Hello me! Hello God!
I haven’t written here in a long time and I miss talking to you 🙂
I remember when I felt more connected to you God. I’ve been preoccupied with living. I suppose that’s not a bad thing. In the past, I remember praying to you to achieve succeed in business, and to find a soulmate of a boyfriend.
You’ve helped me SO MUCH. I appreciate you from the deepest core of my heart!
You are my true parent. My home. My origin. My source of love and energy. My inspiration.
I need to call home regularly. And visit you spiritually.
Health, Wealth, Love (family, friends, boyfriend), Happiness, Fulfillment
Health has been good. I don’t like aging a single bit, but compared to my friends of around the same age, I’m doing amazing! Thank you. I’m very grateful.
Some changes:
Fatter, harder to shed fat.
Dryer skin for face and body.
Flabbier skin on belly
More cellulite I think. Possibly from inactivity.
Slightly droopier eyes maybe.
Inconsistent sex drive. Less intense orgasms.
More mood changes. Often the bad.
Venous lake lip
A bald spot on the left side of my mohawk, but I don’t think it’s aging related
A little harder to see up close when I have my glasses on
Some good:
Discovered Ashwaganda to help mood and stress. Lemon Balm seems to help too.
Metabolic renewal exercises are helping me tone up again
So far things that are changing can be improved with supplements or exercise. Some I have yet to do are: figure8 dancercise, facercise.
Wealth has been good too. The biggest win is Bunny helping me invest in stocks. Last year my wealth doubled, from about $1.6M to $3.2M, plus about $100K/year dividend income! All made possibly by Bunny. So grateful!
Business the past year has been great too, better than the year before. My revenue was just under $1M CAD. My profit was about $200K CAD before tax.
I wish I was able to do $1M+ USD in revenue and $300K+ CAD in profit, but on the bright side:
• I got into eCommerceFuel thanks to Cyndi. It is full of high-performing biz owners!
• Etsy tripled the past year! Amazing!
• knotheory.com doubled the past year!
• Engraving is doing well! Hired Nicole!
Love has been improving too.
Bunny is going through the toughest health challenge right now, and we don’t have sex anymore. But he is going to prolotherapy, and hopefully he’ll see improvement soon and heal in a reasonable amount of time. Nothing ventured nothing gained, right? It’s my biggest wish that he heals. If he is on the path of recovery and he can feel the improvements, it will mean so much to me. More presentness, more sex, more quality time, more joy.
Mom is starting to feel aging for the first time it seems, getting dizzy spells. She wants me to call her everyday now. I hope we can figure out the source of her vertigo. I hope she can start dancing again.
Dad only talks about dogs these days. I feel him age too.
The older my parents get, the more boring their conversions get. But it’s also due to COVID, there’s less going on.
Friendships have been good. I’m closer than ever to Ty, Cyn, Anna (and Wilson), Elena, Nicole.
I really have enjoyed spending time with Ty and Cyn especially. Separately though. I hope their relationship is good again eventually. Though I do enjoy spending time with them separately even more.
I feel very lucky to have these friends.
I’ve distanced myself from Masha. She triggers me somehow. So far it’s been easy though. Maybe I triggered her too. I’ve really enjoyed not having her in my life!
Lynsey reached out to me and we reacquainted. But she is so not fun anymore! Her sense of humour differs from mine. I used to find her funny. I’m happy for her and that she has 2 kids and a pretty content life. I’m so uninterested in her though.
I’m looking forward to having eCommerceFuel friends!
I feel very blessed that you always give me what I wanted at the time. I wanted to be friends with Masha, and you made that happen! Now I don’t, but I know that you made it happen and I’m very grateful. I learned a lot from her.
And then I wanted to be very close friends with Ty, and you made that happen too! I wanted Cyn and Ty to move over to Vancouver, and you made that happen too!
I like hanging out with them one on one and as a group. So happy that I can do both with them.
I laugh so much when I’m with friends. It’s good. Always fun with Ty. Always fun at Anna and Wilson’s. I was able to give Cyndi a birthday gift of an adventure book, and we had a blast on the first adventure! Steven Willows was super funny at Cyndi’s birthday bon fire. I want him to be a close friend of mine too!
I hope to have lots more inspiring, quirky, smart, fun, funny friends!
Happiness
I socialize more these days, which definitely contributes to my happiness.
Learning to be nice to Bunny and not get mad. We are at a much better place now.
Lately for the first time I realize how often I’m stressed by work. Stress takes away joy, playfulness, vibrancy, and motivation. I’ll learn to not sweat the small things!
Sometimes I find myself dwelling on the negative. Can be a small thing, and it just stays on my mind. I’ll learn to manage my state better. Let that shit go!
So the ability to not be brought down by adversities and the ability to bounce back quickly if I ever do get brought down – these are the key to my happy states!
Some ideas:
• Having more friends can help put things into perspectives. A lot of people are going through hard stuff! I’m very lucky. Remember that.
• When stressed, think about, is it figureoutable? If so, don’t stress. Also, everything is figureoutable.
• When in bad mood, listen to music, dance, walk, jump on the trampoline, read or watch something funny, hang out with a friend, take deep breaths, read memorable funny moments in Evernote, name 5 things I am lucky to have and/or experience, think about good/fun/funny things or people.
• Imagine myself watching myself from a higher level, higher consciousness. How can I be more wise?
• Imagine turning stress into excitement
• Imagine turning anger into motivation or funny skit
• Imagine turning adversities into opportunities
• Imagine turning shortcomings into advantages
• Imagine turning anything negative into motivations
Having the ability to turn negative into a positive source of fuel is a super power!
Fulfillment
What do I want to accomplish and experience this life?
I want to have amazing friends in my life. I want to be in love with someone who loves me, in a fully satisfying way. I want to have lots of stress-free great time.
I want to lift my friends up so they can reach their life goals, feel validated, and boost their income.
I want to feel free. Free to be, free to live anywhere, free to do anything, free to buy anything, free to do what I want when I want, free to experience what I want to experience.
I want my biz to bring in over $1M USD in revenue. I want to have $100M CAD in my wealth. I want Bunny to be rich too.
I want to work on the Collabrative idea with Ty, making it a reality.
I want to get good at something cool.
I want to have a positive impact on the world.