Endless Honeymoon book thoughts and notes

High energy moments:

For J:

  1. skating
  2. his fave game shows (because it’s relaxing and people are having fun)
  3. venting with his friends
  4. playing with his nephews
  5. eating good food
  6. driving, driving a nice car
  7. dressed up nice
  8. Researching the market and companies
  9. House shopping
  • taste of richness and freedom
  • family
  • seeing people happy

For A:

  1. Out with his friends
  2. Working on his biz; being competitive and ambitious and anticipating a win
  3. Rare adventure
  4. Seeing a grey parrot
  5. Learning something; growing
  6. Simple carefree life
  7. raising his kids
  8. Japan
  9. Soup
  10. Anime
  11. On top of trends
  • an escape from stress; simplicity
  • friends; making connections
  • growing himself
  • growing something else (biz or kids)
  • in a happening zone (Japan, trends, latest tech)
  • experience and adventures
  • family, nostalgia, good old days
  • entertaining / pleasing others and being playful (being a mascot, playing pranks)

What talents do I have for bringing out the best in people?

  • my optimism, my laughs, my energy, my wisdom/stories, being a good listener who gives undivided attention and shows curiosity, my compassion and kindness, my sense of humour
  • J: being gentle, good natured, graceful, kind
  • A: being a good listener, being funny, liking people and wanting to connect people, being generous with biz info in general, optimistic

What good do I see in my partner’s life that I can affirm, appreciate, respect, or praise out loud?

  • J: diligent when it comes to his knee rehab, athletic spirit / strive to be the best
  • Put cute notes for him

Ideas, plus good risk, plus persistence. Combine these three things together and you have a powerful combination that will not only surprise your romantic partner but also you.

For J:

It’s a nice sentiment, but when your date encounters you in this panicked state, what impression do you think he’ll walk away with? You don’t seem very sure of yourself, do you? Most likely, he’ll either be uncomfortable or feel sorry for you – possibly both. Now imagine using state management instead. You’re still scared about going on this first date, but you know you have the power to shift your mind into a more empowered state. Instead of simply saying the words and hoping they are true, you think of a time when you actually felt your best. You vividly recall the internal sensations of a day when you felt happy and super confident.
Now you let that memory guide your physiology as you adopt an outward appearance that reflects the memory of that state of pure confidence. You’ve got a great big smile on your face, and you’re rocking a sexy new dress. “He’s going to like you.” You see, the trick is, imagination always wins. Use your imagination to vividly recall a certain mental and physical state and you are automatically influenced by that memory. It works better than trying to go directly for the desired end-goal by using affirmations alone. So affirmations are where you’re saying something in an attempt to convince yourself it is true. State management is where you embody that truth.

Line Dance with Mom

I woke up feeling like I had a nightmare. Maybe it was the bread I had before bed.

I suddenly felt sadden by the fact that one day my parents wouldn’t be healthy anymore.

Mom is 71 and dad is 77.

I’m lucky that they are both in decent health at the moment.

I decided that I need to be more proactive about making my time spent with Mom better.

I asked if she can teach me line dance. She was so thrilled!

She taught me Cabollero. It was hard! She said I did pretty good .

Then she taught me an easier waltz like dance.

It was still pretty hard!

But being a bit hard is good.

Mom said she has 200 dances in her head, and about 1000 dances that she just needs one or two walk throughs to remember. Wow. I’m so impressed and proud of her!

Makes me respect her more too.

Otherwise I got a bit bored and impatient with her stories, which are more boring now than say two years ago. Not sure if it’s the pandemic making good stories more rare, or aging of the brain.

Then we watched Men in Black. It was good times!

I still haven’t heard from Alex, and I still think about him. I replace the thought with an image of a bunny each time.

 

 

Xmas movies with Mom

Yesterday Mom and I watched the Holiday. It was pretty cute, with a happy ending.

