Yesterday Ty and I went on a mushroom journey!
It wasn’t huge as we expected, but still fun and a good bonding experience!
Ty had 3.25g, I had 2.5g. Mostly African with some Mexican. We soaked it in lemon juice to predigest it, so I don’t get nausea. We also blended it for most homogeneity and absorption.
We walked towards Stanley Park, and half way there, we put our mushroom cups on top of a McDonald’s trash can and poured some Ener-C into them. Pretty funny haha.
It started off promising. We walked to the Rose Garden, and sat for a bit. We walked to Beaver Lake, and sat for a bit. When I closed my eyes, it was bright. Like my experience on Gillie T. I saw a bright orange shade of rounded geometric patterns (honeycombs, and later trapezoids), kinda like the 70s. On Gillie T. it was pink and pastel rainbow, and more geometric.
Ty said if he focused on the clouds he was seeing a bit of a geometric pattern. We at on the bench by Beaver Lake hoping for more, but there wasn’t more. We could feel the mushroom course through our bodies though.
At one point I almost puked, but didn’t. The lemon juice definitely made a difference.
Still it wasn’t a pleasant feeling. I felt like I had to hold my body together. My legs were jello. Ty’s too.
Then we went to different parts of Stanley Park, which looked like the Pacific Spirit Forest Park, which I liked!
We crossed a bridge that had a warning sign, “Wheelchair Traffic”, and we laughed so much I was in tears! How much traffic did it get that it needed a sign! Ahahahaha
We crossed a tiny bridge and arrived at a more private area. Then we sat down by a tree.
We somehow ended up lying right beside each other. I kinda craved touch, but felt like it was fine enough to lie by each other.
I always find Bunny so hot. While Ty is good looking, it’s not the same level as Bunny. So that helps me from straying haha.
But I still am fond of Ty enough to want to be physically close to him. He isn’t a very sexual person so I wasn’t getting turned on. I kinda know that I have very smooth skin though, and I kinda want him to know that. I kinda like anyone I like to know that. So far only my girl friends know that and the guys I have dated.
We talked about life. Some interesting things:
- There is no ugly sunset, no ugly forest.. shouldn’t we be able to find all humans beautiful? (Actually, there are some ugly forests, and ugly animals…so I scratch that haha)
- The moment our ancestors stepped off the tree and touched the ground was a pivotal moment.
- The moment that someone decided to create weekdays and weekends, also a pivotal moment.
- Ty asked if we would still be friends if we met at 6 years old. I said sure. But today I said no because I wouldn’t have had enough English yet. Think of all the people we could’ve been friends with, but the speak a different language or live in a different timeline.
- I came to realize that doing is important. I want to look outwards instead of inward. I want to socialized with ECF, dance classmates, meet more people in general.
- Ty is still very much into looking inward. He wants to do Ayahuasca. We agreed to do a holotropic breathing class together.
- Ty has a more pessimistic view than me in general. He is in search of purpose, and he feels really sad that he doesn’t know what his purpose is. I asked him for an example of someone who has found purpose, and he can’t give one. We talked about how certainty is very similar to purpose. The certainty of the importance or impact of what you are doing.
At one point I grabbed a branch and we used that as a blanket. It was pretty funny.
We were both so hungry by 5pm, we went to Kingyo and had an amazing dinner! We came back to my place, had half a watermelon on the balcony, and talked about covid too much. He left at midnight. We spent 13 hours together!
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I masturbated 2 or 3 times between last night and this morning. I don’t know if it’s the mushroom making me horny or if it’s Ty. I didn’t fantasize about him though.
At Kingyo he talked about purpose and he teared up. I gave him a hug, and he touched my arm. I guess I was kinda turned on by that he now knows how smooth my arm is haha. Weird.
This was us being more physically close than ever. I do noticed that his hugs are longer each time I see him, and he tried to touch me a tiny bit more each time.
I think what we have right now is perfect. Admiration for each other, some attraction, but not sexual.
I want Ty and Cyn to get back together. I think they are still the best match.
As much as I enjoy hanging out with Ty, I don’t want to date hime. I’m not attracted to him enough physically, and the fact that he mistreated Cyn was definitely a turn off for me. I couldn’t believe that he had been such a bad boyfriend to Cyn. And even if I was attracted to him, he is my other best friend’s fiance! And even if they were no longer engaged, I’m with Bunny!
Ty gave me a laptop stand. That was so sweet.