Month: February 2019

Hi Tanya!

It’s been a while since we had a conversation!

Nice to have a date with you, talking about anything and everything we want to talk about!

You are very lucky. You know that?

The world is your oyster. Or, deluxe sushi with large pieces the fill the entire mouth, lightly toasted flan with fresh berries for dessert, plus cuisines from around the world haha

A fews things I learned recently:

1. When you feel good, you pay it forward. When you feel bad, you pay it forward. This is how we do, as humans. So it’s important to make people feel good, and it’s important to be able to make self feel good. It’s essential to the world’s health being.
2. We each have a value to a person. It doesn’t mean they are correct. It’s highly subjective to their perception of us (which could be very shallow or misguided), their own experience (and there’s no way for us to get the complete picture, because it also includes their take on their experience), and our relationship (chemistry, power dynamics).
   1. Some of these values include:
      1. Do they give me love? (to be loved)
      2. Do they inspire the love in me? (to love)
      3. Do they make me happy?
         1. As in, my mood right now (laughs, new mindset such as compliments, food, drugs)
         2. As in, help me become that person who is happier (can get what I want to get in life such as a cushier life, more attractiveness, more fulfillment)
            1. As in, physical changes (fitness, health, physical appearance)
            2. As in, internal changes (mental, spiritual fulfillment/englightenment, knowledge)
            3. As in, material gains (house, yachts)
      4. Can I make them happy? If I succeed, it’ll make me feel happy.
3. Story telling has one of the greatest impact on another person. It’s also a fast way to connect with someone.
4. We can tell any story about the same fact. From different angles, with different emphases. So make yourself an interesting person.
5. A great way to make a story more engaging and fun and memorable is to re-enact something. Anything. Act out a dialogue, a facial expression, a movement, a voice, a sound effect.
6. How we make people feel – That’s how we charm. that’s how we become the most attractive person. That’s how we become the most important person to someone.

 

I feel pretty lucky in general, especially after my run today!

Things are good. I’m grateful.

Mom and Dad are healthy and happy.

My business is doing quite well.

I’m healthy and happy.

I have friends and boyfriend who care about me.

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Just now I feel a little bit sad that John didn’t message me much at all today. Yesterday he didn’t either, but he called me and we talked for over an hour. It made me feel that we are on the right track. Even though talking to him isn’t that fun at all. He is rather boring. So why am I so sad when he doesn’t talk to me much? I think I naturally like to get attached. I naturally want to talk more to each other. I can’t remember the last time a guy who is interested in me talks so little to me. This makes me feel that he is not interested in me. But, I think he is. Just that he doesn’t have the habit of talking more frequently.

So, I should feel happier, because:

1. He called yesterday and we talked for a while
2. He doesn’t entertain me that much so it’s ok if he doesn’t call every night
3. We are on the right path. No need to worry. We haven’t fought. We had a good convo last time. It’s just the way he is. Not personal.
4. Learn to give the guy lots of freedom. He’ll come back for more.

I’d like to have more, yes.

1. Give more to Mom and Dad. A dream house for Mom, and more money for Dad. Get them preventative health care.
2. Business can do even better! More profit, more sales, more team, more free time.
3. I can be healthier and happier. More energy and focus. More time. More friends.
4. I can get a better boyfriend, who makes me laugh, inspires me, motivates me, brings out the best in me, makes me very happy, and vice versa. I’m still searching for you! But for now, I’ll learn to be a better girlfriend with John.