Wow this chapter went by so quickly!
I hardly got to know these people, but many of them are boring so I’m glad Cyn and Ty were here and that the chapter is almost over!
There are a few people who are interesting and I wish I could get to know better though! Maggie, Heather. Maybe I will have time to get to know them.
Then there’s Mike.
Mike is one of the most interesting people I’ve ever met. I love the topics he likes to talk about. I love his sense of humour. I’m amazed at how quick and witty he is. He makes me laugh so much.
He is charming. Inquisitive. Always laughing. Very smart.
Plus he is cute. It’s hard not to like him.
But he has his weirdness. He needs a lot of alone time. He can be a complainer. He doesn’t get too excited. Doesn’t travel well. Not very considerate or thoughtful. A bit selfish. And he smells like mould sometimes still.
Other incompatibilities include him being too tall and too young. 11 years younger than me. Also, he is not as adventurous as me. He is more prone to being closed off to new ventures.
Johnny bunny has been really good about calling these days. And he is sometimes funny. The other day we joked about him wearing a lama outfit, which means he is naked and wearing a saddle. Haha.
No one is as funny as Mike though.
I wish we can tell each other that we are mutually attracted to each other. I wish we could make out.
I wish in the future we can be more compatible, and make each other laugh.
But I don’t think either will happen.
I’ll just enjoy the remaining time here in Peru. If we progress in our friendship, great. If not, that’s fine too.
Some moments:
- On day 1, he came over, and I answered the door. I thought he looked alright, but too much beard.
- We talked a little bit as a group. I remember thinking he was a little bit annoying when answering the question “Where are you from”.
- For dinner, he shaved. I re-introduced myself because I wasn’t sure if he was the bearded guy from before. We walked to dinner together and laughed. I liked his company already.
- At Alfresco, he sat across from me and asked what was the thing I’m most excited about doing. I said, MP! Then he asked what was the second thing I’m most excited about. I said, riding an alpaca!
- At some point I told him my Tim Ferris story and he loved the story. After dinner at the bar, he said I should tell AnnaMarie the story.
- I remember we walked back together as he wanted to go home at 11pm.
- Hannah, Mike, and I went to dinner together on second night. We laughed so much! He told my Tim Ferris story to Hannah. It was so cute that he already knew it by heart.
- I think it was the third day, he wanted to grab lunch together. I told him my age and that I’m seeing John. I didn’t look him in the eye when I said that.
- We hardly interacted for a while. He said no to all my invitations for walks. The only time he invited me to something was to get water. We had so much fun even in those 10 minutes.
- One day he sat down beside me on the sofa to show me Vemo. I didn’t really ask him about Vemo. I think he just wanted to sit beside me.
- Another day (or same day) he talked about how tribers can be creepy. He acted out different ways of saying “You’re hot”. In hindsight, I wonder if he was trying to say something.
- On my birthday, he didn’t remember but Hannah did. Hannah posted a bunch of unicorn lama photos, which were hilarious. Mike posted a sexy lama photo that said, One year olde, still as sexy as ever. Aww.
- He took out his sheet and said to me, You’re a fashion designer, what do you think of this? He was apparently very unapproved of the sequence on his sheet. I said, “I thought you were gonna ask me if that would look good on you.” He said, “Oh I’m gonna wear it!” Hahahaha
- Cyn, Ty, Mike, and Hanna celebrated my bday with me at Alfresco! To hear him laughing with Cyn and Ty while I was getting ready, I felt like he was the husband I want to have, someone who can entertain the guests.
- I sat on the bus together with Mike, when we went to Huacachina. He made me laugh so hard.
- I said he has the negative space of Ryan Reynolds. He laughed. I remember him and Ty talking later on, and perhaps Ty mentioned something about him looking like Ryan Reynolds; Mike suddenly looked at me and told Ty what I said.
