Still cried 2 or 3 times today.
I think about how I hate chatting with these new people. They are all unattractive and boring. So boring.
I knelt down in front of GuanYin, begging that I have Jeff back. I wish I could help fix him. Whatever is wrong with him. If he will just come back to me. If he’ll just call me. Gosh, is it so hard?
Strangely, yesterday when I reinstalled Tinder, Bumble, and Coffee Meets Bagel, I came across at least a dozen Jeffs. I had no idea there are so many! Today, not as many. It really was mostly from yesterday….when I had him more on my mind.
I had this feeling that I’d go on a date with Jeff on Valentine’s Day. Last week I couldn’t figure out just why we’d have to delay it until then. laster on I couldn’t figure out just how we can still have a date after what happened. Today, I chatted with a guy named Jeffrey. Him and I are going on a date on V Day. That’s how.
That’s not how I wanted. But, oh well.
I thought about so many scenarios where we could’ve met. I desperately wish that we could. I want to turn back time so we could, in any of these scenarios, meet.
But then I thought about how he has a strange temper. We would’ve met up, dated a couple times, and something will sure erupt. That would’ve hurt even more!
So, maybe this is better.
Sigh.
I checked out Aries 2017 horoscope. Last year’s was pretty accurate. Lots of travels. Good luck on hiring. Not much on love. It was what I wanted.
This year, it’s as what I hoped for too. Supposedly lots of love opportunities, especially in January (sigh) and April and August. I’m hopeful once again 🙂
It also says that I’ll be able to find good helpers / partners. Even marriage partners. I’ll be looking forward to that too!
http://meow4134.pixnet.net/blog/post/338634779
It says this year paves way for an amazing financial year next year. I can’t wait for what’s to come this year and next year!!