Month: January 2019

My Dear husband:

1. Is mentally and physically healthy – I’m pretty good, yes.
2. Can handle stress well – Pretty good, yes.
3. Can solve problems well – Yes
4. Is emotionally available – Yes
5. Is emotionally stable – Almost Yes
6. Loves me and shows it in ways I can appreciate – Likely Yes
7. Is super funny – I’m funny yes.
8. Finds me super funny
9. Adores me
10. Admires me
11. Makes me laugh
12. Has a sense of wonder – Yes
13. Has a growth mindset, and grows at similar pace as me – Yes
14. Is happy – Yes
15. Is positive – Yes
16. Is supportive – Yes
17. Is encouraging – Yes, can be even more so.
18. Is inspiring – In some ways. Can be even more so.
19. Is generous – Yes
20. Is adventuresome – Yes
21. Is sexy – Yes
22. Is smart – Yes
23. Is charming – Yes
24. Is loyal – Yes
25. Is sincere – Yes
26. Is honest – Yes
27. Thrives in this world – Yes
28. Is playful – Somewhat, yes.
29. Does grand things (travelling to exotic places) – Somewhat, yes.
30. Does unusual things (cool hobbies, has great stories) – Somewhat, yes.

1. Is mentally and physically healthy – John, yes.
2. Can handle stress well – Not sure.
3. Can solve problems well – So so.
4. Is emotionally available – So so.
5. Is emotionally stable – Almost Yes.
6. Loves me and shows it in ways I can appreciate – Not quite. Not enough physical touch and words of affirmation.
7. Is super funny – No
8. Finds me super funny – No
9. Adores me – Somewhat. Not always.
10. Admires me – Somewhat.
11. Makes me laugh – Not often.
12. Has a sense of wonder – Not quite.
13. Has a growth mindset, and grows at similar pace as me – No.
14. Is happy – Not especially
15. Is positive – So so.
16. Is supportive – Yes
17. Is encouraging – Yes, can be even more so.
18. Is inspiring – In some ways. Can be even more so.
19. Is generous – So so.
20. Is adventuresome – So so.
21. Is sexy – Yes
22. Is smart – Not sure.
23. Is wise
24. Is charming – No.
25. Is loyal – Yes
26. Is sincere – Yes
27. Is honest – Yes
28. Thrives in this world – Somewhat
29. Is playful – Somewhat, Not really.
30. Does grand things (travelling to exotic places) – No
31. Does unusual things (cool hobbies, has great stories) – Somewhat, yes.
32. Is patient – Somewhat, yes
33. Has grit – In sports yes. Not sure about in business
34. Is open-minded – debatable
35. Not judging – yes
36. Good at resolving conflicts
37. Good at creating a lasting, passionate relationship
38. Good at creating a close bond with people
39. We can have deep conversations
40. Has a positive world impact

I had dinner with Jennifer tonight after picking her up from the airport. She said something very true:

If a guy had to change to suit your needs/wants, he’ll change back eventually. (e.g. after marriage in the case of her friend’s husband. He no longer helped with cleaning)

I also realized something while talking to her. John is such a bad conversationalist, and that will never change.

I really really can’t be with him.

He hardly talked to me today. Only when I talked to him. Just like I predicted.

It’s because:

1. He probably just doesn’t need/want to spend a lot of time with me
2. His friends wanted to hang out
3. He is mad at me for something but not telling me (probably for being grumpy because I thought I got HPV from him.)
4. He is turned off by me because I suspected that I had HPV.

I don’t think he is quite as stressed out as before. And yet he is still not talking to me much.

I miss it when he was romantic with me, taking me to Nuba!

What happened?

It makes me so sad.

How I want to have found the one for me. But he is so far from it. So close yet so far.

So handsome. And sometimes very sweet. Not a player.

I’m balling now. I’m so unhappy with him in so many ways.

Today I felt so rejected.

The end is near between me and him.

I want to try tantra with him for valentine’s day. But I don’t even know if we will last until then.

I know he is not the one for me. I just wanted to play and have fun with him for 2 more months, until Peru.

But, I’m starting to question whether I am having enough fun.

The lack of conversations. The lack of depth, laughter, curiosity in our conversations. The poor communications. Conflict avoidance. Lack of physical touch. Lack of physical affections. Lack of imaginations.

I’m so bored. So frustrated.

I’ll see how this week goes, and will try to last ’til VDay. But, I’m mentally prepared to let him go.

