Author: spacebunny@gmail.com

I am lucky. VERY lucky.

Let’s take a moment to appreciate this.

What do I love about the current situation?

I am healthy

I am wealthy

I laugh a lot

I have fun at Spikeball

I have fun with Nicole and Yesol (when they are both here)

My parents are healthy and happy (Dad is sad about his dog recently passing away, but in general he is happy)

Business has been rocky lately. I’ll take this as an opportunity to learn.

I am in pretty good shape. Some ab lines. Will work on improving my physique! I’m looking forward to trying Feel Good gym!

My mohawk is growing well at the moment. I’m grateful for this!

I felt a certain hip and glute tension release from my recent massage with my shiatsu massager. That felt so good! Even better than going to Rob my MRT!

I am youthful

I am loved

I am brilliant

I am beautiful

I attract great luck

I attract the most attractive people

I lead a meaningful life

I think outside the box

I find solutions

I innovate

Today is going to be a MAGICAL day!

 

1. What I wear – what kind of stereotype personality/status/wealth do I project?
2. My skins are dry. When I was in Costa Rica, I was plump. Figure out how to be plump. Start with drinking more water and taking creatine.
4. Face roll my facial tension aways 2 to 3 times a day
5. Is posting IG reels and stories the best use to my time in terms of building friends, personal brand, personal entertainment?

 

 

I want to work on a project that will bring in $5M to $10M profit annually for the next 10 years.

Knot Theory has been able to, on average, pull in $850K profit annually (given that it’s been 10 years and I have $8.5M).

So I can do this.

I just need to pick a good project. A project that is in a rising tide.

HRT for Perimenopausal women and menopausal women!

 

 

Gym Couples who take their rings off for the gym:

1. Hey Gym Couples!
   Do you feel guilty about taking off your wedding ring for workouts?
   Knot Theory’s workout-friendly rings are flexible and breathable.
   Comfortably wear your ring during push-ups, pull-ups, bench press.You don’t have to choose between your wedding ring and your workouts.

   Gym Couples who risk wearing their metal rings the gym:

2. Hey Gym Couples!
   Do you wear your wedding rings during workouts?
   Traditional wedding rings can easily get scratched up, warped, or worst yet: injure your fingers.Knot Theory’s workout-friendly rings are flexible and breathable.
   Comfortably wear your ring during push-ups, pull-ups, bench press.

   Crush your workout, not your fingers.
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   Hey Yogis!
   Do you wear your wedding ring during yoga?

   Knot Theory’s silicone rings are lightweight and flexible. They won’t interfere with poses such as downward-facing dog, cobra, or side-plank.

   Flow freely without ring worries.

   —–

4. “I want to wear my ring at all times, but I’m afraid it’ll get damaged during my workout.”
5. “I feel like I’m choosing between my marriage symbol and my passion for fitness every time I work out.”
6. Hey #CouplesThatLiftTogether !

   Hey Gym Couples! Love shouldn’t hurt, especially at the gym. Knot Theory: Silicone wedding rings that are ultra comfortable & safe.

• Hey Swolemates! Don’t let ring anxiety steal your gains.
  Wear Knot Theory silicone wedding rings for safe & anexiety-free workouts.Hey Fit Fam! Crush your workout, not your fingers. Knot Theory: The smart choice for fitness fanatics.”

   

• Do you feel guilty about taking off your wedding ring for workouts?
• Do you worry about ring injuries during your workout?
• Do you worry about scratching or warping your wedding ring at the gym?
• Do you worry damaging or losing your expensive wedding ring at the gym?
• Do you struggle with  the ring before workouts, risking loss.

 

Lifters:

 

• Hey Weightlifters! Lift weights, not worries.
  Knot Theory silicone rings: Because your PR shouldn’t come with a trip to the ER.”
• Hey Weightlifters! Focus on your form, not your metal ring. Wear Knot Theory silicone rings for safe & undistracted workouts.
  
