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The bow tie portion is making $100K per year.
1. Get in line for Pinterest Ads (1h)
2. Contact Youtubers (2h)
3. Start invest all profits into ads (google, facebook) (8h)
4. Study facebook advertising (16h)
5. Some SEO (5h)
I friended the Swedish boys yesterday. I was most interested in Jarl, but I don’t see how we’d stay in touch. I didn’t even expect him to friend me back.
But he did! And he messaged me today! They are on Phi Phi Island now, and he asked me what they should do there.
He also told me that they saw 7 oceanic manta rays in Koh Ban! The biggest one is 6m wide! OMG!!
We actually had a good chat..better than any conversation we had while in person haha. His English was just so good, using words like “entourage of fish”. I’m really impressed.
He was funny too. I asked, I guess you can’t ride the manta rays? They might not like that. He said, They are spaceships. Obviously that’s what they are for.
Haha! I like that! I didn’t realize he was that funny. I quite like him. I think he must like me a little bit too, otherwise he wouldn’t message me and all that.
The Swedish girls we’ve met are so outgoing, yet these guys are so shy. I think they are so young and texting so much that maybe they are effected by what our older generation worry about: a lesser ability to communicate in person.
I recommended diving and some clubs on Phi Phi, as well some people he can connect with (surprisingly, most are Swedes!) He was more about diving.
I have not seen any pictures of him with girls on Facebook. Either he is slightly gay, has a girlfriend, or just isn’t a player. I choose to believe in the last one.
Of all the Swedes, he was the most keen about diving. I like that.
He is too young. Sigh. I wish age is not a thing. I wish none of us ages.
Imagine all the discrepancies disappearing, if we are independent of aging and appearance. Then all we are will be our personalities and intelligence. Wait, isn’t that what we are before we come to Earth? It always gives me a mind fuck when I think about it. Why do we give up on the best scenario and come here to get all messed up by things that don’t matter, such as appearance, age, fame, money, technology, etc etc? Unless, maybe it’s a full circle…we need to go through this so we can evolve into that energy being? Or that, something has to matter in order for us to evolve, so we must take on a physical form? (matter, haha) Or maybe it’s just a game…something to do when bored with not having a physical form.
If Jarl doesn’t think the age gap is an issue, then it’s not an issue for me. I think young. But imagine a few years from now….I’ll be 40, and he’ll be 26….that might be an issue. When he is 34, I’ll be 48! Crazy.
Right now I still look young, about 27, 28. So I have 3, 4 years before I look like I’m in my 30s. Midori is 39 and she still looks young like she is 27. I wish I looked like her.
Anyway. I think too much. Jarl is far away. Probably not interested, or at least not that interested. I’m not that interested either…I just like how he looks and that he loves diving. I still think Josh is the hottest. And that really shy German guy we never talked to. And that guy next to me at the massage.
It’s just something I think about – age gaps and growing older. There’s a trend to becoming less agist. The old people are active on social media now too, and will be more so later on. There are more old people than ever before, online and offline, because of the boomers.
Older women dating younger men has become more and more accepted now too. After all, older men have been dating younger women.
I hope that by the time I’m old, it’s cool to be old.
I want to help people. I want to make this world a better place. But, I don’t feel that I can do it yet. I don’t have the time and financial luxury.
Yes I’m slightly selfish. I want to be wealthy first. At least making $10K per month before I start distracting myself with alopecia videos.
Update: I’m at that point! In fact, just 4 months after this post, I reached over $10K per month! But now, May 2016, it’s about making $100K per month. I’m also optimizing my life….so hopefully I’ll have more spare time to do helpful things.
I’m finally at that age, where I find MacGuyver really cute. As a kid I can never be attracted to him. He was too old. 30 years older. I just admired his intelligence. But now, watching him in season 3 when he was around 37, 38 (he aged really well), he looked good and acted so cute.
He had such a unique look. And he has a very different demeanor than most people. He is a great actor. The show’s script quality vary. Sometimes it can be so crappy. But the acting was really quite good, considering.
