Letters to past lovers

Dear Norm,

I’m glad we are still friends. Though we can never be lovers again. I like that you are smart, always wanting to help, patient with me, and were kind to me. I like how blue your eyes are too. I love that you never judged my baldness.

It seems that you prefer hair, but I bet I can still attract you if I put effort into it. But I wouldn’t want to do it. I need my love to love how I look without hair. I need my love to be ok with “different”, “standing out”. You prefer fitting in and being “normal”.

You also like routine, and status quo. Working 9 to 5, buying a condo like everyone else. Thinking so much about what other ppl think. I didn’t like how mundane life was with you, and self conscious.

And of course there’s the depression, and low self esteem. It’s hard to make you see the bright side of things. Except, when you are comforting me. You seem more capable of it then.

And there’s the boringness. I enjoy talking to you because you are smart, and creative in your own way. I think you are not funny only because you are too afraid of what other people think.

Tanya

Dear Tanya,

I wish you all the best in your dating life. You know I’ll be happy for you when you’ve found the one.

I think you are a sincere, adventurous, and ambitious person, but maybe you are too short tempered and too wild.

Sometimes I admire that you do the crazy things you do. It’s not for me, but someone out there will think it’s cool.

Norm

Dear Nicolas,

Well, I don’t think about you at all, but I’ll write this as a pure exercise.

I don’t like that you say mean words when you are angry. Or that you cry more than I do when you upset me. You get way too emotional. I don’t like that you are very old fashioned in your thinking. e.g. You think all Asians have the bad reputation of being poor. It’s because you are from France.

I think you had issues with my hair. Then again, so did I back then. But you weren’t able to inspire me by embracing my alopecia. Truth is, I didn’t like how you looked either. I think I was brought into your life to help you, because of a previous life’s debt. You were not that attractive by any means.

I didn’t like that I had to help you with everything. Every email, every idea, even financially. I can’t believe that you weren’t grateful of my mom giving you $1K to go to France. That was unthinkable. I’d never want someone who can even think those thoughts.

I like that you were romantic and sweet in the beginning though. You were the only person to try to date me, aside from Idriss.

Tanya

Dear Tanya,

I think you were amazing, and I looked up to you in many ways.

Thank your for all you and your mom’s help in my life. I was too hurt to see it.

I was a bit shocked to see your alopecia back then, but now I see photos of you I think you are hot. I think you’ve turned it into something sexy.

I’ve learned some things from you, and my biz is still using the names you came up with. I’m grateful. I know I’m selfish sometimes, but I also really loved you back then. Remember when I played that love song to you. You were really cold and didn’t love me back. The day you broke up with me, you dropped me like I was nothing to you.

I know that you’ll do well in this life. You deserve a much more capable person than me. I’m more like the type that just wants a housewife and a family who can give me lots of warmth that I need. You are smart and capable, but a bit too cold.

Nicolas

Dear Jeff,

We never met, but I felt like we’ve dated.

It’s strange writing this now, because I’ve been trying to not think about you at all, nor what we could’ve been, nor what really happened. I’m just writing because the soul mate finding book wants me to write this letter to you.

Well, I think your passion, candidness, and so many other amazing traits, made me fall in love with you.

I have to try really really hard to remind myself that, you did some things that proved you will never be the one for me, that we will never be a couple.

I need someone who has the patience to guide me when I’m blunt and say the wrong things. Who is logical and calm enough to read what I write, and understand what I mean, or at least try to understand and try to get clarification.

I need someone who wants to grow together, whose passion and love is consistent, who is a good listener and supporter, who is positive, who is not so extreme.

Tanya

Dear Tanya,

I have mental illness. I get really happy and passionate, but I also get really depressed and lack all desires.

I’m sensitive. And my self esteem is wobbly. You hurt me a couple times. You are too blunt, and you have a tendency to blame and to guilt. I eventually lost all desire to meet. I just didn’t think it’s going to work.

I think you are amazing too. So smart, so sexy, so beautiful you are. I really wanted to marry you. You are so cool in so many ways.

I wish I had more calm and patience in me. I wish my mood was more stable. Maybe in the future there will be drugs or implants that can help.

I don’t dare to think about how we could be. I need to save myself first.

You deserve an amazing guy who treats you well. I hope you find your soul mate!

xoxo

Jeff Bunny