I had so much fun last night with Alex and his friends!
Omg we laughed so much. I don’t think I have laughed this much my entire life.
Alex asked if I wanted to go do shrooms and watch the northern lights at 2am with his friends. He didn’t think I would come. I’ve never said yes to his invites.
It was last minute and I was so on the fence. On one hand, it was already late and I wanted to go to bed early. On one hand, I thought, gosh it would be such a fun thing to say that I have done, and this was an opportunity to boost our friendship to the next level.
After some debate, I decided to go. I’m so glad I went.
I brought some lime juice and I’m also glad I did that. I got an uber and it arrived so quickly, I rushed downstairs without the juice! came back up for it. Worth it. Street cred boost.
The place was 3 minute’s walk from Bunny’s, so that made me feel safer. I called Bunny to let him know my plan.
The guy who lives in the townhouse, his parents are from Taiwan! Later on I found out that he was only 24 yo! Nice townhouse in kits.
Alex was there with 3 guy friends and 1 girl friend. They were all Asian haha. All very polite and rich.
I told everyone about the lime juice. Alex looked it up, and found the term lemon tekking. Everyone was so curious. I’m glad I brought enough for everyone. Eddie roughly took out 15g, and blended it together with the lime juice. We each got 2 shot glasses. It was pretty nasty and chunky.
We called an uber and got to Spanish banks at 12:30am. Everyone felt the shroom already because of the lemon tekking. I barely felt it.
Eddie brought the entire rest of the mushroom, and later in the night, Alex and I bought had a bit more. Maybe 1 or 2 grams more. That was when I felt it more.
It wasn’t a spiritual journey. It was just fun. Everything was hilarious.
It was quite cold. Most of the night was just about keeping warm. Eddie kept asking if we should go home. “Diamond hands”, Alex said. Haha.
I think I was always a bit attracted to Alex.
We got physically closer as the night progressed, in the name of keeping warm. At one point I was just sitting on him. He was holding me. We both thought it felt so good. He said, “Wow you fit perfectly in my arms”.
It was so nice to be in his arms. I definitely don’t get enough physical touch these days.
He is smart and pretty funny. He is not tall but he has a nice body. I felt good where we were at. We took turn laughing, giggling.
The Taiwanese guy and the girl were quiet. Eddie was walking around super cold. He turned his jacket into a head wrap. Every time we saw him he had another style of headwrap on him. That sent me into laughs.
At one point, we were all listening and vibing with the music. I think I experienced synesthesia, where I felt the music buzzing in my body. We were all immersed in the music.
I looked up and suddenly noticed the moon was at the horizon and it was freaking huge, and hanging sideways like a cheshire cat’s smilie.
I said, “Is that the moon?!”
Everybody looked, and Eddie said, “Nooo”.
Alex said, “If it’s not the moon then what the fuck is it?” Ahahahhaha
Eddie went 2 steps closer, crouched down, and tilted his head sideways.
Alex said, “Does it look different from that angle?” Ahhahahhaha
10 minutes later, Eddie said, “Wow it IS the moon!” Ahahahhaa
It was more fun that I have experienced in sooo long. Omg it was so amazing.
I wanted to be close to Alex. He was sweet. He noticed that my hands were cold so he was warming me up. We were in a zone. I was breathing, and moaning lightly. He rubbed my leg and thigh a bit. At one point he actually rubbed by pussy lightly. I closed my eyes thinking, “Wow is this really happening? I’m sitting on Alex and he is rubbing my pussy?”
He would repose and try to stop himself.
I had my lips very close to his ears. Moaning and breathing softly. I think it must’ve been nice for him too.
I loved the physical touch. Loved having someone I’m attracted to there, cuddling me and taking care of me. That made the night extra fun.
At one point Eddie asked, “Why are we here? We could be in a warm room.” Ahhahahaha
Indeed, it seemed like we went through all that, just to be able to have an excuse to cuddle in the cold and bond. It was so nice. Alex and I were perfectly happy to be there in the cold, holding each other.
It’s one of those things….it’ll never be as special again I don’t think. It was our first bonding.
More and more cars came over later in the night. It was super crowded and bright! It was funny.
Some people brought a glowing volleyball! That was fun. We joked about merch, Amazon ppc for the product.
