Had a fun VA meeting with Dale, Faroo, and Yana last night! It was 2.5 hours long and we laughed so much!
I didn’t want to do it. I always dread having VA meetings. But just before it I pumped myself up with “This is what you came for” music haha. Then I made a lot of jokes during. We all had fun I think.
At the beginning of the meeting, I saw that Alex finally messaged me.
I’ve been trying to battle my inner demon since the weekend…since he didn’t message me to say let’s have sex or not…just nothing. This makes me so sad, and I had to come to terms that maybe this isn’t something he can change, and that it’s not about me, and that I need to see this as nothing more than a casual thing.
He messaged me like he didn’t do anything wrong. Oh well. I’m not gonna turn our sexlationship into a me-getting-mad-at-him dynamic, so I let it slide. I do hope that he will be actively arranging our next sex though. If not, that’s that.
I haven’t been eagerly masturbating the past 10 days…well, except for one day where I gave myself 4 orgasms. I had my period, and, after that, I masturbated that one day, then, I didn’t feel like it…I think I’m having a small yeast infection or a HPV relapse! I hope it’s not bad…I hope it goes away soon.
I think it’s either the celery juice or him stressing me out / pissing me off.
Ugh. I can’t wait to meet my dream husband.