- He was super loner and tired in Huacachina. He didn’t seem to care to be close to me, aside from some sandboarding moments. I didn’t get to sit with him on all other rides, and it broke my heart to hear him laughing with Emilie on the last ride back. I was miserable. But eventually I got over it. He is charming and he has made many people laugh, including guys. As the 3 of us got off the bus to take the small van home, he was in so much pain. I lightly touched him on the shoulder.
- We booked the flight to Cusco. We chatted a bit about Lokai bracelets, IG illusion etc. He was quite a pessimist.
- He doesn’t have wifi in his room and asked to take a meeting in our rooms. I was surprised that he chose my room over Hannah’s. Later on we joked that he was trying on my outfits in my room, and stretching out my mermaid pants.
- Him and Hannah went to cafes to work. Pervy guy showed up at window naked. We joked about this in our chat group.
- I came home one day after the man in a fedora and a cape walked me home. He stuck his head out of the bathroom while I was in the kitchen, and said hi. That was adorable. I think he was naked.
- We hopped into Uber for flight to Cusco. We joked about how I’m gonna seduce an alpaca/lama to let me ride it. I touched his shoulder and said something about letting me ride him (pretending that would be the conversation I’d have with the lama). He quickly spun that into a joke about how this is how I seduce men in general.
- At the airport, he was busy working on this work. I felt very neglected and alone. He is not too thoughtful.
- First night’s dinner, Joe and Emilie were a bit left out, while Mike and I have some serious discussions. Especially Emilie, because she is not into that type of convo. I liked that we can have these deep conversations and I love these conversations.
- Day 2 morning started out well. Mike noticed the beautiful snowy mountain outside the window, but the window is too high for me to see anything. He held his hands out and said something like, “Ready babe?” and lifted me by my armpits to see the view. That was so adorable. Turned me on a little. The fact that he called me babe…haha…that’s our inside joke that I call all my girl friend babe, and Tom Brady calls everyone babe.
- At breakfast, we talked about how we are the average of the 5 people we hang out with the most. I told him that ever since we met, he’s been so witty that I feel like I need to think faster to keep up. (Joe also said he felt like he was so boring when Mike just kept firing jokes.) Mike was obviously flattered.
- That night though, not too fun. Emilie flirted with him, and he kept giving her attention by asking her questions, and sometimes ignoring me, almost as though on purpose. Emilie is the type to cut people off too. I was hurt.
- On the other hand, he sometimes looked only at me when he talked, and he fondly talked about our jokes about him taking a call in my room and trying on my clothes.
- He also remembers a lot of what I said. Like, when I mentioned the weirdest gift I’ve gotten is a C++ book printed out. He said, Is that the guy you went to UVic for?
- On the way home, I let them have their moment. I talked to Joe instead. He was kind and sweet. Mike, despite talking to Emilie, started listening in on my conversation with Joe.
- He asked Emelie what her Chinese name was. She tried to play games and said, “I’m not gonna tell you!” He ignored her and asked me. I had just asked Joe what his relationship situation was, when Mike rudely interrupted. It could be just the timing, or he was starting to get jealous.
- It took me a lot of courage to gather myself together, let go of my ego, and face everyone the next dat as my cheery self. If Mike and Emelie are into each other, there’s not much I can do. They are both single, and they are more similar in age. She actually looks kinda like me. So am I the uglier version of two similar people? I hope not.
- I came down for breakfast about half hour late. They had been laughing so much. I came down and the laughter kinda stopped. Mike tried to be kind though. The breakfast continued and ended with Mike and I in a deep conversation again. I can talk to him for a long time.
- He wanted to go explore. I wanted to tag along. He didn’t want me to. Sad again.
- He went ATV’ing in Sacred Valley and was gone all day. I hung out with the rest of the tribe and they were so boring.
- Emilie showed even more interest in Mike. Mike ignored her. Seemed to be more into me again as he showed me the photos from Sacred Valley, and lied down on the floor beside me. With a virgo though, ignoring doesn’t necessarily mean not interested!
