Flight booked. Cirque du Soleil O show booked. Going to see Patrick in Las Vegas!
I can’t believe I’m doing this. Haha.
I’m scared and excited. The day I booked it, I was so excited I can’t sleep. I ended up sleeping just a couple hours before TEDxStanleyPark.
Then today, I woke up with a bad dream that Patrick facebook messaged me about some issues about me staying longer. That’s when I realized how scared I am.
I’m staying 4 nights and 5 days. Thursday to Monday morning. Longer than I had planned. But it’s the only way….he wanted me to go on the weekend, and weekend flights are expensive/sold out.
So I’m scared because, it’s fairly long of a stay. I’m scared because, he is not the most reliable person. And, scared because of bad experience visiting Idriss in SF.
But I feel better about this than with Idriss. With Idriss, I had a nightmare too. And I felt weird about it before going.
With this trip visiting Patrick, I’m excited!
Here’s my thinking:
- If I’m fun to be around, me staying longer ain’t a problem. So I gotta remember to be fun, light-hearted, adventurous. A happy state of mind is happiness – says Tony Robins.
- If we give each other some breathing room, that helps too. I’ll work for a few hours each day from a coffee shop.
- Remember what it was like when we first met. I laughed so hard at things he said. I cared about him. I think those are important things.
- Just be good to him and not expect too much. Expectation is the cause of all sadness and fights.
- If he has to be out, has to leave me at home, I am ok with that. I can: get some work done, go to a pub by myself. If it was at night? Men…I should probably hop on Tinder? I hope I don’t have to do that. But it’s important to go out if he is out, and busy. Maybe I can meet people.