The other day over Ethiopean food, Kent confirmed that Michelle was staying at Sam’s, at least in the beginning.
Sam was MIA for two days after his Tinder date. I asked him about it today at the co-working space.
He messaged me and said that he didn’t want to have a reputation. And said that she was really hot and spent the night at his place. (It’s kinda hard to believe that someone ugly like him is attracting so many people.)
I asked him if it was a secret to Michelle. He had no idea that he already had that reputation.
He said there’s no one that’s his type in the tribe at the moment. Hmm….that’s a bit saddening. I thought he was interested in me, just that I’m unavailable. But then, you can’t always take what someone says at its face value. He could be saying it just because I’m unavailable. I wish he would tell me that he was into me though. Many things he does shows that.
But he is such a dick. Worst part, he doesn’t even know that he is.
Today he was talking about sexual stuff to me in front right in front of Michelle. What I would’ve thought to be flirting. He’s done that at the safari too…though those were more inside jokes between us. Does he not realize it’s flirting? Maybe he is like Merlijn and flirts without knowing. Then again I think he does it with me only…as far as I can tell. Maybe a little bit with Ashley.
I now can really appreciate having Alex. If I didn’t have him, I’d be crying over this dick of a guy. Also, he is not as funny now as he used to be.
After not seeing him for two days, I did get a new found appreciate for Alex already. I miss his gentleness, his love, his thoughtfulness.
Though I really thought I was more important to Sam. Maybe I am. My gut tells me I am. But boy am I glad that I didn’t tell him how I felt about him! Whew.
I’ve never experienced one-sided attraction where I’m the one attracted. But, to be perfectly honest, I think he was lying. I think he does like me more than he could admit. From my observations. For someone to listen so intently to what I say and remember everything, and to ask so many questions about what kind of guys I like, my ex, my current bf, what I look for in a relationship….I think he’s attracted.
He mentioned having a foursome with his friend one time, and they high-fived. Ew. I mentioned Josh being so hot and having a foursome with 3 girls. I mentioned that he was 8 or 10 years younger and looked young, and joked that I was a petophile. Of course he laughed and loved it and hung on to it.
I mentioned wanting to be in a power couple relationship. He kept asking what strengths I look for. I said I don’t know. There are many ways my strengths can be complemented. When I said I fantasized about finding someone here, instead of saying that I have a bf, he asked, Any luck? And said that “Dan is powerful.” lol. I know he wants me to want him. He can’t admit it to himself.
He asked about Alex. I mentioned my doubts about me and him. But I also show him pictures of Alex, to show him how cute Alex is.
Sam is a slut. Then again Alex had his confusion about relationships too, when he was younger. Basically, guys in their 20s are mostly undatable. Then again, Robert seems fine.
I can’t wait to be back in Alex’s arms. To experience his love, and to love him <3