Went to see Bunny last night. We had our Xmas dinner. He ordered some Yemenese chicken. It was ok. We watched Jumanji. It was not bad!
Then we cuddled. I took my clothes off and tried to get some nice cuddling time. Still not much from him. I feel that he just touches me out of obligation. He didn’t touch my boobs, didn’t grope my ass. Just rubbed my back and gave me some non-sensual lip and neck kisses.
I brought him celery juice I made, picked up his computer for him, and got him a ton of Costco groceries. I guess it’s in the name of me caring about him and him making a lot of money for me in stocks. But my heart is not in this anymore.
I like Alex. Even though, I don’t think he’s warmed up to me yet. I don’t think he is into me the same way I’m into him.
I was thinking back to our first time meeting. He wasn’t even interested in talking to me!
But now, we have such passionate sex and long conversations. It’s so fun.
He still talks about the kids he is gonna have, almost every time.
If he was a woman one would think this woman’s baby clock is totally ticking!
I hope that when we no longer have passionate sex we can still be good friends. Is that possible?
Or, I hope that we’ll always have passionate sex. But that seems unrealistic.
I was talking to Cyndi. Interestingly, she has a young guy and an older guy (our age) in her life too. Dylan and Nathan. They both love her! Aww..that’s nice. After so many years of neglect from Ty.
I also talked to Ty, about when we get old, if he sees himself as having a partner. He says, not necessarily. I tend to agree.
What’s the benefit of growing old with someone? Not a lot. I think it’s better to have a supportive community who love you and may care for you and will make your life fun, and may share the cost of senior care, and to have the money to pay for care.
After Nicole went home, I went to lie down and dream about Alex. I do that a bit too much. I just love being with him so much.
I love the sex, I love the touch, the passion. I love the laughs, sharing stories, sharing biz tips.
I love every moment with him.