Wow, hard to believe it, but have been around the sun 44 times!
I guess in some ways it isn’t that long. If I was a person from the future, 44 is probably the equivalent of being 20!
Mentally, I feel like I’m in my early 30s. I get along best with someone in their 30s. Maybe not as energetic or “hungry” though. Or, I do get bursts of motivation and energy, but the most motivated times seem to be behind me. I don’t do all nighters (still to late nights sometimes). I think being a lot richer now than in my 30s also makes me more chill.
Appearance-wise, I do feel that I look older now. Maybe 30s. I want to get a facelift. Lighting determines a lot so I’m not sure exactly how “aged” I am. In some light, I look great, in some light, I don’t. I’m a bit chubbier right now due to inactivity in winter, so that makes my face look puffier and eyes smaller. I struggle with saggy eyelids, and a bit of marionette lines.
Physically, I feel healthy, but my skin is dryer. Have had 2 spasms the past year, lower back in the summer last year from practicing volleyball, and shoulder blade (probably from testing out anti-aging DIY pillows) 3 months ago. I feel that my energy is good, but sometimes I don’t have the motivation to do things that require more effort. Like snowboarding – seems like a hassle. Also, I haven’t run or done a lot of hard workout in a while.
Mood-wise, well, winter has been a dread, but now we’re coming into Spring and playing spikeball, I feel better. The past couple periods have been better mood-wise I think. Not exactly sure why.
Health-wise, good overall, but would like more energy, more power, and be more lean and toned.
Financially, really good! Net worth at almost $8M! Thanks to Bunny helping my money grow.
Romantically, well, nothing. Have a bit of a crush on Paul, but he is married. Sex drive a bit dead. Been 1.5 years since I had sex (Brandon). I don’t miss anyone, not even Alex. I’ve forgotten these encounters because it’s been so long. And I’ve forgotten what Paul is like because we only had a very brief encounter at ECF Live. I’d like to travel with someone I love, laugh lots together, make love, and make each other feel loved, alive, and thriving. But the reality is, being in a relationship comes with a lot of variables. I’ve always been happier when single. So maybe it’s a blessing not a curse.
Spiritually, I feel that something is lacking. I’m not doing anything inspiring.
Am I making the best use of my time here on this planet?
Am I having as much fun as possible?
Am I making the world a better place?
I’m chasing youth, I’m chasing wealth.
I want to stay young forever, of course.
I want to be rich and free, of course.
I shouldn’t feel guilty.
But no kids, no boyfriend….I should be able to dedicate time to something more.
What is it?
- What makes me really happy? Playing Spikeball haha. Simple me.
- Why do I love Spikeball? I love moving my body. I love laughing. We are always laughing about something – good or bad. That’s what makes Spikeball so fun.
- How do I level up? Watch more videos, level up, enter tournaments.
What makes me feel like I’m living a good life?
What makes me feel like I’m doing something meaningful?
- Helping others
What makes me feel like I’m making good use of my time?