I wish I had a hot “love” buddy to keep me motivated.
There’s something lacking in my life. I want someone I can make out with, make love to, and laugh with. We like each other a lot, almost love each other. We are not together in the sense that we don’t burden each other, but we also don’t date other people. Maybe in time we’ll date each other, if our attraction and passion for each other stay strong. That’s what I want.
Right now there’s no one in my life. It’s been that way for months now. I feel that I need a little something.
Thailand trip was fruitless. I didn’t get to make out with anyone, let alone having sex.
I think about Jarl. But he doesn’t turn me on that much. He isn’t my type entirely. He looks good but kind of has a standard H&M model type of look. And most of all, he’s showed very little interest. Some, but not enough.
Someone that looks like Josh is my favourite. Crazy sexy eyebrows, sexy lip-biting, sexy tan, sexy body.
God, may I have someone like that in my life? I’ll still work hard to make this world a better place! 🙂
Matthew started talking to me again. I did chat with him for the first time, but at the same time, I thought, what’s the point? I get tiny bit excited when talking to him, because he was really hot to me back then. I haven’t seen him in 5 or 6 years; now he is not as cute anymore because my taste has changed and so has his appearance. He has a girlfriend too. He is a vain princess. Not my type at all. We can never date. He was the best I had in bed at one point, but since then I’ve had Patrick and Josh. He wasn’t as good as them. Sex with him was fun but not amazing. He had perfectly symmetric balls, which was memorable. But his face is not symmetric.
We have a lot in common – software background, entrepreneur spirit, no interest in kids, love for anything that Elon Musk does, and we’re both “Asian”. If he had learned Chinese instead of Mandarin, and if he wasn’t a vain princess, we’d have the world. He is funny, ambitious, smart, charming.
For a relationship he is plenty good looking, but for pure hookup, I actually don’t like how he looks anymore.
Anyway. I hope I can become famous and rich so I get more hotties to choose from.