Went to Matt Astifan’s Internet Mastermind meetup the night before. 6 speakers, competing for an award. One good thing happened and one bad. The good was I got asked to judge. The bad was David Child was there too, as one of the judges. Interestingly it was David that suggested to Matt that I helped judge. He said to Matt, “She is very smart. But she hates me.” Lol. I do.
I did alright. I think I could’ve been a bit funnier. But overall I seemed well received. I’m glad I dressed up instead of dressing down.
Panties by Post owner Natalie won the contest, yay, female entrepreneur! Apparently Rob Green helped her with her sales funnel. I didn’t tell her I was going to do panties too….I gotta figure out how to go about this.
Sid had great content and did a great job as a speaker. Matt and I both thought so. But somehow Rob and David gave him really low scores and he didn’t even win top 3.
Matt was slightly nicer to me that night, probably because I helped judged. On the way to our cars, he said something about me and Deon being his friends. I was like, “We are? We never hang out!” That night he msged me to see if I wanted to hang out, haha.
Well, I like that he is very action oriented, like most good entrepreneurs. He invited me to his house for dinner the next day (yesterday). He ran a bit late so I didn’t get there ’til 9, but it was still quite sincere. He said he had ribs in the fridge, I thought he meant leftovers. Turned out he was cooking it while I was there. He had wine too. Already opened but tasted good.
Harvested some kale and lime off his balcony and made a tiny salad. Oh and he sauteed some shrimps.
He turned on the TV and asked what I wanted to watch. Lol. I was like, don’t we talk? So we talked.
Then he wanted to smoke weed. He tried to teach me. I guess I got a hang of it, but I still didn’t get high.
His cats, Miyagi and Miko were really pretty. They climbed around too, which was cute.
I felt him sitting closer and closer to me. I was trying to not have it go down that path. I avoided it until he said, “Do you wanna make out?” I said, “No.” He was just not good looking enough. He is chill and a good guy, but his body is so not hot.
Matthew…so different, so much hotter. But it’s Patrick that I miss. I’ve been missing him all day today.
It’s amusing that Matt was trying to seduce me while wearing batman sweat pants. That’s just….not sure what to think of it.
Oh yeah, he told me that I was the reason why him and his girlfriend broke up a few months ago. Whaaat. Turned out she was super insecure. Well, that’s not the best story. Not like he had a crush on me or anything. But, I had no idea I could break a relationship. This same girl is now pregnant, and Matt is gonna be a dad! Holy shit!
Well, so, it was kind of a fun night. He hit on me, which wasn’t unexpected, but he doesn’t touch me like TJ did, so we can still be friends.
Even though I wasn’t interested in him, I was still turned on. I thought about Patrick a lot.
I briefly thought about Idriss, first time in a long time. Then, when I got up this morning, I saw an email from him, saying,
Tanya,I just wanted to tell you that I have been a dumbshit idiot with no patience, and that stress and jetlag does not excuse everythingI am not asking you to see each other again, I just want to feel at peace and ask you to forgive meIf I can do anything for your business, please tell metake care–Idriss
Well, I expected to see that sooner or later. He is a gemini after all. He’ll always want to reconnect. That’s what I read about gemini anyway. So far, Patrick and Matthew have been like that too.
I’m not replying to Idriss. I’m not gonna engage in this conversation. Yes, I’d like to tell him that he was rude, and that he shouldn’t have invited me if he was going to be stressed and jet-lagged. I’d like to tell him that I had two friends who offered to let me stay with them. But these things aren’t important anymore. They are not worth initiating a conversation for.
The truth is, I don’t care to tell him I forgave him. The truth is, I wonder if there’s an ulterior motive behind this action. He probably wants to show off he is doing well, either in business or in love. In any case, it didn’t matter to me.
Being in his life is not fun. The week we met we had fun. After that, nope. I’d want to roll back to that if I could. I’ve had to made peace with the nasty things he said, and his insincerity. Apologies don’t fix mistakes.