Started Maria, my first VA, yesterday!
I’m not sure how good she is yet.
It was a lot of work to set her up, but I’ve documented the process.
She was a bit slow on Day 1. That’s ok. She said her internet was extra slow yesterday but it was a one-off.
Played volleyball with Brodie today. It was fun. I learned that I need to hit the ball when it’s in a small window in front of me lol.
Also, I need to not put my hands together before the ball is near.
He trained me for about an hour…then we walked about business and stuff. And then we tried to play a little bit more but we already cooled off.
After that, we played foosball and then air hockey (first time for me!) It was fun.
I had lots of fun with Brodie, playing sports. He is patient even though we aren’t dating. I didn’t even feel any vibe from him today. I didn’t put eye makeup on today so I probably looked worse today too. But I’m starting to think that the lack of attraction is mutual. We can be friends after all.
Cyn is throwing a party when she is back. Double denim party, on March 19th. I got so horny just thinking about that Jackson might be there lol.
But who knows. I just know that I don’t want to have made out with Brodie and then can’t make out with Jackson. If there’s a chance to make out with Jackson, I’d choose him first I think.
Brodie is looking cuter these days, but he really isn’t the funnest person. We have fun doing physical activities, like kids would. But, nothing beyond that.
However, I had a long nap after coming home, and I dreamt about him! I dreamt that he applied to be some sort of special agent job, and they turned him down because he didn’t have 2 jobs in his job history. Then he started crying!
I was surprised that he started crying, so I gave him a big long hug. After a while he said he was actually horny now.
That was the start of our “relationship” lol.
So then we held hands and went to what seemed like a furniture store in a mall, where he can talk to a lady about qualifying a job he had so that he can qualify for the special agent job. After waiting a while, he came out of the shop really happy because they decided to count that job lol.
I don’t know if we kissed in the dream.
I don’t really fantasize about him. Even though, he is cute enough that I don’t mind him being close to me or even making a move. But, I’m not tempted, right now, to make a move on him.
Before I met Ashley, I was so tempted.
But Ashley is not in my life right now (I so wish he can come to the denim party!) and I don’t really think about him much any more, but I also don’t think about Brodie either.
I have almost no memories of Jackson nor Matthew. And I’m tired of thinking about Josh or Patrick. So really, there’s no one to fantasize about.
I so want to make out with someone cute for real. Someone who is really into me and will treat me nicely. None of the above guys really qualifies. Sigh.
How can I get more sincere attraction from attractive guys?