Mike was gone when I woke up this morning. I talked on the phone with Masha for like two hours. We laughed so much. It’s nice to have someone for company and support, when in a tribe!
Also booked a trip to Cotswolds! Felt very lucky that it was available less than once a week, and one of the days was the only day we can do it!!!
I talked on the phone with Danielle for an hour. She is 39 too! We talked about us being attracted to guys way too young haha. She pretty much stalked a guy who was walking his dog, and found out he just graduated from high school.
Then it was time to go to a persuasive writing skillshare by Audrey.
I thought it was the self defence skillshare, so I started shaving my head and then putting makeup on. As I was getting ready, I talked to Mike.
I guess he’s had almost no human interaction so he wanted to talk too. He is still sick, and the weakness in his voice shows it. He sounded very gentle and kind of cute. Kind of makes you want to protect him.
I told him about Cotswolds, and he brought up some photos of the area he used to live, which was close by. And we looked at some castle photos.
I noticed his body odour. Man. This is the third time that he smelled funny. First was when he smelled like mould. That is continuous. Second was when he was more sick. Now it’s just his body odour which I noticed for the first time. Granted he is still sick, but, how tolerant of me to still find him attractive!
I had told Danielle about my pedophile story, so I decided to tell him too, that one time I thought Steve’s cute nephew was a programmer in his 20s, but turned out he was 14.
Later on, I asked how many people he’s dated. He’s only had 1 girlfriend for 2.5 years. And sort of another gf (which he forgot about until 10 minutes later). He’s dated 4 or 5 people for 2 months or so. It was a bit cute that he was so eager to share all these details, and so honest about it.
I don’t know if it’s weird that he’s had a bunch of really short relationships. I’m just a bit overthinking on penis size and similar issues because of Sam.
Honestly he is such a loner, not very thoughtful, and a bit too cynical; I’m not surprised that these relationships are so short.
I told him about how I’ve only dated 1 person when I was 28. And I’ve dated 4 or 5 people in my life up ’til now. (Not a very stellar crowd either, now I think about it.) He doesn’t ask me about these things, but he does pay attention and remember them. I guess kind of like John.
I told him about Sam. Strange that the way I told the story was about how Sam thinks everyone was in love with us, and that no one wanted us to be together. And that guys would flirt with me when Sam wasn’t around. And that one girl was especially into guys who are taken.
These are all true, but it’s only a facet of the story.
It’ll suffice for now. It’s almost as though I was led to tell the story like this. Not about Sam’s messed up ness, not about his mental ex, not about how he wanted to date others, not about how he felt it too painful to talk to me after he told me about his suicidal thoughts. Not about his tiny penis. I guess these things are too personal for me to tell right now.
Mike gave me a high five when I told him that all the guys hit on me in Bali. Strange. He asked if this tribe is like that. I said I haven’t spent enough time with everyone to know. Fair enough he said.
I asked him if he thinks that funny people are messed up. He said no. That’s good.
I’ve been wondering about his penis size. Because he seems too awkward given that he is tall, handsome, funny, smart. I found a very reliable source: a gay guy who owns a gay spa who answered this question on quora. Haha.
He said that the size of appendages is a predictor, as in, fingers, and femurs.
Turned out that guys I’ve been with all have big hands, except for Sam, who has small, dainty hands! So far quite accurate. Masha said the same too.
Mike has big hands too. Long fingers I think.
So chances are he doesn’t have a dick size issue. So what is it? Why is he such a loner, and why has he been so undatable?
What I really like about Mike is that he is so smart, so funny, so witty, and the topics he thinks about are interesting and deep. I thoroughly enjoy every conversation we’ve had. Some heavy topics, which most people are not interested in, but I can appreciate. I wonder if this is rare to him, or he’s found more people who have the same depth as him, having been to an Ivy League school. I also like that (when he is healthy) he is usually happy and laughing a lot. He gets along with his family, which seems healthy. He isn’t a player. He has such a nice voice.
What I don’t like about him is that he doesn’t travel well, he doesn’t get too enthusiastic nor adventurous, isn’t too curious about new experiences, not very thoughtful, a bit selfish, and is a bit too negative and cynical. He works too much and is too much of a loner. I’d feel so lonely with all the alone time and work time he needs! Most of all, he doesn’t bring out the best in me. I don’t think he’s going to age all that well. He already looks a bit old. And I can tell by how much he burps and cracks his toes that he is not in his optimal health. And he eats everything. Not very health conscious.
Johnny Bunny has been cute. He sent me a video of a dolphin humping a girl, and said that’s him when I’m back! Haha!
Bunny has been cuter and cuter. Mike less and less cute.
I’m glad that Mike and I shared some more personal stories though!