Memories of Keilor is subsiding.
John is dating and is super happy with the girl.
Brian has been dating and had “flawless dates” with the girl.
Alex Pinto never followed up with me after seeing me.
No one at spikeball is interested in me. Probably no one is worth my interest either. Spikeball friends are boring/unfunny people for the most part.
Spent time hosting Kent but he turned out to be boring and even annoying.
Stopped talking to Cyndi because she’s been an absent friend. It’s been like this a while, but the fact that she took over a week to reply to me was the last straw. I didn’t have to spell it out to her, but I did. Now we’re just not friends anymore.
ECF girls suck. Uninspiring most of them. Busy, non-responsive.
Hamptonites – nothing stemming from that so far.
Volleyball friends – ok as a larger group, but no one is worth spending all day with.
I feel undesired by guys and by my friends. I feel that I don’t have kindred spirits. People that I wanted to get to know better don’t want to hang out with me, and the few people who made an effort are the people I don’t like or don’t care to like (not funny, not smart, fake, cliche, etc) Summer for example. Kent too. Fake and cliche.
Nicole was dreadful to hang out with. I don’t know how she became so dreadful. She overthinks, is negative, and her bad energy is contagious.
I’m looking into healing my mind (I can manifest, I can forgive) and body (adrenals, EBV). I hope to get my happiness and motivation back!