  Yogis:
• Hey Yogis! Flow freely without ring fear. Knot Theory: Flexible rings for flexible bodies.”

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• “Traditional rings tap out. Ours go the distance. Knot Theory silicone rings: Safe, flexible, unstoppable.”
• “Rings that flex with you, not against you. Knot Theory: Because love shouldn’t be a hazard.”
  
• “Your commitment is unbreakable. Your ring should be flexible. Knot Theory: Safe style for gym heroes.”
• “Stop worrying about your ring and start breaking personal records. Knot Theory: Designed for champions.”
• Strength trainers! When metal meets muscle, nobody wins. Choose Knot Theory for injury-free intensity.”—

 

• Hey, gym warriors! Don’t let ring worries steal your focus. Knot Theory: Safe, stylish, always ready.
• Attention Gym Heroes: Your wedding band shouldn’t be your riskiest lift. Knot Theory: Rings that flex with you.
• “Calling all personal trainers! Lead by example with injury-proof rings. Knot Theory: Safe style for pros.”

• “Marathon runners! Go the distance without ring distractions. Knot Theory: Comfort for every mile.”
• “Rock climbers! Don’t let your ring be your weakest link. Knot Theory: Secure love for daring heights.”
• “Weightlifters! Protect your fingers as fiercely as your gains. Knot Theory: Rings that won’t cramp your style.”
• “Busy gym-goers! No time for ring anxiety? Knot Theory: Set it and forget it comfort.”
• “Active newlyweds! Your love is unbreakable, but your ring should be flexible. Knot Theory: For adventurous ever-afters.”

 

External Problems (tangible challenges):

1. Metal ring gets in the way during weightlifting, potentially causing injury.
2. Traditional ring can scratch expensive gym equipment.
3. Ring gets damaged or misshapen during intense workouts.
4. Sweat accumulates under the ring, causing skin irritation.
5. Constant need to remove and store the ring before workouts, risking loss.

Philosophical Problems (bigger questions or beliefs):

1. Believes that symbols of love shouldn’t interfere with personal health and fitness goals.
2. Feels that commitment should be represented in all aspects of life, including at the gym.
3. Thinks that wedding rings should be designed for modern, active lifestyles.
4. Believes in the importance of safety without sacrificing personal style or sentiment.

Combined Problem Statements:

1. “I want to wear my ring at all times, but I’m afraid it’ll get damaged during my workout.”
2. “I feel like I’m choosing between my marriage symbol and my passion for fitness every time I work out.”
3. “I believe in giving 100% in both my relationship and my workouts, but my traditional ring is holding me back.”
4. “I’m tired of worrying about ring-related injuries when I should be focusing on helping my clients achieve their fitness goals.”

 

 

Today, I had dinner with Elena. I haven’t seen her in a long time. It was nice to catch up.

She said she missed me. I honestly haven’t missed her much. I think she is super nice and sincere, but I don’t think she is super funny or smart or inspiring. BUT she can be a bit funny, and I learn stuff talking to her sometimes. Oh and she is very reliable and thoughtful.

She wants to go to Bali in January for her 50th! And she wants to do so much! This was a new side of her! Turned out that’s how she likes to travel, but Emil only wanted to lie on the beach, so that’s what they usually do on vacations!

I’m becoming more and more convinced that I don’t want a boyfriend or a husband.

She said half of her friends are divorced. And she said that as people get old and sick, they don’t have the capacity to take care of each other. They just get annoyed with each other and wish the other person wasn’t there. Wow. That makes sense.

We went to Jungle Room. The food was pretty good, the price was too high for what you get though. The springrolls were the best there. Octopus dish was mostly bread. Wouldn’t go back.

She said her and Emil have had sex twice this year, and she thinks Emil would’ve been fine if it was 0 times. He is sad that an opportunity to make lots of money and to move to Florida fell through.

Meanwhile, Elena is excited about her girls trip to Bali! It’ll be her first trip without him! I’m shocked.

