I guess I’ve been without love for too long. How long has it been? I don’t even recall.
We all need love. I thought I was ok without love…but it was only temporary…I feel the life force in me wasting away.
But I’m so hesitant to find a lover. I don’t want to go on Tinder. I just feel like there’s no one for me. It’s not like 2 years ago when I felt that there are guys for me, and there were. I feel that I know that right now I won’t find anyone even if I try. It is as though, deep in my subconscious I know that I don’t have that in my fate right at this moment. The time will come, but it’s not right now.
I really want to focus. I really want to grow my business. But, having a boyfriend is good too. Can be amazing in fact. We can better each other, expand each other’s horizons, and encourage each other. Oh how I want that.
I wish for a miracle.