On the way to Victoria, after finally sending a ring parcel to Amazon UK.
I feel that I got to play this past two weekends, like a normal person. I went to Masha and Brodie’s birthdays last weekend, met new people, and this weekend I had lunch with Emil and Elena, went to Tish’s birthday, Lisa’s BBQ, and played volleyball at Kits beach! Ran into Brodie and his friends, and we went to Samurai sushi after! It was a social and fun weekend!
The only thing is, I feel so behind. It feels like each day I play means 1 day of lack of progress. I play then I need time to recover before I have energy to work.
I guess I’ll just need to learn to balance my life.
Been keeping in touch with Matthew. He shared something on my wall again, an article about how scientists look to animals like rabbit to understand the female orgasm.
I suppose it makes sense that he wants to share that….both relate to me…to us. But did he think for a second that maybe I’d like to keep that more private? I wouldn’t share the same on his wall.
It makes me think that he is trying to steer other guys clear, subconsciously or consciously.
I think about us a lot. What’s our future like? Right now I think neither of us is ready to date each other. But I dream that maybe one day we can.
Right now, he is a cheater and is not even thinking about committing. Also, even though the shower gel he brought me was very nice, it makes me sad that it is a brand that he and his gf created. Sure, it’s only alive because his mentor/partner Howard is now in on it, but, it still says a lot about this relationship, possibly. A person I want to start my brand with has to be special. Yet, he is not respecting her at all, by being with me and blatantly posting flirty messages on my FB wall. He is quite an awful boyfriend really. A pretty good fuck buddy, but bad boyfriend. Then again, I really have no idea what their dynamics are.
He is a good bf in that, he is developing this business with her. It’s basically like having a kid together. And if he is polite with me, he probably is polite with her.
Patrick was sorta like this. He probably thinks he is a nice guy. The way he worded, Would you like me to book you a hotel. Holy shit. Such a bad gesture yet worded in a polite way.
Gotta watch out for people that talk the sweet talk but does the nasty.