Yesterday was a tough day and I cried.
Etsy put us in vacay mode. Ella ghosted and didn’t work for 2 days. DesktopShipper still wasn’t working. Mom needed help setting up IBKR wire.
But at the end of the day I realized I had way more to be grateful for. I think I also cried because of how I’m in a sexlationship with Alex, which is a dead end because he wants kids. And in a relationship with Bunny, which is also a dead end because he is not a good match.
Bunny was having a hard day yesterday too. Sigh. I want him to heal. Poor baby. I prayed for him.
Didn’t talk to Alex yesterday. Thought about him though. Missed kissing him. The most memorable thing he said last time was “Did you…like..miss me?” and the most memorable thing he did was wanting to hear me sing and actually sang with me. He is so adorbs.
I’m not quite as horny as the first 4 weeks haha….but still very horny. On Monday his car got broken into so I kinda felt like he wasn’t thinking about me. I think we are good since last we talked so I wasn’t as “attached”.
Today (Wednesday) he messaged me. That was nice. He just says “Heyyaa! Hows ya sunny day today? Ring factory caught up on orders?”
He’s not very romantic when messaging…
I said we needed nicknames so we can stop calling each other heyyaa. He said he’d call me Bunny Hops, or just Bunny.
Well….that’s fine. I can’t think of a better name for me.
I can’t call him Bunny though…
I said I can be Bunny and he can be Hops. Or Pablo (the name he gave my polar bear purse)..or Mochi (the name I was gonna give my polar bear purse). He chose Mochi haha.
We exchanged work updates.
I said I wanna kiss him so bad. But then I made the mistake of saying right away that I wanted to kiss his dick too.
He got all hard on that second part. Didn’t say anything about kissing me.
But overall we good. Now we have nicknames for each other.
Sometimes I feel that we’re just paving way to date some day. But then it’s not for marriage.
But maybe I don’t want marriage anyway….I don’t know. I like the idea of finding each other to be the only one for each other. But I think sex will get boring eventually.
Maybe we’ll be bored of each other sexually eventually. Who knows. Then it wouldn’t hurt so bad to let it go.
But I think there’s something undeniable. We fit each other perfectly physically. Our hugs are perfect. His dick fits me perfectly. We’re both passionate and sexual.
Mentally and personality wise we seem to be a pretty good fit too. We both laugh at the same things often. We are biz oriented. We are driven and ambitious. We love sex, cuddles, pillow talks. We are pretty outgoing. Pretty adventurous and curious.
I think he is more of a partier and drinker. And he lives at home. And he loves tattoos. And he loves being on-trend (hanging with 20 somethings). He wants to have kids. I think these are places where we can diverge.
And I know we will eventually….but right now, it’s so good. Right now, it’s amazing actually.