Decided to give each other nicknames.
What turned me on the most was he said “my” sexy bunny. Oh my. I was so wet from that.
Also he use red heart emojis with me for the first time <3 <3
In general he is not very good at saying sexy things to me (he would lead by ask me about work), but the important part is that he puts effort in haha. At least, some effort.
And according to that book I read (His Secret Obsession), I need to find a way for the guy to be able to “win”. I’ve been keeping that in mind.
I’m a bit doubtful that this book will be as effective as it claims (by letting the guy be the hero), but, we shall see. If I told Alex that he “rescued” me from being almost dead inside because of my sexless relationship, would that make him feel like a hero?
So far I’ve been doing lots of things right, by chance. Like asking him to help me with brand advice.
Then again, nothing changes in the fact that he wants kids and I am in a relationship. What happens if we go too deep?
Well, I’ll think about it when it comes to that. He is going to Japan in April. Who knows what will happen then. Who knows how long this will last.
For right now, I am SO attracted to him. Everything about him. I don’t think I’ve ever been so attracted to someone. Maybe Matthew. 14 orgasms is still the record. I like that he always let me have as many orgasms as I wanted and then he’d finish. Alex comes faster than I’d like, but we talk and laugh, and have sex again sometimes. Alex is the type to date with sincerity I think. Even though we are not a couple, we both act somewhat like we are. There’s no other way.
I’ve been masturbating so much, it’s almost impacting work. I need to remember that this ain’t no time to slack. Do some good work and ask him lots of questions! This is a great opportunity.
But the orgasms I get from thinking about him…wow…so good. I’d lie there, in a bliss soup, imagining the conversations we’d have. I doubt he is THAT into me. I’m a little obsessed.
Why is that? I don’t know. Something about him….or just my lack of comparable experience in my entire life. Someone who is smart, funny, playful, fun, successful in biz, perfect size, great in bed….this has never happened before.
White meat doesn’t even turn me on much anymore. Not Asians either. Only him. I’m under his spell.
Then again, I still think Bunny is very hot. And I kissed him yesterday. And I think if he’d touch me in a sexy way I’d still be turned on. I wanted to have sex with him yesterday. I was so horny. But, he was not.
For that, I think it’s fair that I have steamy sex with Alex.
And I’m grateful for Alex being in my life (as long as he makes me happy not sad haha).
He kept saying “can’t wait”, but we haven’t figured out when we’re meeting up. Sometimes it’s all very last minute with him.
