Ugh. I’ve been so horny. I saw Brad less than a week ago, but I’m eager to see him again. It’s not that I’m in love, but it’s confusing…I feel like I’m in love, but I think I’m just in a dick sand. There’s no reason to fall for him…he hasn’t been showing that much interest in me. Hormones. Period.
I feel sad actually. I wish we could date…like boyfriend girlfriend. But he is too busy with his biz…and…I still like Matthew more. I just wish that someone would think of me as date-worthy. Someone who I think is awesome will want to spend the time, energy, money, attention, to date me. I would totally do the same in return. But, Matthew doesn’t want to do that. I still can’t believe that he just went silent like that.
I started looking some more on Tinder and Bumble. I just went back to check out OKC and Zoosk too. Been a while.
I’m chatting with Sheldon from Tinder, who is a border patrol and is 5’9. Not hopeful there. Matched up with 2 guys on Bumble, but not hopeful there either. Guys on Bumble never message me back…
So many women go for less attractive guys. I used to be ok with it. But now I am very aware of who is good looking. I want someone that looks good to me, but need not be good looking to others.
Brad is kinda like that, but apparently he gets hit on a fair bit too. He is cuter than I realized. He is still the best of the bunch in every way. And is reliable. There are definitely many good qualities about him. But he doesn’t rock my world. He isn’t trying to anyway.
Well, I’m going to FreedomFastLane2, which is 100% entrepreneurs. Then Tony Robbin’s biz course, and I might join Remote Year with 74 other digital nomads. Maybe I’ll meet someone stellar. Can’t say I’m not tryin’!