I feel pretty lucky in general, especially after my run today!
Things are good. I’m grateful.
Mom and Dad are healthy and happy.
My business is doing quite well.
I’m healthy and happy.
I have friends and boyfriend who care about me.
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Just now I feel a little bit sad that John didn’t message me much at all today. Yesterday he didn’t either, but he called me and we talked for over an hour. It made me feel that we are on the right track. Even though talking to him isn’t that fun at all. He is rather boring. So why am I so sad when he doesn’t talk to me much? I think I naturally like to get attached. I naturally want to talk more to each other. I can’t remember the last time a guy who is interested in me talks so little to me. This makes me feel that he is not interested in me. But, I think he is. Just that he doesn’t have the habit of talking more frequently.
So, I should feel happier, because:
- He called yesterday and we talked for a while
- He doesn’t entertain me that much so it’s ok if he doesn’t call every night
- We are on the right path. No need to worry. We haven’t fought. We had a good convo last time. It’s just the way he is. Not personal.
- Learn to give the guy lots of freedom. He’ll come back for more.
I’d like to have more, yes.
- Give more to Mom and Dad. A dream house for Mom, and more money for Dad. Get them preventative health care.
- Business can do even better! More profit, more sales, more team, more free time.
- I can be healthier and happier. More energy and focus. More time. More friends.
- I can get a better boyfriend, who makes me laugh, inspires me, motivates me, brings out the best in me, makes me very happy, and vice versa. I’m still searching for you! But for now, I’ll learn to be a better girlfriend with John.