Alex was quite fun. I don’t know if he found me as funny though. He wouldn’t super laugh at what I say, but he would say what I say later on like it’s his own thoughts. It’s interesting.
I laughed at everything he said. The rest of the group laughed at what I said sometimes, especially the Taiwanese guy. I like all of them a lot.
We think we saw a green hue. That was it. Northern Lights.
We huddled in the warm men’s bathroom at one point, standing under the vent, washing our hands with warm water. Haha..so weird of a night.
We called an Uber at 3:30am, and came back to Taiwanese guy’s place ’til 7:30am.
I sat by the fireplace with Alex. Eddie fell asleep on the sofa behind us. The other two sat at the dining table. Had green tea.
Alex and I talked about biz, vaccine, etc. We were holding hands, he would rub my leg or ankle. I was a little self conscious about the dryness of my skin haha. I am so much older than everyone. 10 years older than Alex.
He was sweet. But I also know from Shawn how he can be ruthless.
But I am drawn to him.
His looks are just fine. Not stunning. And he is covered in even more tattoos since last I saw him. But, none of that mattered. I just wanted to be close to him. I wasn’t having an urge to kiss him, or date him, or even have sex with him. I think just making out would be so fun. But…it would not be the right thing to do.
We moved to the dining table and joined the other two. We had some intimate conversations about first time having sex, etc. I like how the group is so open. It was a nice time.
Alex felt sick in the stomach and the girl too. They both went to lie down. I chatted wit the Taiwanese guy for a bit until uber came. He was a bit shocked to learn my age. I was a bit shocked to learn his age. He liked my neon green matching sweatsuits haha. We had a good bond.
Alex sat up when I was leaving. We hugged. It was a bit rushed. But, that was all we can do anyway. Kissing would not have been appropriate.
I came home, showered, masturbated. I haven’t been this wet in a while. It felt so nice. I don’t know how we’ll proceed..but…this experience definitely levelled up our bond.
Today is Sunday. Yesterday after coming home, showering, and heading to bed at around 8am, my day alternated between sleep and masturbation haha. And thinking about Friday still made me laugh. It was such a great time. Towards the night I told Alex that I had a great time.
Today, I woke up at 7am. Pretty much recovered. Eagerly went to see what Alex wrote. He said he was glad that I had a good time and that he hasn’t laughed so hard in forever.
He went to another party Saturday night and was hungover. Said he won’t be partying for a while, and said, without asking, “Let’s chill soon, binge on some shows. It’ll be raining” something like that.
I was a little disappointed in that. No dates? No forest? I said, “Lol that sounds like Netflix and chill”. He said, “Hahah maybe…. ;)”
I told him that we had amazing cuddles so maybe no chillin. I’m still in a relationship…though it’s been hard lately.
He said no worries, let him know if I wanted to talk. I said thanks.
All this made me a bit sad.
Bunny is going through a hard time. I feel like he’s been going through nothing but hard times since I’ve known him.
We talked on the phone today and he was more miserable than ever. His knee and back were bothering him.
Will he ever be in a good place in life? How long should I stay with him?
I’m so into Alex right now. I guess that’s my problem. I get really into someone really quickly.
But, I’ll stay away. For sure if I see him I’ll be consumed by him. He seems like he would be amazing in bed.
He is horny, I am horny, we want each other, but….we can’t. Sigh.
But, it’s possible that he is not even a good person. He was incredibly evil to Shawn.
One of the reasons why I wanted to keep Bunny as my boyfriend is to be able to make more guy friends and slowly eval them instead of sleeping with them or dating them too early on.
What I didn’t know about myself is that I get obsessed and lose interest in the guy that I’m dating.
Right now it’s already a little bit heading in that direction. I need to halt things with Alex.
It’s a bit of a turnoff for me that he is all tattooed anyway. Ugh, but I’m so into the fact that he is smart, funny, and playful. He has a good amount of playful. Not too much, not too little. He is such a good entrepreneur and business person. That part is so inspiring. I think that’s another reason why I like him…that’s someone I can be a power couple with.
But he is such an all-or-nothing guy. Parties hard, works hard.
He is good at so many things…good biz person, good athlete, good dancer….I bet he is amazing in bed too.