Ray Ray getting a twin! Feeling lonely

Business is good. Ray Ray is getting a twin this week! More envelopes to be delivered tomorrow (20,000pc). Just got the new ring tools that are slightly bigger. Alyssa is getting a hang of things. Office has more and more furniture. Facebook Ads are ok not spectacular, but overall our sales are good. Amazon doing better than last year. Etsy still strong. Our January was about $90K USD. 45 + 25 + 20 (Amazon+Etsy+Shopify)

If we hire 2 more people to engrave, we’ll be able to reach 3x or 4x the productivity! Aiming to grow 10 times.

More Amazon listings ($45K)
More designs I know will sell (horoscopes, dual layer) ($10K)
Influencer seeding ($35K)

These 3 actions can help us double. Probably can be handled by 4 full time staff and 2 engraving machines.

Then:
More budget for FB ads ($25K)
Better IG ($15K)
More of what worked before ($50K)

These actions will help us triple. 5 full time and 3 engraving machines. 2 Ray Rays and one expensive one.

Then:
Collaborations ($50K)
New products (bracelets? Swarovski?) ($30K)
More of what worked before ($100K)

These actions will help us reach $300+$150 = $450K/month.

That’s 5 times the revenue, bring us to $5MM~$6MM per year.

Then:
Higher conversion
Bigger marketing stunts
Subscription
Growth hacking

This will help us double. Bringing us to $12MM per year.

And that’s 10x our revenue!

 

 

Relationship Patterns

Going through a course “Create the Love” that Cyndi sent me.

This part made me ball my eyes out:

What did you long for from your parents the most, as a child?

I wanted to go away on weekends with my family!

It seemed like everyone else in my class got to do that. I never even went to the beach with my parents! And we lived on an island!

They were always fighting. I wanted harmony, laughter.

But I didn’t know what that looked like.

Mom and Dad joking around, having a good conversation. I have NEVER seen that! Whoa.

I have seen them being intimate in bed together (somewhat sexual), and I felt a bit left out. That didn’t happen much though…maybe just once.

Other than that I’ve only seen them fight. Or Dad pitching his story or ideas to Mom and Mom was uninterested / didn’t believe in him making it happen. Or Mom begrudgingly served Dad late night dinner while he read newspaper and show no gratitude for her.

I also didn’t want to have a brother, because I didn’t want some of the love to go to him.

I felt love from Mom. She bought me cute clothes, took me to many interesting classes, did homework with me and we had fun, laughed at my jokes, made a real effort finding the best teachers and environment for me.

But later I also resented her because of how she thought I was ugly when I lost my hair. Because of how she withheld some love and affection when I lost my hair.  Also she always openly criticized my eyes and nose.

Now, I feel pretty good towards Mom. She doesn’t judge my looks negatively anymore. She thinks highly of me. She is a bit afraid to upset me. She misses me and wants me around. She spoils me with her cooking and her friends’ cooking. She spoils me with money and I spoil her with money. She sides with me, gives me freedom, doesn’t judge me at all! I feel very lucky.

Dad didn’t have a real issue with my alopecia, joking that I’m so brilliant my hair fell out. He taught me math and science and astronomy.

But Dad was not really there for me. He was all about his business. I felt not close to him at all. Also he had a bad temper. It didn’t happen much, but he did call me an idiot a few times, such as when I got him the wrong newspaper. I did not miss him at all when Mom and I came to Canada because I never was very close to him. Even now, I don’t miss him ever.

Now, I talk to Dad once in a while. I don’t really enjoy our conversations that much. He cuts me off or disagrees with me often. The topics are less interesting than before.

Both Mom and Dad are less interesting than before. They love talking about food prices haha. I like to fold clothes or do other chores when they talk.

Looking at Mom’s life, she has lots of friends, she dances, she laughs a lot, she is keeping herself healthy. She is pretty happy in general.

Dad has almost no friends. Loves his dog. Loves the internet as he learns a lot about history etc from it. He is probably happy enough too.

I much prefer Mom’s life.

When I’m old, I’ll want to have lots of good friends, laugh a lot, and do fun things together.

I think it’s reassuring to know that many of Mom’s close friends are made later on in her life. It’s not too late for me to start!


A really cool insight from the course is that, if there was something that you longed for from your parents that you didn’t get, you can give it to yourself.

So, that would be, weekend trips / longer trips. Laughing and having fun with my partner. No judgement, no criticism. Lots of confidence in them, lots of support for them.

If I love my partners like how Mom loves me, then that’s pretty good. If I love them like how Mom loved Dad, then not good.

Actually I went on a few trips with Mom too. We have that. Maybe she missed out on that during her time with Dad and wanted more vacays too!


Another insight from the course is to view your parents as the children of their parents. This allows you to be more understanding and forgiving.

What harms did my grandparents do to my parents?


When I love people, they …think I’m generous. They give me more undivided attention. They are more sincere.

When I let people love me, they…enjoy it because I show gratitude and I reciprocate.

When I love people, I…give them all my attention, I go above and beyond, but without compromising my own livelihood, I am generous.

When I let people love me, I… well I always let people love me! As they should haha. When people love me I feel so happy, worthy. I want to love them back even more.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

LifeHack Tribe – what do I really want in life

I joined the LifeHack Tribe recently for productivity.

While writing my mission statement about making $100 million, I realized that I am most motivated to make more friends and meet my special someone.

So my main goals would be:

  1. Create more free time from work while still growing biz respectably
  2. Use this free time to make more friends

I’m not super upset that I’m 41 and don’t have a group of close friends. That’s ok. It’s never too late! Mom is always building new friends, and so is Cyndi.

