Month: September 2016

I’ve spent about a month on dating apps. The first was Tinder, which I installed in the car, after seeing Erin’s ice dancing competition. Then it was Coffee meets Bagel, then it was Ok Cupid and Zoosk (paid $100USD for this crap), and most recently, I decided to go all the way, and downloaded Bumble and Happn as well. 6 apps altogether!

But I’ve only been on 3 dates. First one was Fin, and it was pretty good considering. Then it was Andrew, which didn’t work out. Then there was Blake, who was so genuine and sweet, but is basically the opposite of me.

I was going to tell him that I change my mind about having a second date, but he called me instead to texting me, and caught me off guard.

So I still went on a date with him, tonight. I really wasn’t super excited. I already knew that we had nothing in common. Though part of me hoped to be proved wrong.

He worked 10 hours today, so he was beat. Then he went to the gym. Then he decided to not take a nap and just came to see me. But we ate locally, at a sushi place called Giwa. It was quite ghetto but tasted alright.

I wanted to check once more if Blake was cute, but he insisted on sitting next to me again. It was kinda cute that he has this habit though. I have it too but I don’t force it on first/second date.

He was wearing a hat, which made it even harder to tell if I like his face or not.

We had so little to talk about. That rarely happens. Just yesterday Ty and I couldn’t talk enough. This morning, Angela, Cate, Jo and I had a 3 hour meeting and talked the entire time. We had so much fun.

We drove to Burnaby Mountain, and it was packed. I just realized it was probably because the Northern Light was supposedly visible tonight. But I didn’t even wear my glasses or put contacts in tonight.

We got out of the car and walked around. It was cold.

I realized I have been here before, and had outdoor sex with Nicolas. It was actually good, as far as I can remember.

Blake and I joked about doing it right there, despite there being so many people including kids around.

We started making out in the middle of a path. It wasn’t super steamy though…I just wasn’t super attracted to him. We made out some more while standing on the grass by the path, and decided to go to his place.

I wasn’t super thrilled, but thought, well, maybe he can impress me in bed. I also imagined that he’d have a nice body, at least similar to his Tinder photo.

So he lives in a basement with a roommate. It wasn’t a great place, but wasn’t terrible.

He started off sucking on my toe, which was a surprise. He happened to choose my toe with the toenail fucked up by playing volleyball. He didn’t seem to notice, and said I had cute feet. No one has ever sucked on my toes before. It felt nice.

Then he went to rinse off his mouth, thankfully. And maybe washed up a bit. We started making out, and eventually took everything off, including my wig.

His body was, unfortunately, ab-less. His body shape wasn’t terrible, but overall, I was unimpressed. His original arm tattoos are ok, but he got a new tattoo on his chest, “Too hot”. It was not great.

The surprise though, was that he was not hard. After a while, he got hard for like a few minutes, and came quickly.

We tried again, and he never got hard again. He said it was because he’s been having sex while high on cocaine for the past 10 years, so he was surprised that he even came the first time.

That’s another thing. On our first date, he told me that he was clean now, that he used to do cocaine but no more, because he has grown up. Today, he told me that he lied. He had been clean since he saw me (3 weeks).

Technically I don’t think he lied, but still…I was under the impression that he was sober longer.

His dick was quite small. Probably smaller than all guys I’ve been with, except the Asian guy. I can still feel it, while it was briefly hard, but it was small.

He was good at finding my g-spot with his hand though!

He asked to see me on Saturday, but I said I have tentative plans. He asked me what tentative meant…

He asked if I wanted to see him again. I said I was trying to decide. He said we can be casual. Well, if there’s no (good) sex, what’s the point?

So that’s that..

I’m talking to a few guys these days. It helps me not feel too disappointed when one guy falls through.

I’m talking to Mario from Zoosk, Sam from OKC, 3 guys from Bumble, 2 guys from Tinder, and also there’s a new match from Happn.

So 7 guys, plus one match.

I don’t think any of them will pan out though. I want to meet a fellow successful ASMer, who is rich, understands me, and location independent!

Second Motherhood (S1E19)

Ladies of the evening (S2E2)

Three on a couch  (S3E11)

One flew out of the cuckcoo’s nest (S7E23)

Finally played volleyball again today. I still sucked in class, but I felt good after. It was good to get the blood flowing! I wish I did more of it.

I want to exercise more and feel good more!

I was kind of surprised that Casey said we have to work hard all year to get good next summer. I didn’t think of that. I guess that makes sense. I was hoping to learn Wing Chun in winter, and volleyball in summer. Guess it’s gotta be volleyball.