I wouldn’t be surprised if they separate. And if they do, I think Elena would be much happier! She said her hikes with her girlfriends are way more fun than her hikes with Emil and Teo.

Teo is just a selfish brat.

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I had a brief chat with John today. Stocks are doing well. $6.85M in IBKR, and $1.8M in TD, plus $310K cash I put into TD. So John’s managed amount is $8.65M, and I have about $325K USD in cash. But I owe mom $400K CAD.

So I guess my net worth is $9M CAD. Business is worth at least $1M USD.

I told him I’m going to the Jungle Room with Elena. He said I can drop by before. I said maybe after.

After dinner, I went to drop by his place, but he didn’t pick up. Turned out he was with his “friend” in the sauna.

Ugh. I was so upset. Because, I needed to use the washroom and I thought he said I could come by after, but he said before not after. I was also upset because it suddenly dawned on me that he hasn’t been picking up my phone calls.

He also has been unattentative on the calls, but that’s typical of him I guess. And he has made the calls quite short, which I pointed out and he tried to rectify one time.

Sigh. I was so mad thinking about it as I lied in bed, I had to get up and type this out.

I thought about all the threatening things I’ll say and do. Get my keys back, never pick up his calls again, never see him again.

Tears started to well up as I thought about how he put 0 thought in to my bday this year, bought me the worst flowers (green, perfumey, and clearly he was going on a date and picked up these uglier flowers for me). I thought about how he doesn’t trust me with his keys. I thought about bad I feel every time I’ve been on the phone with him, because he wasn’t present and because he is negative and dismissive.

And yet, I feel sad and jealous that he is dating.

Deep down, I’m still somewhat attracted to him physically. He is getting old now, but he is as good as it gets for a 45 yo guy.

But I gotta remember, his personality sucks. He sucks in bed. He sucks as a friend. He sucks as a boyfriend. He sucks sucks sucks.

The only things he is good for are:

1. Made me a lot of money
2. Verbally appreciative of me
3. Will try to do better after doing everything wrong

I just need him to make me more money.

I’m done with having him as a friend.

Now the question is, should I say anything to him?

I think, next time he calls, I’ll just not pick up. For as long as it feels right, I won’t pick up. Maybe the next week or month…

I won’t arrange meeting up with him either. He had proposed that we hang out once a month, after I called him out. But so far he has not asked me when I’m free, and he’s had no plans. I’m gonna put 0 pressure there. We’ll see how long it is before he made a real effort to see me.

So for the next little while or long while, I’ll simply let him go. I’ll stop putting the effort in. I’ll only reply to him in whatsapp if he messages me. And will mostly be in emojis.

Sure I’ve been mad at him before, but I always let him know why I was mad, and I always give him the chance to talk it out / justify / make it up. Not this time. I’m actually done this time. Not going to put more effort in than he puts in. Not going to tell him to treat me better. No instructions this time. Just coldness. Just avoidance.

In the past little while, he has:

1. Not putting any thought into my bday
2. Not initiate meeting me for 3 months
3. Not picked up the phone when I called
4. Bought me the ugliest flowers
5. Cut our calls short
6. Not been present in our calls
7. Forgotten to message me back in whatsappI know other people have had worse ex’s, but, I just don’t need this downer in my life. I am happier when I don’t interact with him.

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I had a realization today: most men are just not thoughtful.

Actually, Alison and Tammy’s husbands are pretty thoughtful.

Maybe Asian men are more thoughtful?

North American men suck (even if they are Asian).

I’ve been expecting local men to be thoughtful, and just end up being so disappointed.

I think I need to either adjust my expectations, or, only have brief exposures to men (i.e. flings).

A couple days ago, I was surprisingly still upset about Sid.

It’s been so long now. Why do I even think about it?

I guess it’s because he is more active than ever at Spikeball. That annoys me. I wish he’d go away like Hilda and Rob eventually did.

I thought about what it is that made me so upset still, and realized that it’s rejection.

He flirted with me, and I developed a crush on him, and he flaked out on me, which basically meant he didn’t have a crush on me.