 

Week’s RPM

Get diaper bag refund – waiting to get complete file from Jay

Set up Forecastly – 70% there, just need data to be updated, and see if the inventory order projection is accurate

Prepare for Point Roberts trip. Prepare the Bliss 8 barcodes and ship labels. Go on Tuesday or Wednesday. (morning, before USPS closes)

Clean out my ring inventory (silver, warehouse ones, sell them or destroy them)

• New rings arrive: stackable, more comfort fit, striped, bevel
  • Week 1: give Martin stackable package design
• V Day Promos in place
  • Week 1: have a plan for rings and scarves
• Decide what will be useful metrics reporting, and make use of Forecasting and Sellerboard
  • Build metrics or ask Jay to manually report for now
• Add FBM inventory for all markets

Meal wrapped up at 6:45pm! Tomorrow start eating at 10:45am!

Audience

Married couples who want to buy for each other

Husband who wants to buy for wife

Wife who wants to buy for husband

Wife whose husbands are in hands-on work

Channels

Facebook groups

Pinterest groups

Manychat – cheap buyers – need to be creative – need incentive

Mom blogs, fashion blogs

Influencers

Facebook Ads – video, slide shwo

IG Ads – video

Our emails

Our IG

Our FB

Our Pinterest – better conversion than IG

Our blogs – first entry

Our website – better homepage, upselling, sales, more reviews

V Day gift idea websites

Latest trend websites who might have a V Day special

Ideas:

1. Gift Card – 2 hours (for him, for her, for couple for weddings)
2. Gift guide – 2 hours
   1. focusing on matching rings, as well as for him, for her specials (can re-use this too, for bloggers, other websites)
   2. can also categorize by price ($100 and under, $50 and under, $20 and under, and include scarves, bow ties)
   3. Ryan can make this. Will take me 2 hours to mock up content
3. Update our homepage banners – 2 hours
   1. Creative Market or Ryan or both
4. Update Amazon store front with the same graphics as homepage – 2 hours
   1. Creative Market or Ryan or both
5. Email gift guide – 3 hours
   1. Need to consolidate mailchimp first (2h)
   2. Draft email (1h)
6. Post gift guide on IG and Pinterest – 2 hours
   1. Jay can do this
   2. Need pinterest and IG friendly versions – Ryan or Jay or me
7. 2 days to do the above
8. Create a little V Day gift ideas video (2 days)
   1. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=27G46NyLnw0
9. Contest – photos! (post V Day? Your romantic photos?)
10. Contest – 1 hour
    1. stories! with photos? Ask your customers to submit their best (or worst) break-up story in 140 characters or less on Twitter. Pick the best break-up story and give them a shout out on social, and a (grand) prize for sharing their story.

       Or terrible date story
       Or vintage love story
       Pick 2 or 3 from above, and do one contest each week leading up to V Day

11. BOGO or any V Day sale (sweetheart sale) plus free shipping! – 1 hour, 3 hours if making an email campaign (Ryan needed)
12. Blog topics – 1 hour each article (Who will write it?)
    1. date night ideas
    2. V Day check list
    3. Make a dinner reservation
    4. Get a haircut/trim your beard
    5. Plan your Valentine’s Day outfit
    6. Buy gift cards
    7. Pick out a floral bouquet
    8. Get a box of your sweetheart’s favorite candy / silicone ring
    9. Find a babysitter and clear your schedule
13. Cross promote with someone else? socks? nails? (opi, jamberry, metal rings)
14. Also celebrate singles / self love
15. Promote random acts of love (https://squareup.com/townsquare/7-adorable-valentines-day-marketing-ideas)

 

Ah, a very nice night with John tonight :))

I’ve been wondering about how to cook for him at his place. Do I cook ahead of time? He doesn’t have a microwave to reheat the food! Do I bring a blanket because I’m on my period? So many parts for what seems to be an easy date night.

Thankfully, Masha’s brother’s birthday is tonight! Thank you! Masha took Bibi to her parents. Right away I asked John to come over, between 5pm and 8pm.

Bibi was crying and making a mess. Finally Masha left at 4:30. I got ready, started the purple yam, and went down to meet John wearing my Bambi dress, without a bra or panties!

He loved how I looked. He later said the moment he saw me he was turned on, and that he loved that I dressed up for him. I asked him what he liked, he said everything. I asked for more details, he said heels first!The tight dress. And the blonde hair, surprisingly. My body. My face. I wonder if it’s his order of importance. From the bottom up.