The orthodontist recently put a rubber band in my mouth. I joked about how I didn’t expect them to MacGuyver it. Time is a funny thing. MacGuyver was filed in Vancouver. Norm lives in the Phoenix tower! MacGuyver could’ve easily roamed about where my teeth are done (downtown Vancouver). If time wasn’t linear, we can see all these MacGuyvering acivities occupying the same space. If time wasn’t linear, if we can travel forward and backward through time, we can make love to people have existed before us, and who have existed after us. How wonderful that could be.
Goal status updat
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By June 15, 2015, I’ll have achieved these goals: (Originally written in Jan, 2015)
I love life. I love my friends, family, and fans, and they love me.
I’m sad. I don’t know why.
I felt so lonely tonight. I have so few friends. So few people want to hang out with me, and vice versa.
I remembered that I can call Mom, so I did. I don’t particularly love talking to Mom. It’s more of a habit. She seems to just want to make sure that I’m ok. She always ask if I have anything that I need to report, if any “situation” has come up. Sometimes I appreciate her being there for me and letting me vent, but sometimes it just seems like it’s more about her worrying and almost expecting something to happen. Then she’ll encourage me to go eat or go work…like she doesn’t really want to talk to me anymore. And really, most of the stuff that she talks about I have no interest in, or, if she is recalling a memory from the past, I had already heard it.
I’m crying now. Uncontrollably. I don’t know why I feel so sad. Like I have felt that way for a long time. I haven’t been really happy in….forever…
I feel like I’ve never been happy my entire life. Never. There’s always a shadow over me. Why? I guess no one is worry free.
How can one feel so lonely when the world is so big?
Why am I crying so much? I’m crying my guts out. Is it because something bad has happened to someone I care about? Is it because something bad is happening right now in the world? Or is it just hormonal?
I remember Victoria saying that she felt awful suddenly one day, and she was sure it was when the guy she loved got married. Well, did Patrick get married? Ha.
I don’t think I’m like her. Patrick and I may not be meant for each other this life time, and that’s ok. He can be married and all that. I don’t think my soul would ache over something like this. My soul is much broader-minded than that. Maybe if he is suffering then my soul would ache, because I want him to be happy.
I just got my period today….2 days early.
Today, I’m grateful of:
Being able to wake up naturally without an alarm on most days
Being able to pay for ASM course and go to the event!
Being able to go to Thailand with Cyndi!
Having friends like Cyndi, Amerson, Carly. And just laughing lots watching TV.
Having friends who appreciate my jokes
Can help my friends – Cyndi with her coverletter, Deeann by promoting her in alopecia group.
Becoming smarter – from drinking 7 glasses of water!
Becoming small-waisted again – from working out everyday the past 6 days!
Developing some great habits – planning out the day, drinking water, exercising, hanging with friends, helping friends, motivating myself with gratitude and good books! I think self knowledge helps! Knowing what I need in order to function well.
I don’t know what is wrong with me. I have no drive today.
2 days ago I went to see The Hobbit with Norm. Found out that Norm had cheated on his ex-girlfriend for no good reason. On the way home some guy asked to borrow $15 for gas. I didn’t want to because I didn’t really trust him, but in the case that he might be honest, I didn’t want him to be stranded. So I lent it to him. It’s money that I can spare, but I was really hoping that he’d be honest. Yesterday, I texted him twice and I didn’t hear back from him. I guess he was lying. I’m so sick of these ugly people of the world.
I dunno if it’s these disappointments in humanity that killed my drive, or the fact that I’m not making money and it makes each day so unfulfilling. I know for sure that if I make thousands of dollars a day, like Matt Clark, plus that everything I touch turns to gold, plus so many people are grateful of my work and me being who I am – I’d wake up to each day with joy and enthusiasm.
I guess I’m working towards that. I wish that day comes soon. It seems to happen so fast for Matt. I really wish I were him.
He had a job for 7 months. Quit. He then started on Amazon, and that started doing well in less than a year I believe. So basically anything he does happens in less than a year or two. Knot Theory has been dragging along for almost 5 years now. I’m so old and so tired. I don’t know how to go on. I wish there’s something or someone to pull me out of this slump – both in how I feel and my financial state.
This year I make myself rich and location independent. Next year I travel!
Next year, here is my travel plan:
1. China with Dad for 1 month
2. Australia and New Zealand for 3 months
3. Peru with Nick for 2, 3 weeks
4. Turkey for 2, 3 weeks