Made friends with Handan. She is from Turkey! That’s cool.

I contacted a couple girls on Craigslist too, who want new friends. And I wrote back a girl who contacted me, Kristine. I want more Single girl friends!

Tish lives really close by, which is great. But she is young (28) and looking to be a sugar babie.

Angela is 30, and she finally got her sugar daddy, Q! Haha. He is around 46, and has a 21 yo daughter. But I’m happy to see that they are working out! I love seeing unconventional relationships. Angela’s story of how she un-friendzoned him was hilarious. When they were in Vegas, her feet hurt from her heels, and Q offered to wear them (for a good 10 minutes until his feet hurt). She became attracted to him learning that he was not self-conscious, and that he’ll take care of her. Hahaha. That’s cute, and probably very smart boyfriend filter criteria.

I have a date with Blake tomorrow! Omg, I’m excited!

He is so cute, has a nice body, and was the first guy to say he wants to help me practice volleyball! He might be too young at 29, and he seems to be all about sports….but I want to meet him just anyway. He seems way too cute.

You can tell from how he texts that he doesn’t care too much about education, and that he probably doesn’t have academic smarts. Still, I’m curious, because he is not someone I would normally meet.

He suggests dinner at English Bay, and said he’ll call me. I’m surprised because no one has wanted to call yet. I was just noticing how different thing were 7 years ago compared to now. We used to always call before a date.

There’s also the super hot Chris, whom I have a date with on Friday. I hope we still do. We haven’t chatted since yesterday, and the chat wasn’t all that great. I really want to meet him too. He seems ridiculously hot, but he doesn’t seem to know it.

Got a message from Chris at noon. Aw, that’s cute.

Then around the same time, Blake was matched up to me, and he offered to teach me volleyball! Wow! He is a cutie too.

Will these pan out?

I still want to see Fin before he leaves. And then meet up with Chris and Blake before I go to Victoria.

I hope among these two guys, something great and fun happen. They are both so cute.

With Fin, I just want good closure.

Yesterday I was matched up with Chris, the cutest guy I’ve seen on Tinder so far. Probably the cutest guy I’ve ever seen.

Most guys have one or two good pictures. He has pretty much all good pictures. The only thing is that they all look a bit different.

But he has the most gorgeous blue eyes, the hottest nose, and amazing cheekbones. He should be a freaking model.

He didn’t contact me today, so I made an exception and contacted him. I said I felt like I’ve met him before. (In reality it’s because he reminded me so much of Josh.)

To my surprise, he started flirting with me right away. “Surely I would remember a pretty girl like you.”

I was so thrilled.

I heard back from Fin today. He was hung over yesterday. Still hung over today. I mean it’s good that he was hung over instead of dating other girls, but it’s not as good that he is not eager to see me on his second day of hungoverness.

I tried to get my mind off him by going on one or two Tinder dates, but both dates fell through today.

At night, I decided to message Chris. Not only did I hear back…he was surprisingly flirty, conversational, and wanting to have a real date.

The only thing that I didn’t quite feel right about was that he said he is very “corny” and probably can’t stop flirting with me when he sees me.

He said a couple other things like, hoping to sneak a kiss in by the end if he was lucky. Or, if we have a date this week, hoping that I’ll be thinking about him all weekend while in Victoria.

I don’t know what to think of this. What kind of a guy says things like this? Surely he has matched up with other girls too…does he talk like this to all of them?

For someone this good-looking, he doesn’t sound like someone who gets laid. Maybe he is super awkward in person. Or maybe he has a gay voice. Or just not charming at all. He doesn’t seem funny.

In contrast, Fin talks like a normal guy. Normal is rare though.

Actually, Idriss talks like Chris. Maybe Chris is French…no, he is from Toronto.. Maybe they talk like this in Toronto?

I need to learn to budget time better.

I guess having sex with Fin the past week (3 times) took up a lot of time too.

I didn’t launch the Happy Birthday banner yet. Today, the weather was gorgeous, and there was a beach volleyball bbq party, but I stayed in and worked.

I mean, I was also too shy to go. Ricky wasn’t going, and I didn’t know anyone. I wasn’t bold enough to go solo.

So my only interaction with people today are talking on the phone with Norm and Mom.

Fin didn’t contact me today…which kinda made me sad. Suddenly I wonder if I should spend time thinking about him.

I guess I shouldn’t blame him. He just had a wedding, he puked here, and it’s Saturday. I want things to end well with him. I shouldn’t expect much at all. 3 times in a week is awesome already. That’s…9 times we did it! I think Matthew and I only did it…9 times in 5 months.