Today we watched The Talented Mr. Ripley. It was dark….

Alex didn’t message me today, on Xmas day. I was so disappointed, while trying so hard not to be.

This line from the movie completely resonated with me:

Marge Sherwood The thing with Dickie… it’s like the sun shines on you, and it’s glorious. And then he forgets you and it’s very, very cold.

Tom Ripley So I’m learning.

Marge Sherwood When you have his attention, you feel like you’re the only person in the world, that’s why everybody loves him so much.

Wow, that’s how I feel about Alex!

Maybe that’s why he is so magnetic!

He cast a spell on me, giving me undivided attention when he was with me….and now, for one week I didn’t hear from him. That’s cold.

I’m a little bit scared of him now. How he might hurt me.

I will do my best to stay calm, cool-hearted.

Sigh.

I wish love was simple!

I went for a walk today, trying to walk off all the food Mom forced on me. I walked towards the marina this time, and it was beautiful.

I listened to the love meditation. In the past it had helped me find more love for John. I listened to it in the hopes that, I will one day find the love that I want and need.

It’s not Alex. I know now.

I mean, I’ve always known….but…I was so in love with him.

That’s the thing with me…I love sex so much. I love pillow talks so much. I love physical touch so much. I love attention. I love any sign of care….

It takes…not a lot…for me to be moved, attracted, and falling for someone.

Yes, Alex is very special and very attractive…but, he did hurt me many times already.

John doesn’t hurt me the same way but he gives me sadness. His lifelessness drains me.

I don’t want the 色勞紋 kind of fate anymore. I want to be someone who attracts love. The good kind of love. I want have have an amazing love life!

I want to be in love with someone who has all the great qualities AND wants to be with me.

Is it my hair that make it hard for guys to want to be with me?

I sure hope not.

But to be honest I’m sick of having alopecia now. I want my hair to grow out…I want to be feminine.

But, not a deal breaker if it didn’t work out that way….

I just want someone to love me the way I want to be loved, and love him the way he wants to be loved.

 

 

 

My Soulmate Manifested

I want to experience great love. I want to meet someone so great that we fall madly in love, have a blast, and get married. He surprises me with a romantic grand proposal, we have a romantic and fun wedding, and live happily ever after!

Ahhhhh I want that.

Where will I find this kind of man and this kind of love?

I think the US. Canadians are too reserved for grand gestures. British and Australians too.

A successful entrepreneur could be a good one. We can relate to each other more. And likely help each other more.

I think I can offer everything I ask for, except for 2 which I’m working on. Stable mood and Great temperament.

Here’s what I want in my husband:

  1. We love each other. We want each other very much and equally much! We make each other happy. We make each other laugh! We bring out the best in each other. We enhance each other’s lives. We are great by ourselves, but we are a force when we are together!
  2. Want me as much as I want him – physically and emotionally
  3. Loves me for me. He believes that I’m the only one for him and I believe he is the only one for me.
  4. Will go the extra mile to do something for me – to make me happy, to take care of me, to make me feel desired
  5. Loves how I look without a wig as well, and shows it
  6. We are each other’s best friend
  7. Laughs at my jokes and makes jokes that I laugh about
  8. Is a thoughtful partner
  9. Reliable
  10. Sincere
  11. Not selfish
  12. Generous
  13. Loyal
  14. Does not flirt with others
  15. Playful
  16. Has my best interest at heart
  17. Stable mood
  18. Great temperament
  19. Will keep himself in good shape
  20. Resilient
  21. Doesn’t need/want kids
  22. Funny
  23. Smart
  24. Outgoing
  25. Great conversationalist
  26. Social
  27. Good outlook on life and when facing challenges
  28. Resourceful
  29. Up for trying new things
  30. Amazing sexual compatibility with me – physical, emotional, and chemical match!
  31. Want to make love as often as I do.
  32. Passionate in bed
  33. He loves me in a way that I love to be loved and I love him the way he loves to be loved
  34. Compliments me often
  35. Encourages me
  36. Inspires me
  37. Loves touching me
  38. Loves spending quality time with me and makes time for it
  39. Competent
  40. High EQ
  41. Is my playmate who enjoys doing fun things with me together
  42. Good at biz
  43. We level each other up in biz
  44. Wholesome
  45. Kind hearted
  46. Compassionate
  47. Attentive to my needs
  48. Emotionally available
  49. Elevate my best, soothes my worst, and I do the same for him.
  50. We like each other’s friends too!

