Matthew came over. I hadn’t seen him for a month.
I decided to wear my ombre purple top and ripped denim shorts, and my purple wig. He was wearing a white top. He looked good. He looked so young.
He brought a shower gel for me. His brand.
It was so hot here. We made out, chatted, had very sweaty hot oily sex. It was good, but somehow I was not as giggly as I usually am.
Maybe it’s because I hardly ate that day…hoping to stay thin for him.
My hair was in the way. He said why don’t you change to a different one. Not, why don’t you go without a wig though.
He came fairly early. I showered using the gel he brought, and it was really nice. Eucalyptus and tea tree oil.
Today’s theme was…talking a lot. We talked a lot in bed, we talked on the balcony, and we talked when he tried to perform again. He ended up not being able to….he was too tired. But that’s ok.
I think there’s more of a friendship developing today, seeing how much we talked.
We talked about the process of him learning the piano, his fear of roller coasters and needles, his mom being adapted and his grandma didn’t want to meet his mom at 72 yo (She was only 14 when she gave birth!)
We stood on the balcony in our towels, chatting. I rested my arms around his right hip, my chest pushed up to his side. I was using his body to hold my towel up, haha. It was really nice just chatting and laughing with him on this cool summer night.
He saw Brown’s Social House, and said the food was good. He suggested that maybe we can go there one time. I was surprised that he’d suggested that. My reflex answer was to suggest that we bring the food back and eat naked on the balcony. I would be cautious about going out on an actual date with him….it’s not fair to me or to his gf. But maybe if it’s a super sexual dinner, then possibly.
In bed, he told me about his ability to control his ejaculation. He said his first time having sex, at 15, he was traumatized. He came in 5 seconds, and the girl laughed at him. Gossiped about it. He didn’t have sex for a year. Aw.. I would’ve been flattered if the guy came in 5 seconds the first time we had sex.
I’m surprised he told me something this personal. I don’t know if this was meaningful, him telling me so many personal things today, but I think it must be. Though he didn’t ask me a whole lot of questions. I think that’d be the real sign of him valuing me and falling for me.
Besides, he has a lot of secrets. For example, having a gf and never mentioning his gf. Almost never.
We do have a good time together. Conversation flows and we laugh a lot. We kiss a lot.
I had told him that one of my fantasies was getting a massage and that leading to sex. First time around, he was already fucking me, so it didn’t feel like my fantasy.  Second time around, he oiled me up, gave me a massage first. I was like, What’s your name? haha. He said, “Jackson”. OMG. If only he knew that I made out with Jackson. I couldn’t play along anymore. I didn’t pretend to call his name. But we joked around and I said Jackson “felt” like a black person.
Later on as we were getting dressed, he put on my purple ombre shirt, and pretended to be one of those muscle guys in their muscle tees. Well…that would be Patrick. The person he made fun of, was basically Patrick, lol.
I like that he did stay for me the entire time, and didn’t go to his events.
He just seemed much more talkative today. And in bed, he lied on me, facing me, when we talked.
When he left, we kissed so many times at the parking lot. He said thanks for having me, as usual. I said thanks for “coming” and we joked about it. When he got home, he messaged me as usual. Super cute.
I gotta remember: My musts are:
- Must love me without hair
- Must love me for being my unique self
- Must be monogamous