Recently, I learned that 2 other guys didn’t have a crush on me.

Herry (whose name is gross anyway) was clearly more into Nicole (sigh…If I was 22 years younger, I’d be more likely able to compete), and invited her and Dips to his potluck in front of / near me. That was a double dis because he was not interested in me AT ALL.

Then again, I know John R. is interested in me, but he never invited me to anything. He invited other girls but not me. I didn’t let that get to me because I’m not interested in him.

Another one is realizing that Brian has been dating someone, and then got dumped. He thought the dates were going perfectly. That upset me because thinking back, he flaked out on my party as well. And I had a crush on him briefly too…took a while because he is ugly IMO. But what sucks the most is that, he didn’t try very hard to date me it seems.

I gotta know that, there are many reasons why people try hard or less hard, are attract or are not attracted. It works out when 2 people are mutually attracted and trying. It could be timing, it could be luck. It’s a complex equation. It doesn’t have to do with a person being more worthy or not.

I guess if someone is young and beautiful, they have the best shot. More than anything else.

I mean, look at Elijah Kim. I’ve barely interacted with him, and I’m pining for him. Because he has the nicest body of anyone I know atm.

I miss the days when I could have sex with hot guys with perfect bodies. Patrick, Matthew, Josh, Devan, John.

They are all old now. I know Patrick has gained weight and his hairline receded. 10 years ago, hot damn he was perfect1 Perfect body, perfect face.

Keilor. I don’t miss him anymore. The memory of him and of us has faded….

But he made me laugh, he listened to me and remembered what I said, he was gracious/non-judging, he was the best kisser I’ve had, and, he was probably the healthiest (mentally) of them all. And the most fun to be around.

He didn’t have a perfect body. And he was very short. And his dick was barely big enough. He was, physically, not the same caliber as the kind of guys I used to get, but, personality-wise, he was one of the best! And, he is 18 years younger than me. I have no complaints. I’m SO grateful to have our encounter!

Lately, biz stress or peri-menopause got me to not crave sex anyway.

As a society, it’s harder and harder to find sincere guys too.

Elijah – I want him. He is only 22 or 23 though. And he is Christian. And he lives in Richmond, probably with his parents. He is a kid lol.

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I played Spikeball with Catherine, Pranav, and (Indian) Sean yesterday. Oh and Ian (from BC Roundnet) came too.

It was fun!

The funniest moment was when 3 dogs ran around playing so hard ran into Pranav! We joked about how Pranav was invisible to the dogs hahaha

I always cherish good spikeball moments. Every now and then I miss Josh because he always runs for the balls. I also love all the laughing moments with eveyrone. Mylo, Dips, etc.

I’m still upset with Sid.

I have so much anger in me, I had to take a moment to figure out why I can’t forgive.

I think it’s 2 fold.

1, I REALLY care about these qualities in people: fun, sincere, reliable. Oh and I like people who are outgoing / brave / bold. That’s why I like Nicole Y. and Yesol and Ayumi so much especially when all 4 of us hang out! I really don’t like flakes, that’s why Hilda and Rob and Sid really pissed me off.

2, I felt rejected by Sid. He was flirty with me. But he was going on dates. That should’ve been a clear sign that he wasn’t interested in me.

I mean, I’m among girls in their 20s and 30s. I look good for my age, but I’m still clearly older. I might be the most fun, interesting, smart, and athletic, but youth is such a plus. I mean, I’m into younger guys myself, who am I to fault guys for preferring younger women?

It’s just that I never failed to be the one that guys have a crush on. I had never been defeated. But now, it happens. Herry is clearly not interested in me. Sid is not (though he still tries to be on my good side…but it’s too late).

I can’t think of anyone at Spikeball that has a crush on me actually. I imagine myself being so rizzy, and yet, no one has made an effort to court me. I know who always checks out my IG stories though. Shane, Sim. And now Pranav, (Korean) Sean. Sometimes John R. John is the only one that made it somewhat obvious that he finds me attractive. No one else did lol.

