So unhappy

Had the Limitless mushroom pill this morning, felt just the bad. A little bit like Moda but without the focus.

At 2:30, went to pick up Bunny to go see physio. He was 10 minutes late, and I was put in a bad mood immediately.

Bought a pizza for $4 at shoppers, got Bunny some melatonin and l-theanine, and some xmas earrings. Felt a bit better.

Physio gave Bunny positive outlook. He felt a bit better.

Went to the beach and sat for a bit cuz Bunny hasn’t been out for so long.

Went to Tim Horton’s and got him lots of coffee for the week, and I got some donuts.

Went back to his place and we both did some exercises.

He wanted to watch stocks and wheel of fortune again but I didn’t. So I worked.

Then we had pizza. Cuddled on the couch a bit while he felt uncomfortable.

Sigh.

That’s the story of our relationship.

I can’t take any more of this.

He can’t take any more of this. His health issues I mean.

I just feel miserable whenever I’m with him.

I felt so happy when I was with Alex.

But, Alex didn’t even reply back to what I wrote.

I now feel sad thinking about Alex too.

I’m miserable this week.

I want to date someone who make me happy, makes me laugh, laughs at my jokes. Someone that I can laugh lots together with. Someone who has the capacity to love me and does. Someone with lots of resilience, resourcefulness, a kind heart, is outgoing, has good friends.

Sigh.

I want that.