Got my January goals lined up! Excited!
2024 has been a great year in many ways:
- January – Stopped using CommitAction. Hung out with Karly a bit. Met Daniel at Henson Razors.
- February – Started ranking top 3 for about 50 most important keywords. Sales strong in Q1
- March – ECF Live in New Orleans. Met Paul Jackson and laughed so much. He is all rizz!
- April – Meta and Google ads ROAS came down from 3 and 5 to 2 and 3, but, others had it worse
- May – Hampton Surfing trip in Costa Rica! The guys were pretty great (2 surfs a day, yoga, cold plunge, lots of biz talk) but the best part was after. I surfed 2 big waves and met Keilor Molina, my surf instructor. He was 26, alpaca hair, tanned skin, enthusiastic, eager to teach me, entrepreneurial, funny, sincere, interested, good memory, laughed easy. He was so cute. We had such a fun time riding on his motorcycle to the beach to see turtle (eggs), and then having sex at his parents’ house (the attic part). He made me realize that flings are the best, and I don’t want a boyfriend anymore. At 44, guys around my age are old and set in their ways. Met a fun girl from Singapore/NYC (Janelle?)
- June – Played lots of spikeball. Email flow launched, sales up 25%. Sometime around now, went to eComm North event and saw Alex again. Gave him a hug, talked with him for a while. He still made me laugh. He didn’t look too good, but, I didn’t feel bad or nervous seeing him.
- July – Played more spikeball. Met BC Roundnet crew! Elija was so hot. Competed in a tournament and was 2nd last lol. Wore cleats to play spikeball for the first time. Played Spikeball without a wig a couple of times!
- August – Ranking tank due to Project Human. Rough. Sales down 60% by week 4! But I fixed it!
- September – Some more Spikeball. Dad’s dog passed away. Bena bailed. Somewhere around this time I discovered “peri-menopause”. Started walking 10k steps a day. Loved it.
- October – Busy hiring ring engravers and getting ready for Xmas. No Halloween party. Tried ClassPass and FeelGood gym. Tried night club spin class, reformer pilates, and Lagree workouts for the first time!
- November – discovered Methylene Blue through Alyssa! Bought a massage chair. Loved it! Started drinking 2L of electrolyte water daily. Started talking to Brian again. Got to hang out with Tony Vessi more. Had a 3.5hour chat with Austin.
- December – Hampton Xmas party at Tanis Jorge’s house. Spent 2 weeks in Victoria. John was in Thailand for 3+ weeks. My $6M investment grew to $10M. Mom’s $1.5M investment was down by $0.3M. Knot Theory grew from $2M to $2.7M USD. We hired Joanna and Fatemeh. Aref becomes contract.
Overall, laughed so much in 2024! Played lots of Spikeball. Met some new friends. Biz did well. Investment did incredible! Feel very blessed.
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Hair – I have more hair than ever! Today, instead of pushing my hair up into a mohawk, I let it fall forward, and realized I have enough hair to cover the top half of my head lol! I even have bangs! I’m looking at the mirror a lot to try to get used to my new look. The hair I have is shiny and strong and black (I did have 1 long white hair in 2024 though, lol). The nape area has some hair coming in. Sparse though. I hope the stem cell therapy will help my hair grow in full! I only want hair above the nose though hahaha
Health – I think about how I’ve had various (minor) health concerns healed. My nerve pain is better than ever. My right shoulder no longer “clicks”. My neck is less stiff now (probably thanks to the massage chair). Haven’t noticed my chest blackheads in a while…just large pores. My period has improved (less depressed, less heavy). My eye floaters slightly better. My hands are less dry (thanks to water drinking). Walking 10k steps a day has helped me lose belly fat, improved my mood and hormones, lowered my stress. Sometimes I marvel at how good and relaxed I feel! When I was in Costa Rica my skin was plump! And everyone thought I was 31 or so.
Things that got worse: so much easier to gain weight, dry skin is spreading to ass now sometimes (but drinking water helps), inside left of my mouth has a sore a couple times the past year. A patch of itchy skin that won’t heal, above my right boob. Left hip needed to be “rotated back into place” for a while. Right knee a bit off for a while (Probably from walking 10k steps a day…need to find a happy medium). In 2023 I practiced volleyball hard and couldn’t bend for almost 3 months! I look old in photos more often. Eyes smaller. Face probably droopier even though I do facercises and daily skin care routine with vitamin C serum and castor oil. Belly not flat at the moment.