- He awkwardly referred to our MP trip as “riding me” and couldn’t even look at me when he said that. He asked Joe and Emilie and pretend to have forgotten that I would be on the guided tour with him. I know what he was trying to do. I know he wants me to ride him, or to joke about it. Honestly, it’s as though we had brain to brain communication as I was hoping to joke about getting a piggy back ride from him on MP. I imagined that moment for several days! But the mood wasn’t right on MP…we didn’t have any alone time and he was super sleep deprived.
- Day 3, Mike woke me up for MP trip at 3:10am. He opened my door and called my name, and I softly said Yes? I was naked. I had to get dressed in 5 minutes. I went down, no makeup. He kept looking at me, smiling a bit. He quickly touched me and said, You made it! It was a bit cute. I put my legs across the isle and onto the seat beside him. He laughed and said, Get your own row!
- We sat together for 2 hours on the bus for one leg of trip. We were touching as the space was cramped. I asked him what his favourite natural phenomenon was. He said, “My body”. HAHHAA. Then he said, I suppose it’s better if I say ‘Your body’, but that’s a bit creepy.” Then he said, “Your smile. Your laughs.” Whoa. Did he just mega flirt with me? I didn’t know what to say to that. I said nothing.
- He also remembered my Chinese name and said it perfectly after a few tries.
- I told him my bunny drawing first memory. He said I was dressed kind of like a bunny (in my alpaca sweater). He said something about him being fuzzy like a bunny. I gently stroke his fuzzy back-of-the-wrist area, like petting a bunny. That’s probably the most flirty I’ve gotten.
- I can tell he wanted to take a photo together on MP but he couldn’t bring himself to. I had no makeup on so I had no desire to. He took a photo of us while walking in front of me, and gave me almost no notice. My cellphone had slipped down my pants, and I was fishing for it when he took that photo! Hahaha. He said he wished it was a video.
- I tripped over a rock on MP. He was behind me and saw it. He joked, “Did you have a good trip? Where are you planning for the summer?” Hahaha
- He listens in on my conversation about John always. When I was telling Emelie about John, he turned around, walking backwards, and shook his head at me. When I talked to Joe about John, he mentioned again about how I was gonna break up with him months ago.
- Joe helped me get rid of a spider on my bed. When I told that story to other people, I noticed that he rolled his eyes. I think he was jealous.
- On MP, the guide took a photo of the 4 of us. Mike asked me to stand in the middle. I think it was him who joked about being them being the dads, because him and David are both so tall. He said something else to tease me. I squeezed his waist right after the photo was taken…like secretly flirting. He laughed.
- When David asked me if I had fun on MP, I said yes, I just wish I got to ride something big. Mike immediately turned around and said to David, “Time to step up Dave!” I wish I had said, I want something furrier! Haha.
- When we were in the elevator coming back from Cusco, my arm touch the back of his hand. I hope he can appreciate how soft and smooth I am!
- Sometimes I want to hold him so bad. Sometimes I just want to lean against him, and feel protected by him.
- I miss him so much already. He made me laugh so much. He is not the one for me, at least not as the less compassionate and thoughtful person that he is. But he has his incredibly attractive qualities. I have so many great memories with him. I want to say to him, “You are much hotter than Ryan Reynolds. Some people might say you look like Ryan Reynold’s negative space. Don’t listen to those people!” I want to write a letter to him to tell him to keep in touch because I want him in my life. I want to tell him that he is always welcome to visit me. I say this with a bit of fear because whenever I appreciate someone more, they disappoint me. There’s still 10 days. Who knows what could happen. I hope it’s something good. Please let it be something good.
I’m attracted to him, but he is not for me. Yet I want him to keep in touch and be in my life. That’s a paradox, no? What if he brings a gf to see me! Really I just want to keep in touch so that we can hook up one day. That’s probably not the best idea. Unless, maybe he will mature into a more thoughtful and caring person. At this moment, he brings out some bad qualities in me actually. Like, being a loner, being more selfish. I’ll need to keep looking ’til I find that person who makes me a better person!