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Consider the past month and describe one moment when you felt really good, like you were participating in something particularly meaningful.
You then ask him what made it feel meaningful. You ask why it felt good.
The past month the one moment I felt really good was when I was on mushroom with Alex and his friends. He had his arms around me, and we were laughing super hard.
Why did it feel meaningful? Why did it feel good?
It felt amazing being in his arms. I felt safe, protected. He would make sure that everything is gonna be ok for me that night because he cared.
It felt good because we were laughing. I love and miss having a group of friends.
It felt good because I loved the touch, and how I felt so close to Alex. And it was exciting, because I was becoming attracted to him. And I know that he was attracted to me too. And we were both so horny.
It felt good because in the group I have a “boyfriend” who is the cutest and smartest in the group, who likes me and is holding me. I love that so much. It makes me feel loved. It makes me feel like I’m getting special attention. Extra love. Extra attentiveness.
It’s meaningful because this feeling is the essence of happiness for me.
It’s also meaningful because we are experiencing something new (the northern lights, new friends, higher mushroom dose or this particular strain of mushroom) and building friendship.
Love, touch, intimacy, friendship, group friends, laughter, new experiences, adventure.
I need to find a boyfriend like that.
I need to find a group of friends like that.
We need to do fun adventures.