I started swiping on Tinder again. And got myself one, possibly two dates.

These guys are just so so though.

However, I did get matched up with a guy who looks so much like Josh! I can’t believe someone like that existed! He is 30 but he looks 18, lol. He is possibly hotter than Fin. I hope he contacts me. That’s a face I get excited about.

I wonder if I started swiping earlier, Matthew and I would have lasted. Oh well, it’s just not meant to be I guess.

I still hope to find a cute boy to have a fling with. Not just sex, but actually go on dates with.

As for serious dating, I’m not sure if I can find it.

At 36…I have 3 years before there’s no more fun sexy sex like this probably. Maybe after 40 is time to find a date?

I had a weird dream about Dad today.

We went on a cruise, and he disappeared. I was so worried. Everyone kept looking for him, thinking he was trapped in a space in this immense orange ship.

Finally, he sent a letter saying that he left the boat and went somewhere in China visiting Uncle Yeh.

Totally weird.

Fin messaged me at around 4, 5pm asking what I was doing tonight. He had wedding rehearsal during the day, and then dinner. I said I was doing him. He said he can come by at around 11pm.

It was a bit late, but I had a late start today. Bummed around, and didn’t start working until around 4pm.

I masturbated twice during the day. He turns me on so much.

Even when I wasn’t masturbating, I sometimes just lay on the sofa and got all horny.

So far Fin seems like a responsible guy. I really like that about him. At 11pm, he said he can come by in 20 minutes, and asked if that is ok with me. He even apologized for being so late.

He showed up in a baby blue dress shirt, which looked amazing on him. He looked so yummy.

I wore my pink ombre top, fuchsia pink bra, and ripped denim shorts. No wig.

We made out so passionately by the door. The way he pressed his body onto me turned me on so bad.

We moved to the bedroom. I turned on the light by the bed…it was dim, but we can see each other well. Brighter than any other time with Matthew actually.

Sex was really good. He didn’t smell, thankfully. I guess the first time was just an anomaly. Or I wasn’t used to his smell…

He likes lifting my leg up to his shoulders. He likes looking at my face as he fucked me. It was really hot. When I see his face, especially when he smiles, I get so turned on. He really has a gorgeous smile.

After sex, he said he felt pretty sick. He had eaten too much, and the sex kinda shook everything. Or, he had food poisoning.

He wanted to go home because he didn’t want to puke in front of me. But he stayed. I gave him ACV and baking soda, which didn’t seem to help. Probiotics didn’t help either. He still puked. I gave him a toothbrush.

He kept apologizing. I kept saying it’s ok. He said it really sucked that we can’t do it again. I gave him a shocked look and said, “No??” It was pretty funny.

He joked about telling his friends that he had sex with me and then puked. Then added that it’s funny because he finds me insanely desirable.

We talked a bit about his wedding speech for the next day. And my bad date with Andrew. And then we had sex again. Lol.

He wasn’t feeling well yet he still performed twice. And was still affectionate. That’s impressive!

After that, we showered together for the first time. It was pretty hot and a bit romantic. He kissed my head a couple times. His body wasn’t so bad. His nipples were big and a lil too hairy, but he had really long legs, and a tiny lil ass.

I brought out Matthew’s body wash haha. It was great. I didn’t lather up his armpits, but even then, he didn’t smell at all after.

Then we went to bed, at around 2am. He had to be up by 7am.

It was a bit hard to sleep with him around because I’m not used to it. But he was as good as can be. Put his arm under my neck. If I turn to him he’d pull me in for a kiss. He was just so sexy. He was a quiet and steady sleeper too. I stole glances at him as he slept. He was so cute. I love his nose and lips. I realized his lips were rebellious like his nose. His profile is beautiful.

We woke up at around 6 or 6:30am. We had sex ’til 7am, when the alarm went off.

I was on top of him, and he suddenly said he was gonna come. I was panicked because no guy has come with me on top. I looked at him, shocked, saying, “What do I do??” He flipped me over and came on me…maybe. I thought I blocked his cum, but he said he came. Not sure where it went.. Thankfully I have my period. Well…it’s last day though..

He left fairly quickly to practice his best man speech for this big day. We still kissed a lot, and he said thank you for another fun night. Ha. Just like Matthew.

We joked about how he might puke during his speech. I asked for pictures. He acted them out. He is so animated. He is fun.

After he left, I thought about how I wished to God that someone good would come into my life and help me forget Matthew. Someone to make me feel good about my alopecia again too. And there is Fin.

