Month: November 2017

This morning I thought about how much I like Alex.

He is so sweet, so attentive, so good to me. In many ways he is perfect for me.

In the evening when we talked on the phone, he seemed sad. Work isn’t as fun as he had hoped. He had to work on the electric scooters and he didn’t like it. It seemed like he found the electric stuff really hard.

It was a bit of an unattractive moment. He seemed like an illiterate person who doesn’t want to be given the reading job.

But I thought about how he is actually very good at teaching himself things, and encouraged him to learn it. He seemed receptive….almost too receptive. I hope he is real about it haha.

His work is getting him down a bit. It tires him out, and he is frustrated that he won’t get to do bike design. (Though he was clear-headed enough to advise Steve to not design new cargo bikes yet, and to order ready-made cargo bikes first.) I wish he can get used to this job and find it easy.

I think I need to remember that his talents won’t completely be the same as mine. And that his bad might be his good also. And I shouldn’t compare him to other people’s boyfriends. Most of all, I need to remember that he loves me very much. He hasn’t said so yet, but we both feel this way, I know. No one has ever loved me this much. For that, he is a keeper.

 

I need a company who can:
• Create a site like Enso – mobile friendly, SEO’d.
• Create good photos

I thought I lost him, but he msg’d me the next day and wanted to talk.

He had calmed down and was now more receptive to communicate our differences. He appologized for putting me through this. I appologized to him too.

The past three days we talked on the phone every day for hours. Today we’ll finally see each other! I hope everything goes well 🙂

I like him a lot. We like each other a lot.

He is not happy with his current roommate. I might’ve been receptive to move in with him right away, but I’m going to be in South Africa for 1.5 months.

What are some possible scenarios?
1. He keeps this roommate until March 30th, then I move in.
Pros
– I do like his space – close to downtown, close to the sea wall, close to Kits for volleyball, great view.
– We’ll get to live together
– Motivation for Alex to make more money

Cons
– Too soon to move in together perhaps. But we gotta try it to know if we are compatible.
– Paying more rent. Paying $1300 instead of $700. ($600 more!)
– Older place

2. He gets a room at Cyndi’s, or somewhere that is less than $800
Pros
– He gets to save up some money
– Good influence from Ty and Cyn, potentially

Cons
– We will be losing out on his gorgeous space. Vacancies are rare. Rent is higher in equiv. places

3. He moves in with me
Pros
– We can possibly both pay much less rent. Maybe $1000 combined. I save $200 a month, he saves $700 a month. We can use that money for other things and have more fun.
– So much space! And a modern place.

Cons
– He’ll need to store or sell his furniture
– Not sure how long we get to stay here
– Farer for him to get to work; if he drives my car, I’d have no car to use. But it’s actually not THAT far. Only 27 minutes!
– If it doesn’t work out then he’ll have to find a worse place and pay more

My husband is great to me and great for me, as I am to him and for him!

He is fun, funny, smart, and handsome. We love each other SO MUCH and have so much fun together!

We share the same morals, same love languages, many same interests, and same sense of humour. We are absolutely loyal to each other and crazy about each other.

We have amazing physical chemistry. We love each other’s bodies. I love his face, dick, ass, skin, body type, and everything. He loves my face, bald head, tits, ass, skin, and everything. Sex is earth-shatteringly awesome.

We communicate with each other so well. We rarely fight. We are best friends! He is my sunshine <3

He is similar to me in age, and looks young like I do. We are both healthy and fit too.

He is internet business savvy, and we both run successful businesses online. We like to help each other in our businesses too! We are an awesome team and a power couple.

We both have the time and money to travel, and we love travelling together!

He has good common sense, and is high in IQ and EQ. He is emotionally stable and positive. I am becoming more and more so too.

I love everything about him. I adore his uniqueness, his perfection and his flaws. He turns me on. I love how I am and who I’m becoming as I spend time with him. We are so in love.

For the first time I feel like I’m home. I feel so loved, and I love him with all my heart. He is the one.

I’m back in Vancouver!

No more Alex. Too bad. But, it’s a new beginning.

I’ll learn to be less piercing when I speak, and manage my anger.

 

Last day in Taiwan! I was so excited, but not right now.

I woke up to a stuffy nostril this morning. Not sure if I was getting a cold.

I wasn’t gonna talk to Alex anymore, because I wasn’t feeling great. He left a message that was choppy because of bad connection, so we talked on the phone for a bit.

While talking, he started heating up a pizza.

Before that, he wasn’t being very sexy either.

I was pissed.

I said I was gonna let him go. He said, “kisses” (which is lame btw), and I ignored him.

He messaged me to apologize. I told him how I felt. He said he was dumb to do that.

I was still upset, so I said I didn’t want to feel this way after 3 weeks of waiting to see him. And I told him that he didn’t need to come to the airport.

That was over 2 hours ago, and he still hasn’t replied.

Well. I’m surprised and sad. I thought he’d tried to call me or at least say something.

But I won’t message him again. I’ll just have to wait and see.

If this falls through, I’ll be fine. I’m fine on my own. I’m going to South Africa with a bunch of people. I might meet someone.

I’ve already turned on my OkC profile again. A bit quick I know, but I’m really pissed that he didn’t reply.

For 3 whole weeks I’ve been waiting to see him. I had been missing him. And we seemed strong. And now, he acts like he isn’t enthusiastic. Sigh. I definitely was too eager when I thought I’d move in with him soon.

I want to write a bit just to talk to myself.

1 more week and I get to be back in Vancouver! I can hardly wait 🙂

Why do we do such things? Why does Mia care so much about her mom and her mom didn’t care about her? Mia takes 2 trips back per year, and sacrificed getting PRP when her mom was rushed to the hospital.

Why do I feel the need to come back to see Dad once every year or two years? He is not the worst, but rather rude and annoying to be with. He is so pathetic in so many ways, and such a liar.

I know now that his siblings will take care of him. Big Auntie will.

I also know now that $30000 TWD is enough to cover one’s expense if one doesn’t have to pay rent.

So why is Dad so poor?

He’s had too many secrets and lies. I think he needs them.

He told XiaoShu that I was starting my biz and needed money, so he ask him for money. Such a lie.

I’ve never got any money from him, exepct for $10K a few years ago. But he told me Grandma gave that to him. He said he got $80K USD from Grandma.

I’m in Taiwan now. 11th day of my 21 day trip.

I can’t wait to go home! Next year I think I’ll either skip this trip or make it 10 ~ 14 days.

My ring sales have been so shitty. I’m stressed. I have plans on how to bring the numbers back up, and I have Amazon Exclusives. I will have a great come back and be able to expand my ring sales I’m sure. I will rise to top three in this market.

Alex has been great. He had an eye-opening trip in China with his boss Steve. I’m so thrilled that we can relate on many things now. He has been good to me. He is so sweet. He is a quick learner too. He is becoming more and more of a large-minded entrepreneur, and he adores me. I’m looking forward to spending more time with him. He is so perfect for me. Thank you for bringing him into my life! I think he is the one 🙂

I don’t love spending time with Dad. But I know I have it pretty good as it is. Some people have parents that are way worse. I want Dad to be able to gain rights to his land and sell it, and make at least $1MM USD from it. This will ensure he lives a good life for his remaining time on Earth.

I also hope that he goes to community classes. It’s amazing. I was looking into it yesterday and didn’t find it, then today Aunt Melody told me about exactly what I was looking for!

We get to stay at Aunt Melody’s place for the next 10 days! It’s such a beautiful place. The surrounding community is really beautiful too. I had no idea that a community can be this nice in Taiwan.

Overall I’m grateful. Thank you so much, my angels, my darling.