 

Haven’t heard from Alex for 4 days

I wish he’d be in touch more…but, that’s ok.

I’m falling in love with him, but I don’t think he is. I think he falls in love slowly, and he is more focused on his biz in general.

For me, I’m all about love.

For him, he is more about biz and having kids probably! He is the type that will be more into his kids than his wife when he has kids. I would not want that.


It’s now Xmas, and I still haven’t heard from him 🙁

Feeling sad about it. He is not as good as I had imaged after all.

I’m setting myself up to not expect him for next weekend either. Weather is a possible reason. Oh well. I need to focus on finding my true love…not waste my emotions on him.

I can enjoy him in the mean time, but don’t get bogged down. Same goes with John.

 

Manifest my husband

I’ve learned a lot from dating John and sexing Alex.

Basically, I want someone who is the best of John and Alex.

And most importantly, we love each other. We want each other equally much. We make each other happy. We make each other laugh! We bring out the best in each other. We enhance each other’s lives. We are great by ourselves, but we are a force when we are together!

What I want, that John and Alex don’t currently provide:

  1. Want me as much as I want him – physically and emotionally
  2. Will go the extra mile to do something for me – to make me happy, to take care of me, to make me feel desired
  3. Loves how I look without a wig as well, and shows it
  4. We are each other’s best friend
  5. Laughs at my jokes and makes jokes that I laugh about
  6. Attentive to my needs
  7. Emotionally available

What I like about John:

  1. Reliable
  2. Sincere
  3. Not greedy
  4. Has my best interest at heart
  5. Stable mood
  6. Great temperament
  7. Will keep himself in good shape
  8. Has athletic resilience
  9. Won’t cheat
  10. Doesn’t need/want kids

What I like about Alex

  1. Funny
  2. Smart
  3. Outgoing
  4. Great conversationalist
  5. Social
  6. Playful
  7. Good outlook on life and when facing challenges
  8. Up for trying new things
  9. Amazing sexual compatibility with me – physical and chemical
  10. Passionate in bed
  11. Has touch as a love language
  12. Competent
  13. Resilient
  14. High EQ
  15. Is a playmate (can do fun things together, I think)
  16. Good at marketing
  17. Good at biz

What I don’t like about Alex

  1. Not always reliable
  2. Can be moody
  3. Maybe: vindictive
  4. Wants to be covered in tattoos
  5. Wants kids (well, I like that but it’s not compatible with my future)
  6. Can cheat

What I don’t like about John

  1. Doesn’t like to touch nor being touched
  2. Doesn’t like to try new things
  3. Is not adventurous
  4. Gets hung up on the bad
  5. Health issues from sports injuries
  6. Isn’t social
  7. Isn’t a playmate

My Most __ Moments in Life

My Most Pivotal Moments in Life

  1. Moving to Canada with Mom at 13
  2. Choosing to go on extreme fat-free diet at 15
  3. Choosing to date Norm at 16 or so
  4. Quitting my job after reading 4-hour workweek at 28, 29
  5. Starting Knot Theory at 29
  6. Starting alopecia group at 30
  7. Going to Noveween party for the first time at 30 or so
  8. Coming out of alopecia closet at 32
  9. Buying the Amazon Amazing Seller course at 34 or so
  10. Choosing to date John at 38 or so
  11. Investing based on John’s tips at 39
  12. Going to mushroom northern lights night with Alex at 41

