I’ve been so busy and stressed, it’s hard to feel excited yet.
When biz is not doing well, I feel like shit. I need to:
- Plan out how I would address it – execute my plan, make progress, and feel great
- Have a hobby that I can excel at
- Exercise
- Meditate
- Hang out with great people who are ambitious and motivated
Part of me just wants to stay at Ying’s and work hard together. But, part of me felt that fate chose to have me go to China then Bali.
I mean, I can’t connect the dots ’till it’s all over. All I can say is that, everything that happened had led me to this point of being this person and doing these things.
I posted a white giraffes video on Facebook and tagged Sam. He messaged me to say that he’s met a lot of interesting people on the cruise and that I should go on it next time. He called me Space bunny again. I guess that means he is still fond of me.
I do still like him a lot. Sometimes I find myself fantasizing about us.
But I will try to not have expectations. I’ll go with the flow. Maybe we’ll fall in love with each other. Maybe with other people. Maybe not at all. Maybe duplicates. Maybe only one of us. Who knows.
I’ll do my best to enjoy China and Bali though! Be playful, sexy, interesting, intelligent, nurturing, and fun. Laugh lots. Joke lots. Be the life of the party. It’s a matter of what I set out to do really!
I’m excited about the dino taco holder. I feel that it’ll make me rich. Fingers crossed!