The current me is pretty cool so I should be able to make lots of cool friends!

Ideas:

  1. Focus on friends in the entrepreneurship circle: ECF, local entrepreneurs, from LHT or youtube or IG or linkedin etc
  2. Focus on funny and smart friends
  3. Focus on people who are generous (e.g. with information)
  4. Once a week, reach out to an existing friend and a new friend – invite them to something interesting

 

Make the process so simple that we can quickly train and hire cheap, then have 1 person in charge (Nicole) of the team per shift.

Or have multiple machines per person to max the efficiency.

 

 

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Saw Alex after 3 weeks

Finally saw Alex after 3 weeks! He had covid and was on a 10-day dopamine detox – no masturbation and video games.
I kinda didn’t expect to see him so soon actually. And, I’ve been trying to not feel as much towards him.
Also, moving to the new office and learning DesktopShipper have been keeping me super busy. I’m at the office ’til 11:30pm a few days this past week.
I didn’t start getting ready until the last minute, and I kept thinking he might cancel. But he didn’t, and he was on time! 5pm.
I decided to wear a sexy and also funny outfit because it’s almost Valentine’s. It was a lace red bra and bottom, except there was no fabric at the tits and crotch ahahaha
I told him I was wearing something sexy and kinda porny. He said he was excited and hard already.
I always wear a silky robe when I greet him at the door. I don’t like being too exposed right away.
We came to my living room, and he “unwrapped” my robe. My nipple kinda bounced/flicked out from the robe as he did that. It was pretty hawt. He said this was his favourite outfit so far.
He kept saying he’ll cum in like 2 minutes or 10 seconds because it’s been 10 days. He had also said we’d do 5 rounds. I should never go by what he says…he says many things and don’t necessarily mean them.
He put on a condom because he didn’t trust himself to pull out in time….and for the first time I learned that I really don’t like condoms!
I was waiting for him to finish so we can have condom-less sex. He took more than 2 minutes for sure. Was hoping for more since it’s been so long….
Our second round was better….though I got on top of him so I didn’t feel the amazing dick entry as much. I have been working out and eating less (because at office), and I hadn’t eaten all day, so I was feeling pretty great about my body. I rode him confidently, and can tell he enjoyed looking at my body. He grabbed my tits and said he love them. Or like them.  When he saw my ass earlier in the night he was like wow…it was like he had forgotten how nice it was.
At one point he was putting his dick in slowly then quickly…I asked if he was A/B testing…he said yes…haha. I said maybe I need to be towelled off cuz my wetness made me feel less. He said he was drying his dick (I guess on the sheet!) so he was thinking the same. He put his dick in again, and it felt amazing! Wow. He figured it out! No wonder he is successful!
I think he is a bit preoccupied by work. Anime profile pic NFT is taking off! I wouldn’t be surprised if he makes tens of millions from this project. I would be happy for him, but also would be worried that he’d be too far ahead of me.
We talked about the future. He wants to start a family in 4 or 5 years. Sell his businesses, invest more in real estate in New Brunswick and live off it, build a dream house with pool for his cousins’ kids.
He has such clarity.
I said I’m not thinking in terms of years, but amount. I want to make $100 million. He seems surprised at this lofty goal. I’m surprised that he is surprised. I feel that his NFT can reach that.
I really like that he is always on top of the latest trend and very good at getting in early.
At the same time, I dread the thought that I might be left behind. I dread the thought that we can’t have this forever.
I love spending time with him so much. And I know he does too.
I told him he is the most compatible person I’ve ever met.
We laugh so much each time.
I told him that cute animals, romantic connection, movements of freedom are among my recipes for happy and meaningful moments. I said I want to ride giraffes. He thought I said “I wanna ride your ass” hahahaha
We were singing to “Let’s stay together” by Al Green. And he was really high pitched hahaha
Somewhere in the middle he asked, “Miss me?” I said yes. I ask him, he said “Of course”. That is a bit cute, but I’d never ask. I’d just say it. I’d just tell him that I miss him, instead of checking to see if he misses me.
I wish I had a way of making lots of money like he does with the NFT. I want to make $100MM!
Right now, the rings are doing great. We are getting $3000 to $4000 in sales each day! The only bottleneck is engraving staff and machine. I think I can bring it up to $5000 a day if we have enough engraving staff and machine.
I need to have faith that I can bring this to $100M. It’s not NFT, but it has so much potential. We can make it a luxury brand.
Alex gave me a hickey last night. Not on purpose.. I had to wear my neon green turtle neck today.
I thought about him a lot. Gosh I miss him so much again. I want to see him this weekend. I want to see him every weekend. But he only has the capacity/desire to seeing me every other weekend…sigh. I want someone who wants me as much as I want them. And of course, someone who doesn’t want kids.
Went to see John today. Brought some delicious White Spot burgers fries and onion rings for us. He showed me his new rehab moves, I massaged him a bit, and we cuddled. I fell asleep. I asked what he did. He said he listened to me sleep lol. I didn’t snore but he was listening to my breathing.
He is cute. He is handsome. If only he was healthier and that we laugh a lot together! And that our sex is as good as me and Alex.
Sex with Alex is just unreal. Unreal! His dick feels amazing and he puts effort in to make the sex good. I thought about if I’ll ever find sex as good. I’m sure I will….I thought Matthew was the best until I met Alex! So, who knows, maybe someone out there is better than Alex!