On the other hand, it’s good that I’m not crushing on anyone at Spikeball. It’s my playground and I wouldn’t want it to get tainted if a relationship failed.

Also, imagine if Sid was actually interested in me and we dated. We’d break up in months, and he’d be flirting with all the girls at Spikeball. That would’ve sucked even more! Also, based on his fingers, he probably has a small dick!

Then there’s Herry, who has a gross name. And somewhat feminine and vein.

I think, if a guy is interested in me, my bar is pretty low. But because they aren’t interested, I dodged a bullet.

OH and there’s Elliot, who was flirty with me, but then also showed so much interest in Eddy’s gf Rebecka. That grosses me out.

Oh and Reza, who was REALLY flirty with me, but then revealed that he was on a date. WTF. I was so grossed out I didn’t even want to go to his bday party. He is 29 and said age is just a number. But, he is not that cute and is quite scrawny, and is studying to become a dental assistant which is quite unattractive to me.

Basically, if a guy is in heat (i.e. in gf searching mode), he’ll hit on anyone really.

I want a good, high quality guy, sure. But those guys are rare, and if not taken, they have so many options.

 

 

Silicone ring customer avatars can vary widely based on lifestyle, interests, and needs. Here’s a comprehensive list of potential customer avatars:

### 1. **Fitness Enthusiasts**
– **Demographics**: Ages 18-45, both genders.
– **Interests**: Weightlifting, CrossFit, yoga, running.
– **Needs**: Comfortable, durable rings that can withstand sweat and rigorous physical activity.
– **Pain Points**: Traditional metal rings are uncomfortable or dangerous during workouts.

### 2. **Outdoor Adventurers**
– **Demographics**: Ages 25-50, both genders.
– **Interests**: Hiking, climbing, camping, water sports.
– **Needs**: Rings that are waterproof, durable, and won’t get damaged or lost during outdoor activities.
– **Pain Points**: Concern about losing or damaging valuable traditional rings.

### 3. **Healthcare Professionals**
– **Demographics**: Ages 25-60, predominantly women but also men.
– **Interests**: Nursing, doctors, paramedics, caregivers.
– **Needs**: Non-conductive, easy-to-clean rings that meet hygiene standards.
– **Pain Points**: Metal rings are not practical or allowed in some healthcare settings.

### 4. **Manual Labor Workers**
– **Demographics**: Ages 25-55, predominantly men.
– **Interests**: Construction, mechanics, electricians, plumbers.
– **Needs**: Safe, non-conductive rings that won’t cause injury or damage while working.
– **Pain Points**: Traditional rings can cause injury or discomfort during manual labor.

### 5. **Parents and Caregivers**
– **Demographics**: Ages 25-45, predominantly women but also men.
– **Interests**: Raising young children, daycare workers.
– **Needs**: Soft, safe rings that won’t scratch or hurt children, easy to clean.
– **Pain Points**: Traditional rings can be uncomfortable or unsafe around children.

### 6. **Travel Enthusiasts**
– **Demographics**: Ages 20-50, both genders.
– **Interests**: Traveling, exploring new places, backpacking.
– **Needs**: Lightweight, low-maintenance rings that are less likely to be lost or stolen during travel.
– **Pain Points**: Worry about losing valuable rings while traveling.

### 7. **Wedding and Commitment Couples**
– **Demographics**: Ages 20-35, both genders.
– **Interests**: Engaged or married couples looking for alternative rings.
– **Needs**: Affordable, customizable, and symbolic rings that can be worn daily.
– **Pain Points**: Traditional metal rings are expensive and may not fit their lifestyle.

### 8. **Tech Professionals**
– **Demographics**: Ages 25-45, predominantly men.
– **Interests**: Working in tech, coding, IT support.
– **Needs**: Non-conductive, comfortable rings that won’t interfere with technology.
– **Pain Points**: Metal rings can be uncomfortable or pose risks when working with electronics.