My Most Content Moments in Life

  1. In Alex’s arm on mushroom northern lights night
  2. After satisfying sex with Alex

My Most Painful Moments in Life

  1. Losing my hair
  2. Losing money to shopify options mishap
  3. Breaking up with Norm
  4. Breaking up in general (Nicolas, John)
  5. Being hurt by a fling (Patrick, Sam)

My Most Disappointed Moments in Life

My Most Meaningful and Happiest Moments in Life

My Most Meaningful and Happiest Moments in Life

  1. Mushroom and Northern Lights night with Alex, being in a caring group, laughing sooo much, being in Alex’s arms and feeling safe
  2. Lying on top of Alex while his dick was in me and he rubbed my pussy – it felt so good and I screamed so hard.
  3. Laughing and talking to Alex in bed
  4. Singing with Alex in bed
  5. Harrison Springs water island with Cyndi and Ty
  6. Camping with Cyndi and Ty – especially the steamy tent
  7. Burning Man – group night out, in that little church
  8. Burning Man – the big head, talking to nice strangers in line
  9. Cyndi and Tyler’s first Noveween – me in meat dress, meeting everyone, adored by everyone
  10. Sexy Street dance classes – so exhilarating
  11. Wild Rumpus – first day, wearing bunny ears, got separated from my group, joined strangers at table, people wearing hilarious costumes and being super friendly, speaker on the table, everyone sing, someone broke out in song and dance and danced on the table
  12. Coming out of alopecia closet on FB
  13. Fun sex night on my 40th (or 39th?) birthday with John when we wore bunny ears and he massaged me while having sex with me
  14. Time with Sam, putting each other into my suitcase, going on a date listening to his poetry and lying down on the shore of South Africa breakwater.
  15. Going on Dragon’s Den
  16. Having 14 orgasms with Matthew, flirting with him online, making out with him
  17. Patrick sex night when he asked to have sex with me not wearing a wig and  said he’s never been so turned on before
  18. Volcano hiking in Bali with Wifi Tribe (Debbie, Alex, Johan, etc)
  19. Discovering that my hotel in China was at Ling Ling circus, and that there’s a view of pandas and giraffes from my room!
  20. Seeing pandas for the first time at the Guangzhou Zoo
  21. That Food and Nudes foodie trip in Florence with Mom, meat and wine tasting, Mom getting a bit drunk and saying to the tour guide that she is the best. At butcher shop, tour guide gave us the postcard of a woman doing gymnastics off a man’s hard-on because steaks are a kind of viagra; Mom getting sprayed in alcohol sprits of some kind like it’s cologne in a wine shop.
  22. Houseboating – Under the sea night was really fun! Guests loved and adored us. We were so cool, having the biggest boat and such great outfits. I was a beautiful mermaid. On a little bit of mushroom. A cute guy (who had a girlfriend) was really into me.
  23. Machu Picchu – a dream come-true destination for me, so awe-inspiring, such great energy, and Mike was flirty
  24. First date with Matthew – at the pool talking for hours and suddenly felt really attracted
  25. Entering Vancouver Sun Halloween drawing contest at 15, drawing, feeling proud of my work, winning.
  26. Making steamed dumplings with cousins as a kid, laughing, being amazed and entertained by how the dumplings swell up.
  27. Drawing contest at the mall at age 8 or 9, using both hands to draw, people amazed at my ambidextrousness and artwork. Was drawing an escalator full of people
