Missing Matthew so much I can hardly contain myself. I guess I really feel the extra need for intimacy, comfort, laughter right now.
I wonder if he misses me…
He always words it differently. That he is daydreaming about the naughty stuff we did. Never says he misses me, but he is usually the first to message me.
I think about the fact that he has no intention of dating me. Why is that?
There are clues to what he thinks of me. For example he joked about us having babies together and how we have such great DNA. He thinks we are similar. He likes that I was a software engineer. He likes that I’m business’s oriented. He loves my body. Does he like my face? Yeah. He’s said that he used to not be able to tell plain asian from a good looking one. Or the fact the he is such a body person, but never had to go for a less good looking face.
At the same time, he doesn’t want to date. Even when I said a brief dating period such as 4 months, he shortened it to one month. Why is that? He also makes it clear that he can never commit to a monogamous relationship.
I guess there’s no need to over think, because he won’t be a good boyfriend. Can’t keep his dick in his pants, nor constrain his flirting. Just like Patrick.
If he really wants to date, I will have a hard time saying no, because he is such a great match for me in many ways. But it’s a no, no matter what. So, no need to over think. I just miss everything about him…