Month: January 2018

It’s been almost two weeks! It’s been quite fun. Not super productive, but I will be.

I sometimes miss my Alex Bunny. Yesterday I missed him so much I cried. (Period coming soon.)

At the same time, I’ve unexpectedly become attracted to Sam. He is not very cute, but he is very funny.

I feel very weird and guilty for being attracted to him.

I think he is attracted too, but he acts in a very weird way towards me. Sometimes it almost seems like he ignores me on purpose. I don’t like it. I’m glad Bunny is my real love.

I hope Sam stops acting like that, and become nice consistently. I want to spend more time with him. To laugh lots and to learn his funny ways.

He seems to want to spend time with me but he hides it. He likes hanging out with Robert a lot. The other day they were heading out and Sam made a point to come up. That made me think he kinda like me.

The fact that him and Robert joined us for the hop-on hop-off tour. That was good too. But I still remember when he showed up he ignored me and went straight for Robert. Very odd.

And yesterday, he came over because Robert had cooked for several people. A cute gesture. I was in the kitchen and Sam just left and went to the balcony. Weird. I went to work on the balcony. Berta was talking on the phone. For a brief moment, Berta left. Sam immediately started asking me how my day was. But then Berta came back right after haha.

I did sit next to him for a bit and we laughed about the people replying to his VA job post. I felt something there. We laugh lots together.

Then when I noticed he had no work to do, I asked if he wanted to meditate.

We went into our room and I set him up. He was so polite. Almost nervous-like.

Later on he came out and he didn’t get any birds from using Muse, lol. I can’t help but thought he was affected by me. But he seemed upset that he didn’t get any bird. He wanted to buy a Muse now. He decided to go home. Not sure if it’s because he didn’t do well on the Muse meditation. If that was the case then there’s something quite wrong with him. There definitely seems to be something complex about him. I’m curious to find out more.

But really he is so funny. One of the funniest guys I know.

I hope Alex is funny once he is no longer stressed! One more day and his roommate will be gone! I hope he becomes funny and fun and relaxed once again.

 

 

 

Alex and I have been doing better lately. At least, the past week. It was as though something had shifted within me. Or I was in a better mood after my period had started. I don’t know what it was. But I felt more joyful and happy around him. And he seemed more joyful and less drained too.

I’m moving in with him after I come back from South Africa. We are likely going to start a business together.

These are all things that I wouldn’t normally do after meeting someone for less than 4 months. It’s not because I’m so certain about us. It’s almost as though fate caused this to happen.

The way the first date went really well. The way that he ran into me after second date, no hair no makeup. The fact that he lost his job 2 weeks into our relationship, and stayed with me for 2 weeks. How his roommate and job drained him, the way he handled stress, which cause me to figure that the only way is to move in with him, to help him and to help give our relationship its best chance. The fact that he has no savings, and I hate that he doesn’t have money to enjoy life more, caused me to suggest starting a business together.

It is as though that God wants us to be together.

The wedding song was in my head tonight for some reason. I thought about whether we’ll get married. I realized that I’d only want to marry him if we are both doing well financially.

Why? Because it’s important to me that he can earn a living. A guy is much more attractive when he can thrive in this world instead of just survive. And I need to know that he has money to take care of himself and to sustain our fun lifestyle, and to spoil me once in a while.

Not to mention, having no money is stressful, and it forces you into situations such as having to work full time at a job that isn’t great. He is not very good with stress. It impacts our relationship.

Also, money allows for greater self expression. He dreams a lot, but he hasn’t been able to realize his dreams.

Having money will help our relationship out a lot. At any age, but especially at this age.

He is not perfect. Far from it. But there are key important characters about him that make him special to me.

We will make lots of money. Our love, our marriage, our life experience, our happiness, require that we make lots of money. 6 figures each, ideally 7 figures together.

God, I feel that you want us to be together. I hope this means you want us to get rich together too.

Please give us a helping hand, and allow us to live our dreams! Thank you thank you thank you 😀