comfort fit to be homeruns! Total hits!
What motivated you, or what is your compelling reason, for attending Date With Destiny?
I want to live with passion and abundance again.
I’m not living with a lot of passion right now.
2 years ago my business was doing exceptionally well. I felt excited and passionate and unstoppable. I tried to expand but that didn’t work out. I explored the world and had fun, and that further cause my business to slide.
Right now I’m still doing well but with a lot more uncertainty for the future and a lot less profit.
I’m now taking action. I’m hustling. But I don’t feel the abundance, the luxury, to enjoy life at the same level as before.
I get it though, that this is part of the journey, the life of an entrepreneur. And I still have fun building my business, trying different things.
I miss having a thriving business. I miss feeling unstoppable.
I want to find my passion and my success again.
I think my passion is directly related to how well my business is doing. When biz is good, I’m exploring the world, improving myself, and loving life. When biz is not as good, I feel jaded and numb. Food doesn’t taste as good, new experiences don’t have their thrill, and I’m constantly in the back of my mind, a bit worried.
I celebrate the small wins, I tackle the obstacles, but it is as though there’s a dark cloud over me.
I’ve saved up more money than 99% of my friends, but I’m not as generous. I’m afraid that I’ll run out of money before I die, or be limited by some lack of money.
I feel that I can’t give freely financially until I have financial freedom. That is, $4MM, or at least $2MM, the minimum I need to live a worry-free life off interest, while supporting my parents if needed.
Describe the one thing you most want to learn, change, or reinforce.
Learn to hesitate less and take action more.
It’s like a mental blockage.
I take forever to execute certain things in business until it’s too late. Procrastination. Maybe it’s due to lack of urgency, or maybe it’s because I have too many distractions (biz and personal) that I don’t do the most important things first or timely.
It helps to have someone like Stan.
In volleyball, I hesitate to hit the ball, and often let my teammate (who are more experienced) to get the ball instead. It’s as though I am too polite. In this team sport, when I fail, it very clearly ruins the game. So I shrink away. I’m like a supporting actor to the main characters. I set the balls, and my teammates get the scoring shots. I’m actually a pretty good setter, but it goes unnoticed because it doesn’t score. My teammates don’t set the balls to me very often, because they take the shot when they can; and when they do set it, they set it to someone else because they’d rather set it to someone who is more likely to score.
I think if I play 2 on 2 I’ll improve. I just need to find partners around my level to play with.
And if I go to courses, I’ll also improve.
Last year, I was away a lot so I didn’t try to find practicing partners. I also tried to take a course but no one showed up. Next year I’ll be away a lot again. Maybe it’s time to pick a different sport! Volleyball hurts my knees anyway.
How will you know if you have achieved your outcome from this program?
If I have freed myself from the mental blockage that causes me to hesitate.
Have found a path to living life with passion and abundance.
What are some of your goals for the next 12 months?
I have many travel plans next year: A month in Peru with a group of digital nomads, taking Mom to Europe, Life and Wealth Mastery in Fiji, and 80 Days around the world with some good friends.
My business goal is to have a thriving and growing business that is 99% delegated and systemized for growth, so I can travel happily and stress-free. I want more abundance in time and wealth.
My personal goal is to be my most funny, quirky, daring, smart, generous, no-hesitation, and kind self, because it makes me so happy! Plus there’s the side effect of becoming more magnetic, inspiring, and attracting more interesting people into my life.
Another goal is to learn a new skill or cultivate an existing one. Maybe learn Spanish, or skateboarding!
What has been your primary focus in life? Where have you put the most time and energy?
My higher level focus has been to have more freedom and joy in life by having more health, wealth, and love.
The past 9 years I put most of my time and energy in building a successful business. The past 2 years I focused more on building meaningful relationships. The past six months I’ve been back to spending more time on my business again, because it needs my attention.
Please Describe 4 events that have shaped your life
Punished for self expression: I was a smart but eccentric kid. One time in kindergarten I stood up singing in the middle of the class, and the teacher totally humiliated me and made me stand facing the wall for the rest of the class. I learned to be less self-expressive.
Alopecia: Losing all my hair when I was 10 years old. I learned self-consciousness, depression, low self esteem. I learned to be cautious about what I said to other kids, because I used to speak before thinking, and I said some mean things to my classmates. I became a super polite and nice kid, to avoid having other kids retaliating by making fun of my hair.
Embracing alopecia: I formed an alopecia support group. My group inspired me to be more than ok with my alopecia. I came out to all my friends on Facebook and Youtube. I learned that I can make a mental shift in an instant, and turn something that had been a major hold-back in my life into a major positive. It’s one of the most enlightening and rewarding experiences in my life.
Succeeding in my business: After 5 years, I finally found success. I learned that it’s important to persevere, to try many things (to succeed faster next time). I also learned that I can be more of my eccentric and fun self when I’ve found more financial freedom and self confidence.
I haven’t journaled in a while. Feel a bit out of touch with myself. Let’s improve that 🙂
Life has been interesting.
Roomie
I moved in with Masha (and her two kids) 2 months ago. It was great, until she went to Ibiza for 10 days and left me with Artsy. While she partied, I had to baby-sit a super noisy teen ager. When she came home, I told her I have to move out. But she’s been disciplining him and it’s liveable here again. So I’ve decided to stay. Rent is $1000/month, which is way cheaper than me renting my own place (around $2000/month). Plus the view is unparalleled, and the pool and sauna are amazing, and it’s nice to have Masha as my roomie for the most part.
I must admit that I liked her a lot more before she left for Ibiza. I admired her ability to juggle being a mom, an entrepreneur, and still having time for dancing etc.
When you live with someone, you see things more clearly. She has been a lousy mom, a distracted entrepreneur who parties too much, and she is borrowing her health from the future. Well, sort of. She’s been sick one way or another since I moved in. Right now she has pneumonia and an ear infection.
She’s also become more and more self centred. I don’t know why. Can’t stop talking about herself. Letting go of her responsibility as a mom a lot of the times.
But she has so many great qualities too. And I need to be less judging.
Some of her great qualities include, she is very chill about anything I do. She is generous with money and help and food. She is non-judging, which I can learn from. She is very happy in general. She has a good sense of humour. She has a zest for life. She asks good life questions sometimes. Oh and she rarely speaks badly of people. She is always appreciative and optimistic. She is easy to live with, easy to communicate with.
I can learn some good traits from her. No one is perfect. I will appreciate her good, and accept her bad.
DUAL – Don’t judge. Understand. Accept. Love.
I want to be a better human being. A more charismatic one. One that people want to be with and love.
Business
I’m being more proactive and more hardworking these days. Sales are not yet reflecting this, but I hope they will soon.
I’m delegating. I’m planning to systemize. I’m building a team.
Love
I’ve been dating John. Sometimes I like him, sometimes I don’t. I think he is not interesting enough to be the one for me. But, it’s nice to have him sometimes.
Health I’ve been swimming, which is great. I’ve been feeling a bit of abdominal discomfort. I suspect that it’s my endometriosis. I’m going to try out castor oil!