### 9. **Eco-Conscious Consumers**
– **Demographics**: Ages 18-40, both genders.
– **Interests**: Sustainability, environmentally friendly products.
– **Needs**: Rings made from eco-friendly materials, possibly biodegradable or recyclable.
– **Pain Points**: Concern about the environmental impact of traditional rings.

### 10. **Fashion-Conscious Individuals**
– **Demographics**: Ages 18-35, predominantly women.
– **Interests**: Fashion, accessories, personal style.
– **Needs**: Stylish, colorful rings that can be mixed and matched with outfits.
– **Pain Points**: Traditional rings may not be versatile enough to match their fashion sense.

### 11. **Athletes**
– **Demographics**: Ages 18-40, both genders.
– **Interests**: Sports, particularly team sports or individual competitive sports.
– **Needs**: Lightweight, durable rings that won’t interfere with athletic performance.
– **Pain Points**: Metal rings are uncomfortable or risky during sports activities.

### 12. **Military and Law Enforcement**
– **Demographics**: Ages 25-50, predominantly men.
– **Interests**: Military, police work, firefighting.
– **Needs**: Durable, safe rings that won’t interfere with their duties or equipment.
– **Pain Points**: Metal rings can be unsafe or impractical in their line of work.

### 13. **Minimalists**
– **Demographics**: Ages 20-45, both genders.
– **Interests**: Simple, functional lifestyle, minimalism.
– **Needs**: Simple, understated rings that align with a minimalist lifestyle.
– **Pain Points**: Traditional rings are often seen as excessive or unnecessary.

### 14. **People with Metal Allergies**
– **Demographics**: All ages, both genders.
– **Interests**: Those who have allergies or sensitivities to metals.
– **Needs**: Hypoallergenic rings that won’t cause skin irritation.
– **Pain Points**: Metal rings cause allergic reactions or discomfort.

### 15. **Pet Lovers**
– **Demographics**: Ages 25-50, predominantly women.
– **Interests**: Owning and caring for pets, animal rescue.
– **Needs**: Soft, durable rings that won’t hurt pets or get damaged during pet care.
– **Pain Points**: Metal rings can be uncomfortable or unsafe when handling animals.

This list covers a wide range of potential silicone ring customers, each with unique needs and pain points that can be addressed with targeted products and marketing strategies.

 

 

I’ve been wanting to write this post for a little while.

Sometimes I feel so grateful I want to write about what I’m grateful for.

Sometimes I get caught up, feeling annoyed / stressed / taking the good for granted almost, and I want to write about what I’m grateful for.

So I want to write about all the things I love and enjoy these days.

1) Spikeball today is another fun day! Tuesday at Sunset Beach. It was so fun. I got a few good games in, and laughed super hard with Pranav and Catherine. At one point we were squatting around the net playing t-rex spikeball hahaha. We were stretching around the net too cuz we were all so tired. Played with some seasoned players such as Sim, Jonathan, Eddie, and John, but didn’t play with Elliot, Olivier, and a couple guys from BC Roundnet, Wanna play with them more next time!

2) Last Thursday I played with Eddie’s gang at Killarney Park. The grass was beautiful. I didn’t even bring shoes. I kicked of my flip flops and was ready to play. Everyone put on their cleats hahaha. I learned so much that day! They spray paint the serving zone (7′) and the no hit zone. They don’t take the nets apart cuz it took too long to set up. They played with 20, 30 balls at once. Justin spent some time teaching me. So did Will and Elijah. I went without a wig. Oh and Francois was there. He also put on cleats! He stepped on my bare foot. The next day I bought cleats.

3) Last Saturday I played in Eddie’s tournament. I was second last. Elaine, an elite player (Jeff’s) girlfriend was the only person worse than me. It was hard, but I learned a lot! Nick’s wife Maddy gave me some pointers. She was on Team Canada but tore her ACL playing spikeball. I asked her how she got good. She said she took a year off work and just played/practiced everyday! Whoa! She taught me when to hit (on the downswing, near the hip), drills are super important before a game, and to remember to have fun. She was only 26 but she seemed so mature!