This trip to Victoria, my mood wasn’t great. I was secretly (and a bit outwardly) very annoyed with Mom. She is more ADHD than ever. It pissed me off when she doesn’t respond/listen to what I said because her focus had already shifted elsewhere. It seemed more often now.
I hate that she runs off on a boring topic. Like a really boring topic. (e.g. recounting when she bought each of the portable heater in the house).
I can pretty much predict what she would say. And I often had to wait for her to regroup her attention to finish her sentence. And she forgets words more often now (and she notices that too). She put my car key in the wrong pile and we couldn’t find it. She got caught up in little details. e.g. She wanted to stay home to do the dishes in a certain way, instead of going for a walk with me. She said she’s too tired to walk because she did chores all day.
I’m annoyed. Sad.
I don’t want my parents to age.
I hope the stem cell trip will help her!
Planning to take Dad on a stem cell trip too, if this Cancun trip works well for us. In 2026, I’ll visit Taiwan with Mom, then I’ll visit China with Dad, and maybe a stem cell place in Asia with Dad.
It’s gonna be not very fun for me. Sigh.
I just don’t have the right dynamic with my parents. I think alopecia made me resent Mom still… I’m so serious around her. And Dad’s rudeness makes me resent him often.
And overall I’m just so different from Mom in our thinking, and so different from Dad in our social behaviours.
Let’s talk about Brian and Austin though.
Ever since I mentioned that I was looking for a boyfriend in Hampton, Austin has shown a bit of interest. He’s only 25, and he is a bit weird, but I do think he is smart and we have so much to talk about! AI and biz.
Current plan is to go to Raccoon island together in Miami in May lol!
Brian suddenly started inviting me to things again. First he invited me to the eComm North event where he couldn’t go (but I met Alex Pinto there). Said something about inviting me only because I was special. That was in the summer. Then he also invited me to a tech entrepreneur gathering. I think it was then he told me he felt sad because he had just got dumped after a series of perfect dates with a girl. That was the first time he revealed he had a love life. I realized then that he was no longer trying to hit on me.
Then in November, he wanted to do a one on one dinner for the first time. I had wanted to do one on one with him for two years, and, not sure if it was me or him, it just didn’t happen. We had a fight or two in the 3 years I’ve known him, because he didn’t come to my Noveween party and didn’t say he wasn’t coming, and when I brought it up he got mad. That was when I decided he would never be someone I’d want to date. Among other things. For one, he is not that cute. Second, he always wanted to teach me, which I liked, but he was not very good at making me feel smart or funny. Third, he almost never laughs out loud. He was not a sunny happy type of person. Fourth, he has a temper / is irritable. I remember at ECF Live 2 years ago, he got mad at me for meeting him at the lobby late, even though I waited for him to finish taking a nap.
Despite that, 2 years ago at ECF Live we were kinda close. I even had a slight crush on him. Played on a slide, had some good convos at meal time, he would always come to me to talk. I went to Taiwan shortly after, and we continued to talk. Then, he just stopped, and I was mad. Thinking back, I think he was dating someone.
In the past 2 years, he had dated 2 people. Not sure how long.
Well, I’ve slept with Alex, Brandon, and Keilor the past 2 years. I win lol.
Now he wants to do recurring dinner each month. I feel my crush coming on. I do enjoy talking to him.
But I gotta remember, he didn’t ask me out when he had a chance. That means he is not interested enough. I mean, I also probably subtly rejected him. Either way, I gotta also remember that he makes a bad boyfriend.
I’m grateful that he introduced me to a lot of people in eCommerce. I’m grateful that he is always teaching me stuff. But I won’t touch him.
Austin though. He is an INFJ! If he is cute in person, I’d totally make out with him.
I know he is weird, and not the type I’m looking for. But, we have a lot to talk about, and he IS quite funny. Recently he asked if he can come visit me (he lives in Tampa FL). I was instantly turned on lol.
I actually masturbated 3 times today. I wasn’t fantasizing about him much…I was thinking about some IG models lol. But, I discovered something interesting…my mouth is my new erogenous zone! So much so I put a dildo in my mouth today and my orgasm was even better! No wonder I love kissing!