Period just started this morning.
Felt headache yesterday, and left ear was muffled when I woke up yesterday and today. Also feeling horny last night and a bit sad, missing Alex.
It’s been so long now yet I still miss him.
I posted a boring story of the empty Willows Beach yesterday.
IG Story is the only place where I have some form of connection with him now. I can see that he saw my story. And I miss him.
I don’t look at his stories because it’s painful. I don’t want to see him get a new girlfriend. I don’t want to see him enjoying life.
I want to hear from him. I want him to message me to tell me that he misses me.
But then what?
I know he misses me. He always views my stories.
I guess that will have to be enough.
I can’t help but think that we are meant to be more, even though he wants kids and I don’t.