I didn’t feel hung over but felt meh today.
Woke up to myself in the bedroom. Pia was in Brian’s room and Brittany was with her Brit. I masterbated 4 times thinking about Alex and Sam.
Had breakfast at Nu with everyone. Sat beside Sam. But I didn’t feel as intimate with him for some reason. I think it’s the alcohol from last night. I’m learning about my body…I laugh a lot and am much more horny when slightly drunk. And I feelt tired and meh the next day.
We went back to co-cave to listen to Maria talk about PR. She did a decent job. But people didn’t like it too much. I was the most positive. Sam even talked about a way to present that is more concise (PechaKucha). Oh man.
At the end of the presentation, Julia wanted to talk about the weekend. Sam suddenly asked me if I ever fake my identity by putting on different wigs. Like, escaping a bad date etc. I kinda like that that was the question on his mind. I took the opportunity to show him my 6-shades of Tanya photo. He liked me in brown hair. Weird.
Ashley and I went grocery shopping for our big CNY dinner tomorrow. 12 ppl have signed up. I didn’t know how to cook for 12 people. Thankfully she knew better.
On the way back, a woman said I look stunning. Like an Olympic athlete. I like that hahah.
Went to Ashley’s to drop off groceries. Fell asleep in their gorgeous apartment on their comfortable couch.
But I know that Sam was at the main house, so I made myself come back to the main house.
I found him and Robert in the cave. He was on the phone with maybe a friend, being silly as ever. Robert was learning Croasian.
When Robert is around, I’m in platonic mode with Sam.
Robert went to get changed. Sam and I chatted for a bit. At the *exact* same time we said, “I fell asleep…”. It was so surreal like lip-syncing. “Where did you fall asleep?” he asked. On Ashley’s couch. Where did you fall asleep? On your couch. Haha.
He wanted me to tell him a story again. I said, “Again? Are you a story-holic?” He started acting like he had withdrawl symptoms, until I finally said, “Once upon the time…” He relaxed a bit…I paused….he started acting up again….”In a galaxy very close by….” he relaxed again. Then having symptoms again. Then I said, “The end!” He let out a sigh of relief like he just got his fix, and said it was the best story ever.
He is just so funny. I adore him.
I realize now that he is so funny because he is quick witted, and great at acting.
We ate at the Chicken Shop. We were all gonna go to the gym, but we took too long. We were gossiping about others. Apparently Andrew didn’t like anyone. Sam acted out Andrew. Then he acted out Lauren who just loves to Instagram. It was hilarious.
He said he wants to interview them for his EQ app. I asked who he had interviewed. He said just me and Robert. I’m surprised. No Michelle?
Sam asked if we are going to more chapters. I said I’ll probably have a very different life when I’m back. I’ll be building a home. Nesting.
I talked about Alex. How I think I’m supposed to learn patience with him. I mentioned that he has all five languages of love. I don’t know why I mentioned him like that. It’s as though I wanted to shut Sam off. But I don’t. I want to spend more time with him.
I did mention that if it didn’t work out I’ll keep his apartment. I mentioned the 31st floor, downtown, right by the beach. He said he’d like that. I thought for a moment about me and him living there.
It was already 4:30 and Robert can’t go to the gym anymore. Sam was still gonna go. I didn’t want to go with him. I just didn’t feel it. I wanted to take a nap.
Sam and some people are going to the networking event tonight. Sam called it speed networking. I hope he doesn’t meet anyone cute. I know he is on Tinder, and one profile said, “Average personality, great tits” AHHAHAA
I want him to myself. I want to be with him one day. For the rest of my life.