Sad – no love

So sad lately.

I think it’s because

  • Matthew hasn’t tried to hook up with me
  • Period
  • Ashley is really not that obvious about how he feels towards me
  • Everyone is in love it seems
    • Clement and Evan getting married
    • Everyone in ASM is married or in great relationships (except for Angela…but she is young)
    • Linda got engaged
    • Jackie got pregnant (not that I want to, but feel a bit jealous that she is with someone who she feels happy and secure enough to have a baby with)
    • Norm has a girlfriend and is closer to her than to me. If I tell him anything, most likely it’ll end up reaching her
    • Most people have boyfriend, friends, husbands
    • Or they are young. They can date any time.
  • Even though I have friends who are single, they seem so lame…I just feel that I have been grouped together with the lame kids
    • Nicole, Cat, Tina – the old single ladies
  • Even Cyn has Ty. Plus lots of friends.
  • I don’t have the love of any guy.

I want a boyfriend now, more than ever. How I long for a guy who really loves me, and vice versa.

I’ve been watching Felicity. At first I was all jealous of all the girls, because all the guys on the show are so sweet. But towards the end of season one, it’s just a big mess. These people are nuts, and their relationships are so tough.

Yes, I guess that’s what life is about.

Man, I so want a boyfriend…