Ah Matthew. He messaged me yesterday as I was browsing for a place in Yaletown (I’m thinking to buy a house in Victoria and rent it out, using the rent to pay towards renting a place in Yaletown.)
I was drooling over this place, $3K/month:
$3000 / 1br – 883ft2 – LARGE FURNISHED 2-LEVEL YALETOWN LOFT (1238 Seymour Street)
LARGE, FURNISHED, RARE, upper-level designer loft in trendy Yaletown’s The Space! Larger and higher than most lofts – 16ft soaring ceilings, huge bedroom upstairs + den/office space with corner windows. Spacious walk-in closet. Huge floor to ceiling windows, hardwood floors throughout with motorized blinds. North and West city and park views. Building includes access to exercise room, party room, and barbecues. Walking distance to downtown core, seawall, and Granville/ Davie St entertainment and food.
Furnished with king-sized bed, leather sofa, custom bar counters, and lots of shelving space. TV – basic cable and internet included!
One-year lease preferred. Credit-check required. $200 move-in fee charged by strata payable upon move-in.
SECURED underground parking included. Email for details/viewing. AVAILABLE IMMEDIATELY.
It’s such a dream home for me. I don’t think I can afford it. I made probably only $170,000 CAD last year, and can only withdrawl $11,000 personal income tax-free.
Oh one day soon I hope I can afford it!
I have about $500K CAD saved up. In 2016 I hope to make $350K. In 2017 I hope to make $700K. Then I can afford it. With about $1MM in the bank, I can get $8K/month on interest. If I only invest $800K of it in interest-generating investments, then that’s $5K/month. Enough to live off of.
Anyway, back to Matthew.
I woke up at noonish, and my mind was a bit preoccupied with unsure thoughts about Brodie, part hate part lust. At around 2pm, I was in bed, browsing Yaletown condos to get an idea of the price, and chatting with Norm.
Matthew msg’d me. My heart suddenly started to race. I don’t know why. I’m so into him. He usually quickly dispels any thoughts I have about Brodie. I was happy for that. I’d rather lust about Matthew, who is cuter, funnier and has lately been lifting me up from emotional valleys that I seem to arrive at more frequently than not. I know he is not the most ethical person…sigh….but he is unique, he is special, he is fun.
His opening line was, “Wait, you have a BSc in Comp Sci?” I’m not sure if I should’ve been happy about it or not. I can’t believe he forgot about that, but I’m glad he knows that now, and I’m glad he was browsing my profile.
He told me about his Taiga biz. I wasn’t too thrilled about it because I know that’s a biz he started with his gf.
I took the opportunity to ask him about foosball. Turned out he spent 15 years honing his skills, and was competing nationally. Crazy! I was even more attracted to him. I love that he has the consistency to develop a new skill and become completely proficient at it. He’s developed so many that I know of. Piano, foosball, Japanese. He is a good programmer too, and already doing well with his business. I’m so jealous. He has everything good. He has the good looks, the smarts, the sense of humour, the charm, the money, and the luck. His life just seems utterly wonderful.
At the same time I’m so attracted to him. Alpha’s are freaking attractive, obviously.
We flirted as usual, and then I said I wanted him to come over…when I’m ready, in 2, 3 weeks.
He was eager to come over last night or tonight….but, I’m still on my period and I feel fat. I have a belly I’m desperately trying to get rid of. I think it’s passable with other guys, but not with him.
Also, I’m starting a VA (Keesha) on Sunday and don’t want to be distracted. I know after sex with him I’d be high for days.
Also, this place is a MESS. I was motivated today to clean the kitchen, laundry area, wiped the floor. I was motivated to eat less too. Sex is a huge motivator for me!
I really hope that Matthew and I can have an amazing time, and that we’ll see each other at least once a month.
I don’t know if I’ll meet his expectation, physically, and in other areas.I just hope he likes my body, and my brains. I hope he treats me well. I don’t want to be ghosted again. He has the tendency to do that.
I know I still find him attractive, despite there being signs of receding hair line. It’s hard to imagine him looking less than perfect….I wonder how well he’ll deal with balding…
But we don’t care about that right now.