Went to Anna’s hotpot bday today. It was only ok fun. I got her a cake that was so so (the Korean couple at the cake shop was super nice though!) Hot pot was very yummy, but the soup rarely boiled haha. I think many of us had the runs!
Tomorrow is my day off…maybe I’ll learn some dance moves and cheer up!
Bunny was gonna go see a doctor today, for his knee. He asked me to help drive him there. But today he postponed it to tomorrow. Then later today he postponed it to Monday.
I get it that he doesn’t want to see a doctor, but it hurts that he doesn’t care to see me.
I can’t remember if it was 2 weeks ago that I saw him. I think so.
We are just phone pals now.
I want to sleep with Alex often. Or Matthew.
Now that my 41 years of no-cheating ethics have been broken, I might as well have fun.
I’m crying a little right now, thinking about how our relationship has devolved. Not that we were ever a good pair anyway.
Alex is probably only a 6 or 7 out of 10 kind of fuck buddy.
He is too much of an extrovert and partier. Flakey. And probably other flaws such as being vindictive.
Matthew was a 10 out of 10 fuck buddy. Though I just saw that he unfriended me on Facebook. Maybe because I’ve been vocal about the vaccine mandate. Or maybe cuz I’ve posted about John. Oh well.
Is there such a thing as true love for each other? Will I ever experience it in this life time?
The older I get, the less I expect that.
There was a moment in life that I thought about my soul mate a lot. The world has changed. I have changed.
I still have a lot of fun with Ty. Maybe he is the closest to being my soul mate. Like, an open relationship soul mate. I mean, I feel no physical attraction to him at this moment. I think right now I’m only wanting to bone Alex. Even Bunny, who is the sexiest of them all, has no draw on me right now. Maybe if he starts wanting me all of a sudden…but he doesn’t.
What is the meaning of all of this?
For Anna’s birthday, I was wither her family and that was it. Cytrus did bring her boyfriend, so there were 7 of us.
Someone like Anna, who is such a loyal friend, has only 1 friend showing up on her birthday? Wtf!
And Nicole…she had Jonas, but now she has just me and maybe 3 other friends. 4 friends.
John has 3 or so friends who would call, but no one has wanted to meet up this whole time! Except Ben one time.
Me, I have Anna, Nicole, John who I see more regularly. Cyn and Ty whom I talk to somewhat regularly. Then Elena and Cat whom I talk to from time to time. Jessica is a new friend. Alex is maybe a new friend. Lynsey is an old friend but I don’t really care to keep in touch. Jean and John are sweet but not very close. Also a bunch of acquaintances whom I don’t know if are for or against vax mandates.
Jing’s bday is coming. Do I want to get in touch? Mike Marich maybe?
Erin and Alex? I quite like them.
Krista and her dilf?
Mike Quinn and Lauren?
Ronnie and ECF group?
How did we become like this? So alone.
Don’t particularly want to be friends with anyone I know that’s in Vancouver.
I think, collectively though, some friends could be great as group friends.
I wish to have more group friends.
It would be great to be invited to a group that I love.