2016 goal of having lots of fun sex can be checked off too, because I’ve had more than 10 sessions of sex (Matthew, Patrick, and Fin).

Ah, I’m so happy and grateful 🙂 Thank you.

p.s. Just realized that I saw Fin everyday in the past 5 days! Met him on Monday, and he spent the night ’til Tuesday. Saw him on Wednesday. Saw him on Thursday night and he spent the night ’til Friday. I hope I see him on Saturday. I don’t expect to see him everyday…but he is leaving on Wednesday, so it’s only 4 more days that I can meet up with him. I’m happy to see him once or twice more. Any more than that is bonus.

I really liked the sleep-over experience with him, so I took a picture of the sunrise right after he left. Pink and blue like what him and I were wearing 🙂

Fin came over to pick up his headphone yesterday morning.

He was wearing a big blue sweat shirt. Something that Bret from FOTC would wear lol. (He said Jemaine lived very close to him! He sees him with his kids all the time. That’s cool.)

He stepped in, wasn’t sure if I was going to “handle” him I guess. But that awkwardness soon faded as we started kissing passionately at the door way.

I asked if he wanted to come in for a bit. And that led to a passionate quickie. It was really good….he just showered in the morning so there’s no BO issue. Also his body seemed a bit nicer than I remembered, since he hadn’t eaten yet. I think I saw ab lines.

We knew each other’s body more this time, and sex felt really good.

I also liked that he totally didn’t mind me taking the wig off.

Finished off in my favourite position, which was a new position for him as of last night, and he loved it.

Probably should’ve saved it for later, because it felt so good he quickly came.

After shower, we got dressed and talked as I sat on him in bed. He talked about how his friends don’t want these two friends to get married. They just don’t believe that the marriage will last. Plus they hate how their friend acts differently with his fiance. That’s too bad. I told him that I think they should still get married, even if it ends in divorce. Bonus is that if it crashed and burned, they will get their friend back lol.

We chatted for quite a while…we both wanted more sex, but he had to go to the bride’s family bbq, and I had to go to Point Roberts.

We kissed lots. He looks at me in the eye in such a mischievous way. It’s really hot.

I was hooked this time. I thought about him all the way to Point Roberts and all the way back. I was super horny and couldn’t think of anything else.

Got home, I threw myself on the bed and masturbated. When I woke up again, I whatsapp’d him to tell him that I didn’t get enough of him.

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Went to my date with Andrew. He didn’t message me at all today. I was starting to feel nothing for him.

It was really not a good date.

Fist, I arrived on time, he didn’t. Only 5 minutes late, but it felt bad.

Second, he made reservation for 7:30. I got there at 7.

Third, he was ugly and boring and thick. I hated his frozen smile. So uncomfortable, so unnatural. He’d squint just one eye when he reacted to what I said. Kinda like an owl. He was not slender.

I kinda guessed his polite demeanour. It was annoying.

Then again, if he was hot, probably everything would be forgiven. Just like Fin said (quoting the funny sexual harassment video), “Be handsome, be attractive, and don’t be unattractive”.

He kinda reminded me of Anthony. At times I feel that Anthony is such a great catch, such a nice guy. But now I realize how hard it’d be to actually want to get intimate with him.

Oh, and I’ve been to Les Faux Borgeois. With Mitch and Mom! I hate the atmosphere there. So loud and dingy. The food was good though. I had a bison steak, and we split the escargot. We split the bill because I didn’t want to see him again.

At the bathroom, I checked my whatsapp. Fin still hadn’t seen my message. I wrote to him again, telling him that my date wasn’t my type, and that I wanted to see him.

After getting home, Andrew texted to ask if we’ll see each other again. I said he was sweet but there was no chemistry.

Late at night, talking to Mom. She was excited about Fin. She gets carried away. She has been watching that Chinese matchmaking TV show.

She wanted to see pictures of Fin. Said he was handsome, and said I can stay in Vancouver for another week, since Daisy and Alan will be in Victoria on the 19th, and I can see them then.

But last night, Fin ended up staying at Pitt Meadows. He wanted to come over but couldn’t get a ride. Everyone slept there. I hope we get to meet up soon.

I like that he is super horny. I think he’ll make more effort to meet up than Josh.

I’m not as up tight now though. No more requesting a guy to come over every other night, after what I have experienced with Josh, Patrick, and Matthew.

I don’t like minimizing my expectations for this world, but it seems like people are just not as sincere these days. Even Tony Robins has to deal with the world by not expecting.

Still, pretty excited about finding Fin. He is cute.

Thank you for adding him to my life. Takes some pain away for sure! 🙂