  28. Alpaca date with John
  29. Fiji – random encounters – lawyer from the US on set of Survivor (Matt White?), beach volleyball with the kids and having cava cava with their familiy
  30. Visiting all the unique sites with wifi tribe in Bali – playing with a bat,
  31. Climbing to the top of a dessert in Peru with Cyndi, to watch the sunrise.
  32. Seal kayak in South Africa with Robert was super fun; we laughed so much and the surprise seal that popped out of the air made me laugh!
  33. Putting on wetsuits and visiting the penguins in South Africa with Sam, Robert, Brian, and what’s her name from Hong Kong… was super fun. Sam and Brian matrix fighting in wet suit made us laugh. Penguins so amazing!
  34. Knot Theory getting traction. Selling like hotcakes. Feeling that I have finally arrived.
  35. Moving to my Spectrum 1 apartment. The BC Place is SO beautiful. My apartment is so beautiful. I’ve wanted this and finally got it. New beginning. Was planning to have lots of parties and small gatherings!
  36. Living in the basement temporarily with Hitomi and Mom; eating hotpot daily and sleeping on the floor, talking and laughing early in the morning when we woke up.
  37. Tony Robbins Fiji event – climbing onto the pole and jumping off it. Was a bit scary but I did it! And was the first girl to do it!
  38. Mushroom experience in Bali at the Gili T. island beachside was very memorable. My fave part was dancing with Sam, and making out. Also the interesting experience of mushroom: the bright geometric visuals when having my eyes closed, looking up at the colourful sky feeling so grand and that I came here to bring joy to the world, sparkles in the water, laughing and crying, the calm the next day of being able to stare into people’s eyes.
  39. Walking around at night in Seattle with Stan and Masha each in my arms, feeling high and very connected to them
  40. Visiting Mike and Lauren in Seattle; dance party at night, watching Mike’s video of his life’s antics, feeling well-hosted and getting closer to the hosts
  41. Jumping on a trampoline at Summer’s feeling so free and laughing so much.
  42. All the first dates and flings: Josh, getting closer to him, having sex, went to the beach and had more sex; had sex for 5 times in one day on another date
  43. Idriss: admiring his TED talk, flirting with him, kissing everywhere in Shanghai.
  44. Pat (?) Half east indian half swedish guy: dancing like we were one on the dance floor
  45. Nicolas: outdoor sex at UBC open field, his dick felt so good I remember wanting it to go on forever
  46.  Fin: first Tinder encounter. Was smelly first time, but after that it was fun. He was fun to spoon with. I think his dick was in me or between my legs the whole night
  47. Seeing octopuses chase each other and change colour
  48. Riding a mechanical bull at the beach in Thailand
  49. Floriding in Puket
  50. Soaring over California
  51. Riding down Cypress on a shower curtain with Cyndi and Amy!
  52. Finally have freedom money and passive income thanks to John, my initiatives, and covid.
  53. Collaborating with Ty on the ring tool
  54. Mike Evans making me laugh on the bus, acting out different accents
  55. Mom, Jing China trip – Xin Jiang rasin buying experience
  56. Designing, creating, brainstorming, dreaming about the future while anticipating something amazing to happen