4) Elijah Kim is SO HOT. I haven’t seen anyone this hot in a while. I think he is around 20 though. I saw a photo on his FB page from 2018 and he was a kid then lol. But now he has the perfect body, cute face, and, is quite nice. I think about how I can leverage “crush power” and let it be my motivation to get really good at Spikeball. Can’t say I have a huge crush on him…but I do want to get really good at Spikeball! I learned today that Eddie has only played for 3 years! But he plays everyday! That’s why he’s on Team Canada!

5) My body is quite nice right now! I’m almost as lean as my target, my booty is lifted, and I’m tanned. Just have a tiny bit of belly to get rid of, and need to build more muscles, and get rid of my cellulite on the back of my thighs. I walk 10k almost everyday, and I want to

6) My mohawk is quite full now! I think it’s the fullest it’s ever been, ever since I had a mohawk, which is 10+ years ago! It’s not super clear what caused it. I did use BuLauLin, and Minoxidil. I also did some scalp massages. I also try to limit my gluten and sugar intake. Oh and I’ve been getting a lot of sun when I walk 10k outside! Now, people think it’s a hairstyle I choose.

7) I went to Sunset Beach, Eddie’s pickup games, and the tournament all without a wig on! It was WAY too hot!!

Drone that can be controlled with a glove or wrist wrap!

Harness the global warming energy, thereby getting free energy and lowering Earth’s temperature!

Getting lean in the waist and toned overall!

Make more friends – friends whom I can talk to about these topics, friends who have the time & money & desire to travel with me, friends who are funny, smart, playful, reliable, sincere, kind!

Manifest more fun flings!

Grow Knot Theory to 8 figures!

Find the best surgeon to give me an eye lift and philtrum lift!

Improve my energy level – through diet, through EBV eradication!

Improve my mood – through lowering stress, knowing myself, forgiveness, better health!

Improve my friend dynamic so people want to be my friend and I want to be their friend!

What trips to take in the cold rainy months!

Where would I live in the (near) future?

Memories of Keilor is subsiding.

John is dating and is super happy with the girl.

Brian has been dating and had “flawless dates” with the girl.

Alex Pinto never followed up with me after seeing me.

No one at spikeball is interested in me. Probably no one is worth my interest either. Spikeball friends are boring/unfunny people for the most part.

Spent time hosting Kent but he turned out to be boring and even annoying.

Stopped talking to Cyndi because she’s been an absent friend. It’s been like this a while, but the fact that she took over a week to reply to me was the last straw. I didn’t have to spell it out to her, but I did. Now we’re just not friends anymore.

ECF girls suck. Uninspiring most of them. Busy, non-responsive.

Hamptonites – nothing stemming from that so far.

Volleyball friends – ok as a larger group, but no one is worth spending all day with.

I feel undesired by guys and by my friends. I feel that I don’t have kindred spirits. People that I wanted to get to know better don’t want to hang out with me, and the few people who made an effort are the people I don’t like or don’t care to like (not funny, not smart, fake, cliche, etc) Summer for example. Kent too. Fake and cliche.

Nicole was dreadful to hang out with. I don’t know how she became so dreadful. She overthinks, is negative, and her bad energy is contagious.

I’m looking into healing my mind (I can manifest, I can forgive) and body (adrenals, EBV). I hope to get my happiness and motivation back!

 

 

 

IBKR: About $6M

TD: About $1.5M

Just found last 2 year’s tax returns in Simplii Financials: $36,591.05

And that I have $68,700 in PayPal

USD: 154.6+160+68.7=383.3K which is about $524K CAD (Although I do owe Mom $410K, used to pay John)

CAD: 48+36.5=84.5

So my liquid is 524+84.5=608.5

So my total net worth is about $8M CAD

Plus Knot Theory is probably worth $1.5M

Wow.

I am very blessed <3

 

 

 

I’m fascinated by this. Tesla is into manifesting!

