Just gonna type freely to straighten my thoughts.
Jeff has been on my mind a lot, obviously. He is so great in so many ways. Almost too good to be true. I feel like there might be a catch! We haven’t met yet, which makes all this seems even less tangible.
It’s been unreal though. We had phone sex 5 or 6 times already. The chemistry is off the chart. I feel like we are dating already.
The only thing is, he sent me an elevator selfie one day, and he looked kinda old and not my type in the photo. I surprised myself by how turned off I was. He was hurt too, that I thought his profile photos were from very long ago and were misleading. Then he sent me another real time photo, and he was hot. Then he sent me another hot pic. Then he sent me another not so hot pic, where he looked short and stout. His face looked fat and his neck looked thick. And his head looked disproportionally large. But I didn’t say anything this time.
I want to say that I’m so into him that how he looks really won’t matter a whole lot. But, I don’t think that’s true. I think I am, and we all are, somewhat superficial. But I think I’d give him a bigger leeway in appearance because we connect at a deeper level.
He doesn’t seem to care as much about my appearance. He’s just been a gentleman about it. Asking a bit about my hair but not too much. He seems to care more about that we find the same things funny. We laugh a lot together, and that’s ultra important. I’m glad he thinks of it as the most important thing.
I like him so much. I think I love him already.
Business. Goal is $3MM. But I haven’t written down a lot.