Ok! It’s taken me a while to write this because I’ve been in a low mood, but, it’s getting better each day. Plus, there are some cool stuff that has happened!
The low mood cause is, of course, Alex. I still am puzzled by how he can just ghost me, but the pain is subsiding. Time will heal it I’m sure.
If he behaves like this, he is not a good guy for me anyway. I try not to judge this behaviour. I try to forgive and just be grateful.
The other thing is, John. We are a bit better these days. Fewer fights. But, he is so sick…and today he said it’s just been getting worse. It doesn’t help that the world status is cray cray right now, with the war between Russia and Ukraine happening and Omicron lockdown in China. It makes the stock market super volatile, which really impacts him, understandably. Nobody really knows what’s going on in the world.
I really want him to feel better. Unselfishly and selfishly.
Now for the good news:
I’m learning about our Universe, the 9 dimensions, and our consciousness – and it’s fascinating! I discovered Matias de Stephano. He is such a gem. What he talks about just feels right. It’s similar (but different) to what I have felt. That feeling of missing home. That feeling of being pure bright energy together with other energy beings and feeling happy and loved.
Some neutral news:
Office
Office set-up is on-going. Sometimes I’m really fed up with Nicole being so dumb and dramatic. But sometimes I’m grateful of her being on the careful side. Alyssa is fine too. Not sure how fast she is, but she is decently smart.
We are still adding more office items. Something to tape up the windows with. Get a fridge that works. Get some Kallax shelves.
It’s been 1.5 months at the new office and we’ve been setting up quite nicely I think.
I’m sure one day I’ll look back on all this fondly 🙂
Social Life
I’ve been gone to Lisa’s twice now, for poker. It’s ok fun. These people are really just so so. But, it’s some socializing! And most are not vaxxed. I think Lisa’s husband Nathan is decently smart. Just kinda white-trashy haha.
Been closer to Cyndi because of our love/sex lives. It’s nice. I learn a lot from her. She uplifts people. She attracts people because of it.
I wish she wasn’t brain damaged…but hopefully she’ll heal and be able to work on Knot Theory marketing one day.
Ty has been so distant…we rarely hang out and he replies to my messages sometimes a week or more later. He really broke Cyndi’s heart too, especially recently, when he had his lawyer send her an agreement to buy her half of Tybot for $60.
This makes me think that people with hyperfocus (Ty and Alex) just do whatever they want to do, and ignore other people’s feelings. Two of my fave guys in the world. Sigh.
Been chatting often with Mark. He is my new fave guy friend. AND, we have the same bday!
I’ll organize some get-togethers with the ECF group, Jessica and Darlene, etc. Maybe invite Mark to something too.
It’s my bday coming up…but I think I won’t be hosting a party. Can’t wait for April 8 – will sign up for a dance class!