3 wishes, 6 times a days, 9 seconds each

What will be my 3 wishes?

I thought about it long and hard. Let me make a list:

1. Energetic all day until bed time.
2. Can eat anything I want and stay toned and healthy
3. Full mohawk or full head of hair
4. Toned body with 11 abs
5. Look like a gorgeous 25 yo
6. Be one of top 5 best spikeball players in our meetup
7. Knot Theory does $10M revenue and 25% profit within a year, and growing
8. Have a core group of friends who are fun, smart, sincere, spiritually inspiring and intellectually stimulating, and have time and money to travel the world with me!
9. Have romantic, fun, and sincere flings, each one no more than 1 month apart.

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So I completed the 9 day manifestation of having a romantic, fun, and sincere fling.

During this time, some things were stirred up, but no romance came.

For example at the passport office, mom and I met another mother-daughter team, and the mom wanted to match me up with her 46 yo son.

Or when I played spikeball with Olivier, Marcus, etc, Marcus has potential (and a boner)…but they none of them helped undo my net, so they all failed.

Kent is coming next week. But I’m not interested in him.

Brian invited me to a biz event, and he almost seemed flirty leading up to it. But, the next day he told me about having just split up with his gf. It was the first time I heard about his love life. That tells me that he has no romantic interest in me. I don’t want him, but I was still a bit shook that he absolutely gave up on me.

And John too….having started looking/dating, and telling me about that great first date he had. Sigh.

Keilor is not proactively engaged with my posts. He doesn’t post stories anymore. I guess he isn’t that active about posting stories, and the ones he posted before were for me? I still love him and miss him, but, I’m sad that he is not here with me…

I guess overall, my eyes were more open to guys I have encountered, and there were more encounters. But, nothing came out of any of these.

It’s like the Universe is trying, but there’s just not much available haha.

But the universe is abundant. I can’t imagine how on earth I’ll have my next fling…it all seems very improbable….but, so was Keilor.

Also, I found a fanny pack that is just like what I wanted (needs some sewing though). So that’s a sign that I can manifest!

And today I watched an episode of Grey’s Anatomy, and a couple found love at 85, and the woman said she’s had daily orgasms since she was 15 haha. That’s gotta be a sign!

Though, I have 4 bunny vibrators now (binge shopping recently), and I watched some doctor porn today and was able to give myself a pretty good orgasm!

These past few days I’ve just been walking around naked in the house (it’s too hot!) and barely working. I haven’t been very motivated to do much, not even Spikeball. I’ve been slowly cleaning up the house, and walking 10,000 steps (1.5hours of walking) daily, and pilates.

It’s as though I’m still on vacation!

I’ve been back from Costa Rica for 2 months now lol

Did I catch an illness? Did I catch the “vacation bug”?

It’s hard to “reel the heart back” once you let it roam free.

I’m grateful that some things have been delegated. Email campaigns, CRO (Branding). If shit hit the fan, I would be forced to bring myself back into work mode. Thankfully, things have been smooth for the most part. (Knock on wood!!) which allowed my mind to relax. Now I think about it, during my vacation in Costa Rica, my mind was actually somewhat stressed. Surfing, socializing, travelling, moving. Lots to worry about. Maybe my brain needed to recover.

Oh and missing Keilor. I think that is a bit draining too.

And my new found goal of working less hard while scaling to 8 figures, and travelling during the cold 6 months every year.

Oh and maybe the fact that I no longer have.a weekly Commit Action call, I got lazy. I don’t miss the stress though!

I think i need to pick myself up from the floor and set some goals again.

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July 22, 2024 Update:

I finished 9 days of saying to myself, “I attract sexy, playful, sincere flings” a little while ago.

Nothing happened. Sigh.

Just sadness.

John has been going on dates with someone.

Brian had a gf.

Kent visited but he was boring and annoying by day 3.

The mom, Suzy, from the passport office wanted to hook me up with her 46yo son. Nothing came out of that.