Need a moment and a pep talk

I need a moment with myself.

I need a moment to give myself a pep talk.

Recent Wins:

  1. Yesterday, sales were great, and conversion was great!
  2. A couple days ago I set up Kno Commerce post survey, and it’s been so insightful and fun to read!
  3. Today, I finally set up A/B testing with ShopLift. I also finally tried VWO and saw that it wasn’t good!
  4. I got the CanExport Grant! $25K. Seems like so little, but, c’mon, it’s a lot haha. It’s 6-months salary!
  5. Got several 3-hour fun Spikeball sessions the past week. My skills improving too!
  6. Lost some weight from playing Spikeball
  7. Improved skin with new skin care routine
  8. Improved hair growth with new hair care routine
  9. Stocks doing well
  10. One of the most easy periods recently, and it started the day after my birthday.

What is bothering me:

Well, I’m hopelessly in love with Paul. I barely know him. I’ve barely spent time with him. I mean, maybe that’s why he is so attractive. Because so far, he is perfect.

He is funny, and he makes me feel that I’m funny. He is responsive in chat, which makes me feel valued. Yes he is smart, handsome, accomplished, competent, talented – but most of all, he makes me feel good. He makes people feel good. THAT is a skill that is rare!

He is amazing. And I feel very sad that he is taken. He is SO taken that there’s just no way in. He married his high school sweetheart, so they’ve been together for 15 years. Even if they somehow break up, he’ll take years to heal before becoming a normal datable person. There’s just no way. It’s like Tom and Lisa Bilyeu. They have so much shared experience, there’s just no way for anyone else to come in.

I tried to imagine that he has a small penis and that’s why he is so fiercely loyal. Actually I just check Tom Bilyeu’s nose, and he can very well have a smallish penis too lol.

I also thought about how Paul wears a hat or a toque AT ALL TIMES. That’s suspicious and maybe he has hair loss.

But the truth is, I’d love him even if he has a small dick and hair loss. He is that amazing.

But there’s no way to have him.

It’s ok. Someone amazing for me will come along <3