It’s been 20 days since our virtual relationship ended. So much has happened since. Unpleasant mostly.
I usually get over someone after 2 weeks, especially since him and I never met…I thought I should be over him by now.
But, today, I still remembered our first phone call, and I cried. I cry in such an ugly way haha. It’s a deep pain I guess. I never cry in such a way. This hurt me bad.
How I wish we could still be together. How I wish there’s an explanation that makes it still possible for us to date.
But, I know it’s not.
I saw photos of him on my phone by accident today. I deleted most memories of him, such as our chats, but I kept his photos in one folder. I forgot that I hadn’t deleted photos of him off my phone. I drew a heart of “Jeff + Tanya” back then too.
Maybe it is especially tough to let go because I was manifesting us being together. I was manifesting hard.
And yet, it didn’t work.
Dear Universe, Please help me find my true soulmate!