The purple yam in the oven made the house smell nice. I said we need to have sex first (because the longer we wait, more blood comes out). It’s nice to have the caya, which is a birth control normally, but on period days, it holds back the blood! And the gel helps solidifies the blood.

Sex was quite good! He was really turned on by me. I gave him a long blow job. And I think he is learning to pay more attention to my satisfaction in turn! We had quite a satisfying orgasm together.

Then I started cooking. the miso black cod that Mom made. I added ginger and green onions and it tasted even better! John really enjoyed it! And he liked the prawns too. And he like the oyster mushroom and brocollini too! And the purple yam with butter! The dessert was red bean sticky rice cake, which he thought was good but not his fave.

We stretched out on the living room floor. It was nice bonding. I taught him a bit of yoga stretches, so it made me look good too.

Then we had pomegranate juice with lemon. He added ACV to it which tasted alright!

Then we cuddled in bed. I was still horny so I asked if he wanted to watch me masturbate. I got a nice one…mmmm. Feeling very satisfied, I started giving him a blow job. He got so turned on, he turned me around and put his dick in me. Round 2! That’s rare. It was very nice. Most satisfying night yet!

We wrapped up at 8:30, 5 minutes before Masha came home! What a perfect night.

Oh I did tell him about how I didn’t like having Masha around me and him because she crosses the line. When she got home, she was like, you guys are finished already! And told me about how she would not be able to stand that. It was frankly a bit annoying.

I’m surprised though that he hasn’t said thank you for the night yet. He usually does! I hope he got home safe.

I was a little paranoid that he only spent 3.5 hours with me on a weekend. Is he dating someone else? But, that’s not unusual for him since the beginning. And I know Tanja moved in with someone and the guy cheated anyway!

I feel that he is just more of an introvert who needs more alone time. He doesn’t seem like the type to date more than one person at a time.

I like that he calls me more often now. And he is slightly more talkative now. And our sex is getting hotter. And he is sweet to me.

I think Masha is jealous. She can’t help it of course. It’s natural.

 

 

 

 

Omg, I’m so thrilled about 2019!!! Ah, a new year. What a fun new beginning! I think I’ll celebrate more often, like, in the book 4 month year, Or, every month!

What is my goal for this month!?

1. Relationships: Forgiveness. See the good intentions in people. See the magic and opportunities in every situations. See the brilliance in myself.
   • How do I keep it up? I’ll recite this everyday! I’ll listen to myself say positive phrases every day:
     • Tanya you are so smart. You have creative ideas and you find opportunities. You think beyond the boxes!
     • Tanya you will increase your income by 20% this month! You will find many ways to accomplish this.
     • Tanya you see the love and good intentions in people around you.
     • Tanya you spot the magic and opportunities in every situation.
     • Tanya you are a brilliant, beautiful, world-class bright light. Your smile, laughs, sense of humour, and love shine bright and light up everyone around you!
   • How do I measure this? I’ll do a check-in at the end of each day!
     • How is my mood today?
     • Was I forgiving?
     • Was I loving?
     • Did I love myself?
2. Health: HIIT, breathe, intermittent fasting
   • How do I keep it up?
     • 20 deep breaths in the morning, midday, and evening
     • fasting 5 days a week (start with 3)
     • HIIT sprint and swim every other day!
   • How do I measure this? Weekly check-in!
3. Wealth: Keep the grand vision in mind. Have $2MM more cash by end of 2020. Build a dream house for mom ($1MM needed), give dad more money per year (Set aside $300K more for extra dividend income), and buy or rent a condo with gorgeous views for myself (Set aside $600K for dividend income for rent, or buy with downpayment)
   • How do I get there?
     • Recite and visualize this outcome daily
     • RPM, baby!
     • This month, focus on creating a dream team, building useful metrics, and creating more sales. Get the most out of Valentine’s Day!
   • How do I measure this?
     • By end of January
       • Have a new VA (for pinterest, PR outreach, admin) and a blogger
         • Week 2~3: interview
         • Week 4: hire and train
       • New rings arrive: stackable, more comfort fit, striped, bevel
         • Week 1: give Martin stackable package design
       • V Day Promos in place
         • Week 1: have a plan for rings and scarves
         • Week 2~4: out reach and execute (and delegate)
         • Include: consolidate mailchimp, make use of manychat
       • Build metrics or ask Jay to manually report for now
         • Week 1: decide what will be useful metrics reporting, and make use of Forecasting and Sellerboard
         • Week 2~4: test out if these reports are indeed helpful, improve and repeat!
         • Remember that inventory management will also help me make more money; get rid of old stock, get new stock in quickly.