It was the weekend. I still worked, but I didn’t document my time really.
The past week I was very distracted by Tinder msgs, which ended in vein. It was such a waste of my time. I can’t believe how big of a liar Matty was. It was eye-opening.
Made bunny mugs with Anna, Wilson, and Emma! It was actually a lot of fun!
Chatted with Jay. He is ok. He is nice. Mildly entertaining.
On Sunday I worked on my videos all day. Very time consuming. But I believe it will do well.
It occurred to me on Sunday that I can make Matty’s life miserable by letting him know that I told all his Facebook friends and family about his dick-sucking fantasy that he said he’s never told other people.
Then I was a bit disappointed to realized I had already deleted him off Tinder, and I deleted our Whatsapp convo (so I can’t really take a screenshot..but I wasn’t going to send a screenshot to his Facebook friends and family anyway..it takes too much time.)
But then it occurred to me that I can message him on FB, lol. So I said something like, I messaged all his friends, and don’t mess with a software engineer. Then I blocked him on FB. The only thing was, often people don’t notice the FB msgs from non-friends.
But not long after, he unblocked me on Whatsapp, and msg me to ask if I msg’d him on FB. He said he can’t see it (he is dumb). So I msg’d him to say, I noticed you blocked me on Whatsapp. That’s low. I don’t appreciate liars. I sent screenshot of your dick-sucking fantasy to all your FB friends. Have fun! Then I blocked him on Whatsapp.
I blocked his calls too, on my phone. But I didn’t block the txt msging. I didn’t know they are separate. He texted me that he is gonna call the police. I hesitated for a moment. Nah, there’s nothing he can report on me. I blocked his txt too.
So that was it. Heart pounding during this event. Got a bit of satisfaction. Felt that we are even. He wasted my time, totally lied to me (Unbelievable..he even said, he was always honest. He even asked me to ask him 3 questions and he’d be totally transparent about them. He even talked about every detail of what we are gonna do. Unless, he really meant them, but later got back with his gf, otherwise, he was just a pathological liar. It was too detailed for a normal person lying here and there.) I think it’s more than fair that he suffered from the idea that everyone knows he wants to suck dicks.
It still was on my mind a lot yesterday, and a bit today – a mix of satisfaction and guilt.
On a different note, it’s been about exactly 2 weeks, and Jeff is still on my mind. He really affected me deep. 10 days was 1/5 of the time we chatted. I should be over him by now. I still think about him.
Oh and I also got on the phone with Jeffrey on Sunday. He messaged me on Saturday wondering if I wanted to go for a drink. Said he ate a bunch of raw garlic and that made him crazy so that must’ve been why he was msging me. I was just heading out to make some bunny mugs, so I didn’t get to the bottom of why he never msg’d or called since V Day.
On Sunday, I asked him what the deal was. He said he really didn’t think it was that long, and he really was interested. I called him because I felt like it needed to be clarified on the phone.
His speech was hard to understand because he was talking fast and apologizing and wanting to have a date that day, or Monday, or Thursday, like he was desperate. Not hot.
The only reason why I wanted to keep this relationship up is because I think he can be a guy friend. He seems like a nice guy.
Sigh. Jeff was way cooler. Cooler than anyone. The way he talked, the stuff he does, and how much he loved me. I don’t have any hopes of ever being with him, but I want to meet someone cool again.
I listened to Louise Hay’s meditation Sunday night and Monday morning. She is great!