I’m looking forward to going to Austin!
At the same time, I’m busy and sad.
Busy because Xmas shopping has begun, and the 4 pack metallic ring shipment is just coming in now.
Sad because, lacking someone to love me makes me sad.
I thought about what I think of Brad. What’s wrong with me? Why does he make me sad?
He is not curious about me and my life. I think that’s what it is.
And he doesn’t think about me very much.
And knowing that makes me sad.
Maybe he requires more time to fall in love? Should I give him more time?
Perhaps. But I’m going to go on more dates, and I’m going to stop asking him to come over.
I shouldn’t be sad, but I am. I can’t just like someone a little bit and sleep with them for long periods of time. After a while, I start to want them all the time, and that’s when a friends with benefits issue come in. I can’t communicate my desires.
Cat did communicate…she asked Sean, “Is there an opportunity to do more?” And they went to see movies. Problem is, now they are like boyfriend / girlfriend sort of, and he is still living with his girlfriend.
I know I’m doing all I can to find more options, more guys to date. But it takes time. I need to be patient.