Omg I love new beginnings!
WifiTribe is done. Trip with Mom is done. I’m back in Vancouver, and I can:
- Sign up for dance classes!
- Learn to skateboard!
- Sign up for martial arts!
- Develop a beauty regime such as microneedling!
- Develop exercise regime such as running and swimming and developing my abs!
- Eat healthy!
- Learn to invest!
- Expand my business!
- Grow and learn and live and be happy!
I have 3.5 months until Burning Man (August 25 ~ September 5). Then after that, the next trip is to Fiji during September 26- October 4.
I’m just realizing that Burning Man requires a lot of prep! Gotta get a bike, camping gear, and all the costumes! It’ll be fun thinking up the costumes though 🙂
Masha will be away in Europe June 2~June 12 and sometime in July around her birthday! I can’t wait. In June a girl will be staying here instead of me getting the whole place to myself. Annoying, but still better than having Artsy around. He is so super annoying now.
I still think about Mike a lot. The more I think back about our time together, the more I’m certain that he was into me. If he thinks back about me, he’ll know that I was into him too.
He made me laugh. He appreciated my sense of humour. And that means so much to me.
I can’t believe I’m still thinking about him after 1 month! Almost everyday I wish that he’d message me.
Johnny Bunny has been sweet. I was so impatient to him and wanted to break up again. I walked away mid-sex. I got mad at him 3 or 4 times in our 2 days together. He stayed patient. That’s a rare quality about him. I still don’t see us together, sigh. I wish he was as funny as Mike. And as conversational. That will make him perfect, pretty much. He is fine with chilling and just having a laid back time together laughing at shows. I’m not fine with that. I want to have deep conversations, intelligent debates, witty banter.
Masha talked to me about this, as she revels in being single and sleeping with a bunch of guys, having, finally, amazing sex with Jay the “greek god”. She keeps on trying to discover my pattern and find out what I’m stuck on, and wants me to get out of this relationship with John.
I realized that I’m not stuck on anything. I simply want to be in a relationship for now. I just wished it was with someone I feel that I can be with forever. Someone I can fall in love with.
Dating is like travelling, and each person is like a country. I’m just a bit sick of being a nomad for 10 years now, 29 to 39. I want to settle down in a “country”. Do the routine. Enjoy the small things. Enjoy that feeling of familiarity. Enjoy having someone care about me. Build on a foundation.
Mike is so funny, but he is selfish. He is cynical. He is hard to be with.
Bunny is rarely funny, but he is sweet to me. He is patient with me. He is willing. He doesn’t give up on us, ever.
We had a good evening last night, going to Bin 4. Sex before that. He tried his best, initiating sex when I got there like I wanted. It wasn’t the best sex, but I appreciate him putting the effort in. Bin 4 was delicious with and it was happy hour to our surprise! He was quite boring to dine with, but he was much more cooperating now than before. I said I was cold, and wanted him to rub my thighs. He didn’t want to do it in public, but he did it still.
Bunny has been tight on money and has become more money conscious. I don’t like that, but, will be good to see him thrive eventually. I hope I can help him.
Still need to break up with him at some point because I need the surprise factor and the depth and the belling-aching laughs. But for now, we can comfort each other.