Theme:

  1. Romanic encounter and development
  2. A rare adventure or first time experience; the more eye-opening the better
  3. Developing or deepening friendship and making amazing memories together
  4. Laughing a lot
  5. Interacting with cute animals; the more exotic the better
  6. Having a great time as a group
  7. Accomplishing something I’ve wanted / dreamt about (being successful in biz, visiting a dream place, moving to my dream place with my dream view)
  8. Feeling free (soaring, flying, getting big air, flowriding)
  9. Doing something that requires courage / stepping outside of my comfort zone (Dragon’s den, jumping off a pole, dancing)
  10. Creating things and being admired / appreciated for my creation (winning drawing contests, designing things that sell)

Wow, I feel so predictable! Like, my programming is so simple! Haha.

Bunny, Jumanji, Alex

Went to see Bunny last night. We had our Xmas dinner. He ordered some Yemenese chicken. It was ok. We watched Jumanji. It was not bad!

Then we cuddled. I took my clothes off and tried to get some nice cuddling time. Still not much from him. I feel that he just touches me out of obligation. He didn’t touch my boobs, didn’t grope my ass. Just rubbed my back and gave me some non-sensual lip and neck kisses.

I brought him celery juice I made, picked up his computer for him, and got him a ton of Costco groceries. I guess it’s in the name of me caring about him and him making a lot of money for me in stocks. But my heart is not in this anymore.

I like Alex. Even though, I don’t think he’s warmed up to me yet. I don’t think he is into me the same way I’m into him.

I was thinking back to our first time meeting. He wasn’t even interested in talking to me!

But now, we have such passionate sex and long conversations. It’s so fun.

He still talks about the kids he is gonna have, almost every time.

If he was a woman one would think this woman’s baby clock is totally ticking!

I hope that when we no longer have passionate sex we can still be good friends. Is that possible?

Or, I hope that we’ll always have passionate sex. But that seems unrealistic.

I was talking to Cyndi. Interestingly, she has a young guy and an older guy (our age) in her life too. Dylan and Nathan. They both love her! Aww..that’s nice. After so many years of neglect from Ty.

I also talked to Ty, about when we get old, if he sees himself as having a partner. He says, not necessarily. I tend to agree.

What’s the benefit of growing old with someone? Not a lot. I think it’s better to have a supportive community who love you and may care for you and will make your life fun, and may share the cost of senior care, and to have the money to pay for care.


After Nicole went home, I went to lie down and dream about Alex. I do that a bit too much. I just love being with him so much.

I love the sex, I love the touch, the passion. I love the laughs, sharing stories, sharing biz tips.

I love every moment with him.

 

Alex, Meaning of Life Question

Alex came over last night and we had amazing sex again. And great talks after.

I was not very horny all week because he cancelled on me last minute last week. He said he’d be on time at 5:30 this time. I messaged him at 5pm to confirm he is still coming before I got ready.

He was pretty on time! Only 10 minutes late.

I was a bit nervous and excited for some reason. Hadn’t seen him in 2 weeks.

I was wearing my Xmas lingerie. It’s not very well made, but it’s kinda funny. It’s red lace with white feather trim. It has an open crotch with a bow! I wore my Xmas socks too. And put on my Xmas flannel pajama top. It looked like I was bottom-less.

He came looking cute. He liked my flannel pajama top actually. Maybe even more than the sexy lingerie.

He asked if I missed him. I said maybe. Still a little mad about him cancelling on me last time. I asked if he missed me. He said of course.

We kissed for a while in the living room. I was definitely still so attracted to him even though he disappointed me last time.

We carried on in the bedroom. The moment he entered me, my mouth fell open and I moaned. Each time he enters me, I was so surprised at how amazing it feels.

We did all the usual positions. At one point I was on top, he breathed in a white feather from my outfit and sneezed! Hahahha

I laugh so much before, during, after sex with him all the time.

I told him his hair was so cute. He told me I was so beautiful. That’s nice. He doesn’t compliment me that much but when I compliment him he reciprocates.

All the positions felt so good. And our kisses were so passionate. It’s been two weeks after all… felt like ages.

He came pretty hard…his jizz shot so far it got on my face…maybe his too.

My uterus felt so happy and content after. I never feel this way with other guys.

We talked…though I think we’ve started to repeat ourselves a little bit when we talked about our childhood.

I always laugh so much when I’m with him. Actually I’m not entirely sure if he laughs just as much. He is a bit more stoic. Doesn’t smile much. Before the mushroom night, I was never able to tell if he liked me.

Also I’m not sure if he laughs at my jokes a lot…I’ll pay more attention next time. He makes me laugh though, that’s for sure. He was imagining how Billy from my ECF group would act, when I told him how Billy would continue to talk to me even when I was no longer in eye contact with him and was talking to someone else. “So I tripped over a crack and I thought, I need something to fill this crack. Then I thought, this could be my next Amazon product idea…” Ahahhaa

Before I knew it, we were getting it on again. I think he initiated it. I love that he can go again in like 5 minutes.

I wanted to try sitting up sex, but it didn’t work well in bed. It’s more of a sofa position. Then he asked if I wanted to try lying on top of him again. Last time I was holding myself up, and it didn’t quite work. This time I lied on up of him fully. He started playing with my clit while simultaneously thrusting from behind me….and omg….I moaned like crazy.

It felt so good. I’m not sure if it was the clitoral stimulation or the idea of him touching me like that… I got so wet. He was turned on by how wet I got.

I love moaning loudly because I think it turns him on. I love that I was quivering a bit. I love that I’d wrap my legs around his, and that we were so close together.

He finished with side pumps which is also my fave. Ahhh soo amazing. His dick feels so amazing in every position. I love his dick. I didn’t suck on it though. I will reward him with a blow job when he has been good.

With clitorial stimulation, I giggled so much after. I think I was high. He thought it was cute.

He was hungry and ordered some ramen with dip. It was past 9pm so I only ate a tiny bit. So cute how he always shares with me…tore half of his seaweed into my bowl, asked if I wanted a bite of his pork, and set aside a small bowl for me even though I said I’d just have a bite of his. He is so cute and sweet like that…

I needed to touch him always. I put a leg on his thighs. He put my other leg up on him and held me in his arms. I love that. He is very touch-oriented like me. Between sex I noticed he’d run his fingers over my skin. It felt so great.

I asked him the question, “Consider the past 3 months and describe one moment when you felt really good, like you were participating in something particularly meaningful.”

He said, without hesitation, the mushroom night. I was delightfully surprised. He goes out every weekend, and I wasn’t sure if he was doing something more fun and memorable.

His reason was not quite the same as mine though. He likes that it’s rare. It’s rare that we go outside and stare at the sky. He likes that it was spontaneous. He likes that I came out. He likes the simplicity of it. I dove deeper on why the simplicity was attractive to him. He said because his biz partner said he always over complicates things (in biz), and that his businesses are getting more and more complex. He is drawn to simplicity, simpler life, I think.

So, rare adventures, simple and natural events, simple life…these are the keywords I hear.

I could’ve dug deeper into, why I made it a very fun and meaningful moment, but I didn’t.

For Bunny, it was mindset (from me)

For Ty, it was doing something that is the first in history. (toonprov aka shitty zoom)

For Cyndi, it was community

For Nicole, it was act of kindness and being loved.

For me, it was doing something for the first time (new adventure), being in a group, and being loved/cared for by someone I’m attracted to.

These answers to the question are so accurate and insightful of the person’s values!

Imagine if Alex and I were to live in a community, and have lots of rare/travel adventures! If he was in WifiTribe with me, we’d be dating by now.

I was thinking recently that I had wanted to attract a boyfriend who is good at marketing, and height doesn’t matter. I had wanted to be friends with a lot more people, and from there, develop friendship, and eventually when I’m single, pick out a boyfriend from my guy friends..

It’s amazing how close this has turned out the way I wanted. I’ve manifested this!

It’s not quite exactly…he is not my boyfriend, and he wants kids..A LOT! He talks about kids every time.

I need to strengthen my manifesting powers!

I’m grateful though. It’s been SO FUN being with him. SOOO FUN. It’s soul nourishing. It’s life-giving. It’s exhilarating. I love him.

We talked about business a bit. That’s always fun too. He told me about getting a line of credit to grow my biz. I just might!

As he was leaving, he said, “See you next week?” I said yes but let me know if you’re gonna cancel…but then I remembered that I’m going to Victoria next weekend. So, it’ll be two weeks. Sigh.

We kissed so much before he left. Miss him already.

He is prolly going to Mexico in January, and is for sure going to Japan for 2 months in April. Ugh. I want him always…

He is so special to me. I wonder if he finds me to be so special too. I hope we’ll always be this fond of each other, this passionate, and increasingly romantic!